[Lexicon78]

Me and Andy had this big fight. Anyways, he went to his dad's alone this weekend because I didn't want to go for the simple reason that we're not together anymore. To make a long story short, he didn't take it too well.

He left this morning to go to his dad's. I got a phone call tonight from him. He was very spacey and I could definitely tell his paranoia is off the charts right now. He kept asking if I was drinking, partying, who I had over to the house, etc. Well, I've been enjoying a quiet day at home cleaning, watching movies, etc. No alcohol, no nothing. I slept a lot, too. I told him I haven't been anywhere and no one's been here at all. He seemed ok with the truthful explanation I gave him. But he just went right back into the paranoia.

While I was in mid-sentence talking to him he asked me who I was talking to and who was here. No matter how many times I tried to tell him I was talking to him and no one was here, he just wouldn't accept it. He said when he got home he'd know if I was telling the truth or not and he'd know just by looking at me.

I know he's in crisis right now. I mean it's bad.

I'm terrified of what his paranoia is doing to him and what he may do to me when he gets home and believes his delusions over reality...

[Rhapsody]

LEX you got to let it go..... he is using emotional blackmail to try and control you - If I may? why are you two still in contact with each other if you truly broke up?

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

Please stay safe sweetie!

[seeker1950]

Lex...I agree with Rhapsody on this matter. Do you desire contact with this man or do you want to extricate yourself? If you try to remove yourself, will he stalk you? It sounds like you are concerned for your safety, and perhaps rightly so. I was the victim of a stalker (former lover) who broke into my house, and tried to shoot me with a gun which jammed. Please be safe.
Patty

[bipolar_bear]

Please keep yourself safe.

[Lexicon78]

Andy's still living here with me until he can find a place of his own. So he's stuck here. He has to make arrangements with a respite care home in order to find a place to live. He had been living in one (it's a lot like a personal care home) until we met. I guess that tells you the seriousness of his mental illness.

Much of what he said last night was incoherent babble. So I'm sure his schizoaffective symptoms are much worse than I had expected. He had been diagnosed as schizophrenic in another county but here they think he is schizoaffective. Anyways, I know he's not doing well.

I'm actually expecting to admit him into the hospital either today or if he hangs in till tomorrow then I'll be admitting him tomorrow.

[Rhapsody]

(((( HUGS )))) - I would take him today.... for it is not safe for him or you - Good Luck.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[desirae]

Sorry to hear that Lex. It sounds as though he's going through his own problems at this moment. I wouldn't allow his fears and pain hurt you as well. Is he normally that paranoid, or was he drunk? He may just have been very drunk, because he hurting with the split you all just had. You know people can get when they are drunk.

IDK, it sounds as though he's in a desperate time right now, and he's really hurting. I would just not answer the phone for a day or two to let things cool down a bit. If he then accuses you of cheating and all that, then suggest that since he don't trust you, then to not come home.

Good Luck girl, I hope it all works out.

[sabby]

Something we all forget to do at times is listen to our gut instincts. If our gut tells us something is unsafe, then GO WITH IT!! Do what you have to do to keep yourself safe. I don't care if it's just a flutter in your gut...it means your intuition is telling you something is not right and you have to prepare for it.

I pray he gets the help he needs and he takes the meds regularly...it's so important.

Take good care of yourself....for you are the only one that you can control. Be safe please!

[bipolar_bear]

Please do what it takes for you to be safe. Including if that means taking him in today. I am worried about what might happen. His disorder can be very unpredictable and I don't want to see you hurt in the process. Please take care of you.

[Bethsway]

Oh gees, my fingers are crossed for you...Please be safe and get him the help her needs...if you can! I am praying things turn out right for you!!!

[hillbunnyb]

Oh Lexi, this has been such a long hard hurtful road for you. Love is one thing, a relationship another. Andy needs care you can't give him. That you have accepted that shows how far you've come in your own healing. After you get him settled at the facility, box his remaining possessions up and get them out of your space. It will be time for the clean break. Time to just be you with you and get grounded in you and what you need to live a healthier life with what you've learned.

Hang in there. You can do it. Is there someone else who could back you up with taking Andy to intake? )) ) ))Lexi ((( (((

[(JD)]

I think that is a smart decision for him right now: hospitalization. Perhaps when he is ready to leave there, they will find a place for him, rather than back at your home. You need to be safe all the time, Lexi, and feel safe too. Take care of you, first, and you will be able to continue to care about this guy too.