i really need someones help. please!!

i need help someone! iv been feelings like a total screw up for the past couple years now and its getting so bad im kind of confused on what i feel anymore. im going blank i dont trust anyone because everyone hurts me. even my own parents m parents got divorced about 2 years ago and ever since hen, my dad has been totally mean to me! he says im a ***** and druggy and wont go anywhere in life and what not. i just had my 16th birthday last month and he didnt even call me on my birthday or give me a card my mom always says how shes dissapointed in me. how she never did any of the stuff i do when she was a kid. same with my big sister. i told my mom i had sex with my bf and now my sister hates me for not telling her. everything i do is always wrong i get honoral and try so hard in school and take college classes in highschool but its not good enough i do stupid things and love smoking and drinking and caant stop. it gets my mind off things and im not too worried about it bcz i get good grades. i wish i wasnt a disgrace to my parents! i also want to cry when im home alone. i hear things and i have this feeling of a presence that is coming to kill me. it happens at night too even while my parents ar here iv felt this same precense for years. i also black out alottttt and idk why. i have so many issues and i just want them to go away!

hi, cheer. is there a guidance counselor at school who you can talk to? if so, i think you should approach them and ask for time to talk about things like your relationship with your family.

i am glad to hear that you get good grades and are taking college classes while in high school. if you are drinking alcohol and can't stop that is a BIG problem and another reason to seek help from a guidance counselor. you did not indicate if you are smoking cigarettes or weed or both. though cigarettes are not healthy, i am not going to criticize you for it. but weed, like alcohol, it not good at all considering your emotional state. please try to make new friends who abstain from alcohol and weed and try to find healthier hobbies like sports or bike riding or playing a musical instrument.

i don't believe that trying sex with your boyfriend makes you a "*****." are your parents overly strict or religious or conservative? is your parents' divorce an angry and bitter one? i am sorry to hear that your father is so cold and critical of you and do not support his actions.

you are at a time in your life when you should be focusing on finding yourself, selecting a college and a college major. even if no one helps you, please do these things on your own to the best of your ability. don't let the foolish behavior of others spoil your life. hang in there as best as you can and please find someone who you can talk to.

((Cheer))

I agree with Unhappyguy-- Can you talk to a school councilor about this-- The emotional and verbal abuse is horrible of what is going on here from your parents-- it is leading you to addiction it sounds like (with drinking and smoking and loving it for it gets you away-- i have been there and it is a rough thing to get out of once you start and it is better to nip that in the butt sooner rather than later)-- in other words, I really encourage you to find some sort of help of finding better coping skills than the drinking and numbing out the pain with drugs.

Many hugs to you

Hello cheer6996! Sorry to hear you are going through this with your family! Sometimes people are trying to help but the way they go about it is really stupid. Parents are just screwed up people like everybody else. They do the best they know and sometimes it's not very good. In just a couple years you'll be getting out and starting your own life. You sound very smart and I think you will make a good life for yourself if you don't let drugs and alcohol get in your way or an unplanned pregnancy. Do they have a good guidance counselor at your school? It's summertime now and I don't know what might be available. Maybe your Mom would be willing to get some family counseling? I know divorces are tough on the whole family and she might need someone to talk to also. Welcome to PC and I hope you find the help and support you need here.

Sorry to hear you are going through a tough moment. This too will pass, however. So, hold on.

Although you cannot change how other people behave, you can change a couple of things in your life. Specially, try to incorporate some activity that will reduce your amount of stress in your life. Yoga or meditation won't harm. Any other outdoor sport can make you feel better and get connected to your community. The same is the case of volunteering.

Hi Cheer,

I'm sorry to hear you are going through all this stuff in your life. I'm concerned that you are drinking and feeling like you can't stop. Are their any support groups such as Ala-teen or Ala-non in your area? If so, please give them a call. You might also find help at your county mental health clinic ( you can google mental health in your county), and at planned parenthood, where you can receive medical care at little or no cost. I encourage you to take care of yourself and try not to get caught up in the foolishness between your parents.

No matter what others say...You are a valuable person. Don't give up - get help!