[keb88]

I am sick of my situation.. for years ive known something is wrong with me..ive alllways been depressed ,ive allllways been completely speechless in social situations, ive always not been able to focus on anything, ive always had this fu*ked up looking stare when in social situations, ive alllways been treated like a 10year old in my house.. i watch my mom lie to me right in my face telling me she had no idea i had any kind of probem , in social situations when i feel under pressure ive felt myself go blank out and roll my eyes... my mom is a liar and is verrrry protective of her image, she cannot admit to anything shes done thats wrong when ive heard lots of stories, soo maybe someone can tell me what i might have because even my doctor was very hesitant to tell me i am schizoaffective she even pronounced it different so i wouldnt catch that it was a form of schizo.. she said "skeezoaffective" it was clear as day she had been talking to my mom before i even went to the doctors office but my mom says "nope i didnt call i know u can handle everything on ur own" pretty much treats me like a joke always has , everytime i go in public with her shes behind me making gestures to whoever it is were talking to like 'ignore his anxiety/dissasociation problem' its such a joke if the doctor told me i was a freak i still wouldnt giva ***** atleast i have some closure and a label, its pretty rediculous i spend hours online trying to diagnose myself because nobody wants to hurt my feelings or let it be known that half my life ive been lied to. my uncle and my dad has both hinted around to mental seizure and even called me retarded a couple times which is absolutley fine with me im happy with myself i just want a label im sick of wndering i want to move on with my life so .. i have a blank stare and no consentration ,puzzled facial expressions/ numbness in my face ,most of the time one eyelid is half shut the other wide open i go black/ roll my eyes under alot of stress when in social situations but jus for a second ive never been able to keep up with school, i cant stand straight up im constantly standing crooked with head cocked a little and my memory is shot i either feel cocky, mad or depressed no real in between and my problems seem to get worse with age because i didnt have half as bad of anxiety or the stareing problem threw school... so yeah i apreciate whoever reads all this ..

[Leed]

Hi Keb ~ Are you out of school now? How about asking Mom if she would help you (as in "pay") see a good therapist? Maybe she thinks there's "shame" in seeing a psychiatrist or something. Well, in California it's the IN thing to do. LOL Just kidding, but really in my mind everyone on earth should see a psychiatriat or psychologist at least ONCE in their lifetime! All of us are screwed up just a tiny bit. You have to be to live in THIS world! lol

Seriously tho, please see about getting an appointment with a good therapist. Word of mouth is good for finding a reputable one. Perhaps your Mom knows who people go to. But from what you describe, you would benefit greatly from seeing one. See what you can do about gettiing into one, ok? And PLEASE let us know -- and check in with your progress too, okay?

I wish you the very best. Take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee

[keb88]

Originally Posted by Leed

Hi Keb ~ Are you out of school now? How about asking Mom if she would help you (as in "pay") see a good therapist? Maybe she thinks there's "shame" in seeing a psychiatrist or something. Well, in California it's the IN thing to do. LOL Just kidding, but really in my mind everyone on earth should see a psychiatriat or psychologist at least ONCE in their lifetime! All of us are screwed up just a tiny bit. You have to be to live in THIS world! lol

Seriously tho, please see about getting an appointment with a good therapist. Word of mouth is good for finding a reputable one. Perhaps your Mom knows who people go to. But from what you describe, you would benefit greatly from seeing one. See what you can do about gettiing into one, ok? And PLEASE let us know -- and check in with your progress too, okay?

I wish you the very best. Take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee

im 24 been to college when i was 21 when i didnt have a staring problem or extreme anxiety and mom has already payed for that weird *** crap lol .. sit there while someone feels sorry for you and tries to play pschology / beat around the bush lol i am unable to make eye contact and found myself dodging her face cuz she was trying to sneak her eyes in the path of mine like i was oblivious lol. she told me im fine i have social phobia and thats it ,she said people look away from me becase theyre scared of me when in fact theyre looking away because they dont want to be rude for ooking at aperson with a hyper focusing/dissasociation/anxiety problem.. sympathy is a very insulting thing to me, idont think anybody over the age of 13 needs or wants it, thats how i feel.. but thanks for response i appreciate it

[MandaMay]

from what you are describing, you may have Aspergers it is a mild form of Autism... look it up there are lots of tests and things online to be assessed... and look for a good councilor they could also help...

[medkev13]

Also, since you went into the therapy with the distrust (since you believe your mom made the choice) there will always be a major trust issue with the therapist. I suggest setting yourself a list of goals for what YOU want to achieve with your therapy and find a new therapist on your own. Doing so can allow you to take the reigns on the use of therapy and will allow you to set boundaries and rule for the new therapist to follow.

[keb88]

it possible to be schizo affective and have aspergers? and what is it that makes you say aspergers?because i originally thought that i had aspergers i forget why exactly its been a while but i definently am late bloomer and look way younger than i am i brought it up to my counsilor and she said no but havent brought t up to my new doc .. i dont feel like i just have schizoaffective and i dont hallucinate or hear things and my doctor thats prescribing me pills is going off wht my mom said (told her i was seeing and hearing things)becauuse i ran into my dad after like 9 years of not seeing him hes homeless i had 1200$on me was driving a nice 84 cutlass on dayton rims and if u ever hung out with a homeless dope fien you would know that they are very jealous of even the smallest things ontop of that i almost garantee he blamed me for losing my mom/his roof and meal .. (long story)so he had some hate towards me which is clear now but i spent like 7 8 days of doing meth with him NO sleep i was literally living off black berrys ,oranges and vitamin water and dont remeber eating anything else but after i hit my spending limit on dope he changed like night and day and started getting weird ,tried and did scare me he started telling me he was on a suicide run on meth cuz his bros died his tent molds faster then he can clean it and the worlds going to endtalkin about killing my moms bf and jus crazy sh** , he started showing me pics on a cellphone of faces in trees and in leafs that were on his moms grave that were evil looking went to my car that night last night i spnt with him lol, tried to sleep or nap but jus layed there with our eyes closed , he was pretending to be asleep started mumbling f'd up **** 'in hwis sleep' like im just like his dead brother and i was fake sleeping sayin im a pos and he doesnt even wana be laying next to me jus all kinds of crazzy crap until i couldnt take anymore woke him up and told him wht he was sayin he said i was trippin i was pissed and freaked out didnt know what to think so i jus hopped out of the car took my keys and started walking (he didnt even follow me to reasure me or anything)but yea i heard his deep mumbly voice the whole time i walked (in my head)i thought he was following me mumbling that s*** loud so i can hear it so i was freaked out looking for movement and shadows and trippin off everything he had me tripping off the faces in the trees(you can see 2 eyes and mouth in any tree if u really wanted to visualize it)but it felt lke a nightmare..long story short when i finaly got home i told my mom and brother about it and now my doc thinks i hallucinate,told her it was jus the drugs and she said drug induced schizoaffective ..

[CastlesInTheAir]

Well since you are over 18, I would schedule myself an appointment with a totally different psych and a totally different therapist that way you can get the "moms 2 cents" out of the picture. Then it is just you and the pdoc and you and the therapist. Then you can work on your mom treating you like a person and like an adult and like her son instead of like you say she is treating you....

You need a correct dx and correct treatment......

get on that phone right now...look in the yellow pages, the internet, etc......

if you need help finding one lemme know.....

many hugs and sending some good luck your way

[Perna]

I agree with you, it's probably not any one problem/illness that can be given you; I think I would give up on being that "neat" so you could say, "I have X and should do Y" and see someone to work on some behavior I most wanted to change.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by keb88

it possible to be schizo affective and have aspergers? and what is it that makes you say aspergers?because i originally thought that i had aspergers i forget why exactly its been a while but i definently am late bloomer and look way younger than i am i brought it up to my counsilor and she said no but havent brought t up to my new doc .. i dont feel like i just have schizoaffective and i dont hallucinate or hear things and my doctor thats prescribing me pills is going off wht my mom said (told her i was seeing and hearing things)becauuse i ran into my dad after like 9 years of not seeing him hes homeless i had 1200$on me was driving a nice 84 cutlass on dayton rims and if u ever hung out with a homeless dope fien you would know that they are very jealous of even the smallest things ontop of that i almost garantee he blamed me for losing my mom/his roof and meal .. (long story)so he had some hate towards me which is clear now but i spent like 7 8 days of doing meth with him NO sleep i was literally living off black berrys ,oranges and vitamin water and dont remeber eating anything else but after i hit my spending limit on dope he changed like night and day and started getting weird ,tried and did scare me he started telling me he was on a suicide run on meth cuz his bros died his tent molds faster then he can clean it and the worlds going to endtalkin about killing my moms bf and jus crazy sh** , he started showing me pics on a cellphone of faces in trees and in leafs that were on his moms grave that were evil looking went to my car that night last night i spnt with him lol, tried to sleep or nap but jus layed there with our eyes closed , he was pretending to be asleep started mumbling f'd up **** 'in hwis sleep' like im just like his dead brother and i was fake sleeping sayin im a pos and he doesnt even wana be laying next to me jus all kinds of crazzy crap until i couldnt take anymore woke him up and told him wht he was sayin he said i was trippin i was pissed and freaked out didnt know what to think so i jus hopped out of the car took my keys and started walking (he didnt even follow me to reasure me or anything)but yea i heard his deep mumbly voice the whole time i walked (in my head)i thought he was following me mumbling that s*** loud so i can hear it so i was freaked out looking for movement and shadows and trippin off everything he had me tripping off the faces in the trees(you can see 2 eyes and mouth in any tree if u really wanted to visualize it)but it felt lke a nightmare..long story short when i finaly got home i told my mom and brother about it and now my doc thinks i hallucinate,told her it was jus the drugs and she said drug induced schizoaffective ..

yes in general a person can be diagnosed with more than one problem at a time, including having schizoaffective disorder and aspergers,

you dont necessarily have to have hallucinations to have schizoaffective disorder, the criteria is hallucination ****or**** delusions. Delusions are thoughts of things like thoughts that have no facts to back them up, example one time my medication was not right and it was causing me to think everyone was out to get me, lie to me, thought I heard people talking about me,....my treatment providers called this medication induced psychosis and medication induced delusions..

All these symptoms that you posted in this and your other posts can be just about anything.. see the problem with asking us here online what your symptoms are called is that we are not allowed to tell you what your problem is, doing that is called making a diagnosis and we are not allowed to do that on psych central...

we can tell you if we have had the same problems you have and what our treatment providers called it in ourselves..

for me these symptoms were called many things depending upon other accompanying symptoms... for example the blank stare was called catatonia, psychosis, day dreaming, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorder, dissociative reaction, medication reaction, lack of sleep, poor diet, MS, epilepsy, parkinson's disease......and many more physical and mental health problems....

Again we cant tell you what your problems are called because we are not allowed to diagnose each other here.

my suggestion go according to what ever your treatment providers have said this was, they are the ones that know all the different symptoms (maybe even some you did not realize was a symptom) that got you diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder.. maybe you can ask them to show you how and why they diagnosed you this way.

[shezbut]

I'm sorry that you're having a tough time, keb88.

I would recommend going to your previous doctor's offices and request copies of your file. By law, we all have the right to get copies of our medical & psychological files. Use that power to your advantage.

Then, you should go to a different doctor ~ with your file/s ~ that you feel comfortable with and go over your experiences with him/her. Hopefully, then you can be diagnosed with ____ and begin whatever treatment/s that have been found to be helpful.

Remember: you are an adult. You have the power to change the situation that you find yourself in. Best wishes to you!

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I don't really know what it is but I have recently been dealing with psuedo seizures (stress seizures) and according to an article I read, a study done in a seizure hospital said that 1/3rd (I think it was) of its patients were admitted because of stress seizures.

It's so scary for me, but mine are the tensing, eyes rolling in the head, sometimes violent shaking and collapsing type that I have no recollection of.

However, my t and pdoc have helped give me confidene that I can get control and stop them from happening with some hard stress management. And I'm mroe hopeful every day.

I would really recommend seeing a neurologist. Have you been to one before? If not that should be your first step, let anything extreme ruled out and talk with them. Maybe you could talk to your doctor/t and let them know the truth about what you are experiencing, they should be able to help you manage your stress if they are in fact producing seizures