[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I am tired of being ill
I am tired of sick pets
I am tired of sleeping in long johns, socks and sweatshirts with %#@&#! space heaters on to TRY to stay warm
I am tired of idiot bill collectors calling trying to get what I do not have
I am tired of no propane so I cannot keep me, the pets and my wash warm and dry
I am tired of my medical insurance costing over $1500.00 and my income being near $1700.00 a month
I am tired of hearing I make TOO MUCH to qualify for any aide...
I am tired of bad news
I am tired of supporting people who post that they need an answer or advice and then not BOTHERING to acknowledge it..do you think my life is so grand that I have nothing better to do than spend my time being nice to you and supporting you
I am tired of a bathroom thats so cold I hate to go in it
I am tired of not seeing my T for months
I am tired of so much I find myself saying less and less
I am so %#@&#! tired I wish I would go to sleep and not wake up
I am fed up and tired of trying

[Daonnachd]

((((SWB))))

may you rest and be refreshed

[(JD)]

That's a lot of "weary" imo... I understand. Me too. Very trying, this thing called life. ((sleeps))

[oksomaybeimnuts]

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I understand. Please know that you are very much loved.

[Lexicon78]

Sleeps, I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time just trying to stay above water right now.

You and your posts are greatly appreciated even if I don't always acknowledge them and I'm sorry for not doing so.

[Greenleaves]

(((((((((SleepsWithButterFlies))))))))))

I hope things work out better soon. It sounds like you're having a rough time.

Sleeps,

I'm sorry you are so very tired.

I understand so much of what you're saying. It's good you posted this..... this way, I can give you some of the support that you so much deserve.

I am here listening. (though, my computer is in the shop--it crashed I'm using my husband's and don't have much time to be on here presently-- but hopefully, in a few days I will have my comp back)

You can PM me anytime.

Sleeps--

mandy

[January]

Oh Sleep!!!!

I wish there was something concrete I could do to help you, but I hope this hug helps at least a little bit. You know I'm here for you.

(((((((((((((( Sleeps ))))))))))))))))

Hugs,

Jan

[ErinBear]

Hi Sleeps,

I'm sorry so many things are so hard right now - it's not fair! I keep hoping things are going to start looking up soon. (((((Sleeps)))))) I send many hugs and good wishes your way....I have been all along and will keep doing so....I hope it will help to know me and others here are sending you good wishes....

Take care,
ErinBear

[jmo531]

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I am so sorry I have been away and havent been here for you. I am sorry you are so down right now and I understand every word that you have expressed here.

Please try and be gentle with yourself during this difficult time. Remember, expressing your feelings is a good thing, no matter how difficult it can be.

I am here for you as you have always been there for me.

Take care friend,


Jen

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
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You have picked me up time and time again, Sleeps.

Even in the face of your own adversity, (and you sure have had your share)
you reach out to others and offer support, wisdom and laughter.

That says a lot about who you are kiddo.

I am grateful for you.

I'm here.

Petunia

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((Sleeps)))))))))))))))))

I am here for you too!
Bearhugs,
Furry Paws

[Twinks]

Hi Sleeps,

I'm so sorry you are struggling and feeling down.

You got me out of the shadows to post because I have always liked you. I've always admired your genuine caring, upbeat attitude and humorous take on situations.

Sending lucky fairy dust your way.

Twinks

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((sleeps)))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that life is making you so weary right now. It appears that you have a lot to contend with. Please know I am here should you need someone. Take care and be kind to yourself.

[SerenitysWave]

<font color="purple">(((((((((( sleeps ))))))))))))) I am sorry that you are feeling such a heavy load of weary , I know many here can relate including myself. Please know that we care about you and want you to stay well and safe. I just wish I had words of wisdom that would lessen the burdens you are feeling. </font>

[wisewoman]

Sleeps, I am so sorry that you are hurting. I wish I could take it away. I want you to know that you are a very honest, loving being. You have integrity, you live from your beliefs. I wish I could make it go away but know I am loving you and thinking of you okay?

[EJ711]

Sleeps,

I'm sorry everthing seems so grim right now. Thank you for writing to me the day I was feeling so cold. Do you live somewhere, where it will be warmer soon?

The cost of medical insurance has gotten out of hand. It is really like, am I going to eat, or am I going to have medical insurance if I should get sick?

Hugs,

EJ

[SeptemberMorn]

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I hear ya! I truly understand!

Night before last I, too, felt overwhelmed by everything. After fighting off sleep for a few hours, I finally hit the sheets and reverted to something I used to do as a kid and that was fantasize about things that I wanted. This time it was my mother and what she didn't give me when I was growing up.

I pictured her laying in my bed with me and did something I know she wouldn't have allowed. I "crossed my half of the bed" and put my head on her shoulder. I could smell her and feel the part of me that was touching her... and I cried and cried and cried. For two or more hours I cried and I told her everything that was bothering me.

My face was all swollen yesterday, but my heart was lighter.

You can choose whomever you want to tell your troubles to... cry... and then sleep... or not. That's what worked for me. We don't ALWAYS have to be strong. It's okay to let our guard down and allow ourselves what we so desperately need... to stop fighting!

[SeptemberMorn]

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and I cried and cried and cried. For two or more hours I cried

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I received the following from a very dear friend and mentor in my email today. You see, I told her in more detail what I told you above. This is what she had to say:

I have all sorts of "news" groups--associated for different things, like a love of mystery novels, but open to any and all topics--and there was posted on one an article about therapeutic qualities of tears. Well, duh! Everybody, but us gals especially, knows that a good cry is good for what ails us!

Any ol' how--scientific studies have proved that emotionally related tears contain toxins, while tears caused from physical irritation (like onions, grit, or minor injuries) are salt and water, only. So when we let loose and cry, we're getting both emotional and physical benefits. Kinda neat, huh?

My body should be totally rid of toxins as much as I've been crying lately! So... I guess it's a good thing.

[drunksunflower]

im sorry .. tried to PM u to no avail.

kia kaha

be strong

tara
xx

[SongBirdandDaisy]

((((((((sleeps))))))))

A cake to celebrate who you are! A caring, considerate, supportive person!

I hope you feel better soon. We're here for you!

Anne and All the Others

[wisewoman]

Crying is a learned thing for me, had to learn how. I wish I could hold you while you cried. I am not afraid of deep emotion and pain. Crying is good when it releases fully some of the angst within.

I hope that you are feeling a bit better!

((((((((((((((Sleeps))))))))))))))

[lenjan]

Sleeps, I could have written every word you did. I think we are in the same place emotionally right now. I wish I could give you a hug and a little hope for the future -- maybe we could try that for each other.

Hugs,
Candy

[CedarS]