[Serenity]

....or alot mroe than one,really? I remember a time back Fuzzy was looking for the "right" board to "******" lol....while it "sounds" cute....it's very real.
I cant possibly be the only person that sometimes gets so frustrated and at the end of their rope they want to yell and scream and rant and rave...when you get so fed up with everything...life...depression...anxiety...panic attack..."the system"...the fairness and unfairness of the world...the wrongs of the world and hwoit effects you personally.
Well I've definitely been having a months worth of those days.
No matter where I turn or dont , or what I do or dont I might as well beat my head against the wall and say ***** it.
Im a tough Lady...and I try to be strong and handle thing...but Im also one of the msot sensitive people and emotional too. Its so hard dealing with both and trying to be "tough" and bear through it all.
I constantly ask my self "WHY!?!?"....why do so many obstacles have to be thrown in my path?...why do things have to end up badly...why do so many things have to hurt...why should one person have to deal with so much...what on Earth could I have ever done to deserve all this ch*t?...why,why,,,WHY!?!?!
SOrry, I know there arent any answers...I jsut really needed to let it out . Maybe I need a punching bag..though Im afraid if I got one I'd probably hurt myself .
Sorry for "ranting" but Im so sick of it all.
Jennifer...always seeking Serenity

[darkeyes]

Oh man, most of my days have been like that, don't mind me laughing, it isn't at you, it is because many things have become a real joke (sarcasm on my part) like a joke without a punchline I feel often just like you said you feel here and also ask myself, "WHY, WHY, why me? or WHAT did I do to deserve this chaos in my life? Maybe we could just let out a scream together??
Here's mine : SCREAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Does that help? I think it is in Japan, or some country where people go to scream, with hopes of releaving themselves of tension, anger, and the many stresses in life.
Sad to say, my scream would propbably become a ROAR, ha!ha!
Take care and scream if you want, let it rip

(((((((((((((((((( Serenity))))))))))))))))

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[Serenity]

To be honest,DE....It gets so frustrating ,I ,too had to not laugh while I tried to convey it in text because its sooooooo dang pathetic you have to laugh or you'll cry. o I understand the "laughing with me" part.
A screaming place owuld be nice, agreed....I think i want one where you can chuck the dishes too. Not sure hwo or why it would help but it sounds very nice right now.
I'd like to heave this big elephant off my chest as well. Ive had him long enough its way past time he just moved along already.
Whoever coined hte phrase "When it rains it pours" forgot to add..."For Jennifer...when it rains,...expect a Hurricane"

[forgoten]

((((((((((((((Serenity)))))))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((Darkeyes)))))))))))))))))))

forgoten

[inthedark]

(((Serenity)))

I wish that I could make things like this better for all of us.
Remember to keep kicking aside the obstacles that try to hold you back.

inthedark

[inthedark]

(((DE)))

I would love to just go outside and scream right now, but as I live in a small town, the police would probably be knocking on my door within 10 minutes. Just picturing that makes me laugh I'd rather laugh than cry!!!

inthedark

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Jennifer}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

If you need to scream, but you're afraid of what people around you would think, just get in your car and go drive somewhere that there is some space and not too many people around; then you can scream all you want. That's one thing my T told me to do instead of, uhm, other things that I do to try to deal with stress. He says that other people do it. I don't know that I could. I don't know if I even can scream - I've never tried.

Or just tell us about it here like you did. It sounds like that has already helped you. I'm sorry that everything is so unfair. Sometimes life gets like that for all of us. I do believe that it is important for us to face our obstacles and learn that we can make it through them somehow (and that it doesn't need to be alone - friends can really help), and that it is through this process that we grow and become stronger.

This is a good place to let it out. We're with you and sending good thoughts your way to help you get through it and hope it gets better soon.

Love,
Wendy

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>

[PlanningtoLive]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jenn}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

One of the things I do, esp. when I am not alone, is close my eyes for a minute and picture a room of all breakable objects, mostly glass.

I whip through that room and destroy everything in it - I can even hear the glass shattering in my mind. It helps me [shrug], lets me relieve some tension.

I used to work at a fast food restaurant and then I'd go into my freezer and just yell. No one heard me unless they were right outside the door.

I love ya......take care, please.

Mary Alice

[yokus]

I understand how you feel. I hope you feel better soon.

[jennie]

i've asked God those questions and haven't gotten an answer. what does pain do? it makes you stronger. use what you've learned about life to help others since there are many suffering in this world; you aren't alone. (((((((((Huggs))))))))))

<font color=purple> Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count no one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth. Jean-Paul Sartre </font color=purple>

[Serenity]

Yeah I doubt I could do that either, Wendy. If I go drive anywhere iut's isually to some secluded aprt of the beach to sit and cry, not scream. Guess the screaming is more of an internal thing.
I dont mean to be disagreeable...but I've seen a few responses mentioning how it makes us stronger and we grow. I personally don't see it. I'm already strong....testing the limits doesn't make me stronger...all it does is test how much I can endure or when it is I finally break. I also dont see anything positive I've "learned" . I've learned not to trust...I've learned to keep to myself, I've learned scars never heal....dunno I jsut dont see the positive outcomes of anything I've had to go through and deal with.
But yes, you are right...friends can help sometimes jsut by being there.
Thanks for the reply *hugs*

[Serenity]

lol you and I would be dangerous in a china shop!!! No need to shrug...I completely understand the "relief" it gives you. Does the same for me.
Jenn

[Serenity]

Thanks yokus ... I'm sure that you really, really do

[Sam]

(((((Jennifer)))))

Sweetie - I hope those hugs helped - some, maybe a little. I wish there was more I could do, but please know I care, not just about your problem, but ... yourself. You're such a sweet person - so easy to love.

I guess we've all had a day or two like you've described and one really nice thing about them is when they are gone!

Your friend Sam

"You'll never know what you're capable of if you don't try."

[heatherm]

{{{{{{{{{Jen}}}}}}}}}}

I am thinking of you hun and hoping today is going good for you. You are so loved and cared for.


Heather

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life - it goes on."
~~Robert Frost

[Serenity]

Thanks Heather...you're a Gem....dont believe a word,..but knowing you meant it when ya said it counts anyway (Hmm somehow that didnt come out right but I hope you know what I meant?)
Jenn

[SeptemberMorn]

Is someone thinking that they aren't lovable? Hmmmm? Well, you ARE!

He's making a list and checking it twice...