Ever time I try to tell a doctor about my symptoms, they no longer feel real.

I have many issues like anxiety, depression, ocd and stuff, and I don't understand all my symptoms, but whenever I try to talk to someone about it I no longer truly feel like I have those issues so if I try to explain or they ask questions I just lose steam and start drawing blanks. I also feel dumb for making a big deal out of nothing. But other times (when I'm not talking about it) I seriously have these issues. What is wrong/what can I do?

Sometimes I have a hard time explaining my symptoms and sometimes they will seem to essentially disappear for a bit...I think its sort of a defense mechanism though, like I get worried I can't trust them so feel like I have to downplay things.

Like first time I was in a psych ward....that one just really sucked. So after 5 days I really wanted out, not sure if I was technically actually feeling stable enough to do so but that place wasn't really helping because the being stuck inside without any fresh air was really wearing on me and I felt like things would get worse if I stayed there. So I sorta faked it to get out ASAP but to my suprise my symptoms really where pretty much non-existant for a while.

Hmm. I can kind of relate I guess. Sometimes I feel like when I am interacting with people I am more grounded in reality and that pulls my out of my "messed up" mind.

I also have this problem mainly because I don't like my shrink. There's a huge shortage here for mental health. For therapy I keep a journal, and for my shrink we just have a staring contest lol. It's true! I also feel like eyore if I'm straight up honest. And as was mentioned above like I'm making something out of nothing or forgot the issue. My T has me do a mood chart and I'm awful. I swear I'll forget and hurry to fill in the past week at one time lol. So, I don't think you'll pick up any tips on this post - just you're not alone ♥

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Thanks thickntired. Though the fact that you've been a member here for 2 years doesn't give me much hope for finding a solution

Oh no!! I don't want to lay out bad vibes. I'll bet if you do a Google search you'll find really helpful info. I added a link below. Remember that your Dr works for you! You hired him and you're paying for the services. If you're more fortunate in your area don't feel any obligation to keep seeing the same T or pdoc. Find ibe that you're most comfortable around. My pdoc just happens to be in sensitive and I have to see him because I'm on disability. If an opening for another pdoc opens up I'll probably take it. My pdoc has 1 out of 5 ★ haha so he's a jerk. Take care and remember communication and assertion are key.

http://www.power2u.org/articles/selfhelp/reclaim.html

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When I start to talk about my symptoms I immediately dissociate because I feel stressed and anxious. Then nothing, including the symptoms, seems real. The best thing to do is SAY it...say, "I feel like as soon as I start to talk about my symptoms they don't seem real". Because that in itself IS a symptom.

[QUOTE=thickntired;3719073]I also have this problem mainly because I don't like my shrink. There's a huge shortage here for mental health. For therapy I keep a journal, and for my shrink we just have a staring contest lol. It's true! I also feel like eyore if I'm straight up honest. And as was mentioned above like I'm making something out of nothing or forgot the issue. My T has me do a mood chart and I'm awful. I swear I'll forget and hurry to fill in the past week at one time lol. So, I don't think you'll pick up any Haha. I've been searching this stuff on google for 3 years now and have yet to find anything helpful. I think as Sister Rags said, that in itself is a piece of evidence. I've been successful looking up other issues of mine, there's something different about this.

Perhaps you are subconsciously picking up subtle cues from your therapist that is raising some sort of red flag that they are dismissing you or invalidating your experience of what you are going thru? If a doctor is genuine in wanting to care for you, you will usually feel more at ease about opening up. But, if there is any kind of block there, you might be very well picking that up.

I could be wrong. I don't know. All I know is with my experience, especially the last couple times I reached out for help, the docs were quite dismissing. It made me feel utterly stupid for feeling the things I was going thru.

Trust your gut and don't be afraid to change doctors if need be. You need to be heard and validated and taken seriously.

[QUOTE=TomRiddle;3723045]Hi Tom. Thanks for your post!! It really sucks big time, like we're on a really sad and desperate date at every session. Making small talk at funeral is less overwhelming. I'm also super paranoid my T will tell my pdoc when I slip and trash talk him. While I was inpatient all the people couldn't stand his pompus ***. Just because you read the text books Mr shrink doesn't mean you'll ever know how I'm feeling.

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