***SCREAM!***

There is something wrong with my car! I know *NOTHING* about cars--I am so TOTALLY *DEPENDENT* on others in this situation. It's like *Panic* and freak. Really--car stuff scares me to heck! I don't have my proof of insurance w/me because the insurance company was supposed to fax it and didn't when they said they would. Plus the papers were emailed to me later than I was told they would be and now when I really, really need them and came online to print them out--YAHOO won't let access my email account but one out of every three tries so it is taking *forever* to get it done! I am on such limited time. I decided to stay in a motel for the night I am so paniced about not having my car and want to get all my stuff out and into a motel until I can get a rental car to pack things into. I am so freaked! I am wondering if the car might have a problem with the fuel filters again, and if so, if could cost a few hundred dollars! I have enough stress with work and my T and my pdoc and family issues and so much of everything. I think T is taking good notes from all my voice mails now. He and pdoc exchanged info via voicemails recently for the first time and pdoc evidently told my T that he thinks I might have an eating disorder. FYI: he's still been learning about me, so he's kind of behind knowing about my habits. I guess until now, that he's sort-of "talked" to my T. That has been so scary for me lately knowing that he knows and wondering and thinking and what's he got planned for me now?! Gosh, I just want to cry or die. I wish somebody would takeover for me so I know that I will be okay with my car situation right now. Could someone please give me a good-working car to use while taking mine to a garage to be fixed? I don't want anything to do with this car while its not working right. I'm scared to drive it. My heart is going nuts still from eating a donut for my late-afternoon lunch at work this afternoon, and my heart med was just increased for that problem. I really don't need all this!

Don't blame you a bit (((inky))) yeah, especially older cars if you let the fuel get low, the filters get clogged with the dirt in the bottom of the tank. Hope it all works out for you... try and enjoy your motel room (like you used to , remember??) TC!!!

Wow, did you need to dump some emotions. Did you get them all out? I love to dump them on my T sometimes. Feel free to rant as much as you like here.
As for cars, me ignorant. The hotel sounds like a good idea if the car broke down away from home. Good thinking. I think you can worry about the car tomorrow. Do you have a lot of appointments or commitments tomorrow? You might need to get that rental car you mentioned or take it to the garage and get a loner car there.
I hope you sleep good tonight because you probably have a long day ahead of you tomorrow.

There is so much more to stress me and it all does. I kind of wish my T could be my daddy tonight. He would make things all better. My car would get fixed and I'd know that everything will be ok. My T is all I've got. I've got no one else. My own dad died when I was a kid. He was abusive sometimes and I hated him and wished to run away. But oh I know how much he loved me so! He believed in family and doing things together and important dates like anniversaries. He was at a loss for knowing what to do for first aid on a hurt child but he tried if he had to. He wasn't good sharing feelings (except angry ones) but his sweet baby blue eyes and his smile spoke for him, many times over.
I am not sure if I will make it in to work tomorrow. I hate having to call in. Its so late at night now and I am still awake. Lord help me.

Inky,

I agree about cars.....it seems like mine is always breaking down.....guess that is because mine is a FORD (Found On Road Dead). My last fix was a fuel pump also. It went out completely & my mechanic replaced it. After that, everytime my tank got down below 1/4, when I stepped on the gas. the car would act like it was dying like running out of gas. I took it back after a couple of weeks (to make sure I was really having the problem). He took out the fuel pump & found that it had collapsed when he put it in. When I got it back, it ended up doing the same thing. I tried to determine the exact symptoms & realized that it only happened when the gas was below 1/4 tank & then it also only happened when going around corners. I took it back & he kept it for several days trying to figure out what was going on. He finally found that it wasn't sealing & when the tank was low & going around a corner or whenever the gas would slosh, it would allow air into the fuel causing it to die out. It took several months to get it fixed...& a good mechanic that could debug the problem well.

I hate cars....I have always had problems & they end up dying on the freeway, miles away from home. Where we live is over 1 hour from everything. My mechanic is close to home but the car never dies close to home. I always have to have the car towed for miles to get it fixed.....just another expense to deal with.

I hope you get your car fixed good. Enjoy your hotel stay & get some rest before you stress tomorrow getting your car fixed. Hopefully they can provide you with a loaner rather than having to rent a car......but at least you should have a reliable rental car for while your car is getting fixed.

Good luck,
Debbie