[Stanley_19802]

Hello All,

I know this problem I have isn't common, and most who deal with it normally keep quiet for fear of teasing. My problem is I am being attacked by a spirit. I know how crazy that sounds. My mom and her boyfriend originally thought it was being caused by the bipolar, that I was seeing things kind of thing. I don't see it, I just feel it.

The activity consists of the bed being moved. I weight 380 pounds, yet this spirit can physically lift the mattress off the frame about a inch. That's huge for something without a body. When in my recliner (or any chair) it can bump or otherwise move the chair. I was eating out with my mom at a resturant last month. I kept asking her if there was anyone behind me trying to get by. It felt as if someone was trying to squeeze between my chair and other. Yet she said there was no one behind me. When I looked back the closest table was another two feet from me.

The worst activity though is the sexual touching. Without getting into detail, it consists of mainly fondling and esentially rape with penitration. I can physically feel what feels like someone's manhood being inserted into me. And I'm male. So you can imagine.

In short, it's quite upsetting. Most people don't believe you. If you tell a doctor, they want to admit you to a psych ward and medicate you thinking your having hallucinations. This happened last year. I was being admitted for bipolar depression issues and my mom who was with me at the time told the doctor about my ghost issue. It was put into my chart that I was seeing things and was put on antipsychotics which did absolutely nothing about the attacks. I ended up having to lie saying the attacks stopped so I could be let go to go home.

I contacted a ghost research crew who came in. Although nothing was visably caught on tape, both the researchers had experienced activity first hand. The one guy sitting right next to me put his hand right next to where I was sitting and could feel the seat raising and falling. But not enough to be able to see on camera. The woman holding the camera freaked out when the ghost grabbed her hand. But again, it wasn't visable. All there was, was her saying "Someone just grabbed my hand".

This whole mess started in September 2010. I had just lost my apartment across town when my friend I was spliting rent with died. My mom offered for me to rent a room from her. When I first moved in in August I was in the smaller room and all was fine. A month later the larger room was open so I switched rooms as really the smaller one was quite cramped.

A month later the activity started with just the bed moving. Just raising and lowering gently. Having grown up with some level of spirit activity I didn't care about the bed moving. Actually it felt like a message so I didn't mind. The spirit wasn't bothering me so I could care less if it stayed. But a little over a year later the activity turned sexual and rapes began. I am raped between once or twice a day. When that's not happening, I am being touched in some way. Either being fondled or have my cheeks spread open and touching the area. That goes on most of the day.

I have tried everything I can to make the activity stop. Moving isn't a option for two reasons. One is money, I barely can cover the rent. I don't have the income to cover first, last, deposit, moving truck, turn of fees for utilities and such. And the second reason is I don't think moving would work. The attacks are not JUST when I am in the house. This ghost follows me. The last time I was admitted to the psych hospital, due to my county not having one of their own I am transported to Sacramento which is a 3 1/2 drive from here one way. The ghost was with me the whole ride in the car and stayed with me the full 12 days in the hospital and was in the car the whole ride home. I am never away from it.

Which brings me finally to my point of the e-mail. Right now I am dealing with depression. Not that it's really shocking concidering. But part of it is due to the PTSD as well. The flashbacks and nightmares have gotten worse again. Then on top of the ghost attacks which keep me from falling asleep. Hard to sleep with someone touching you like that. So I am so drained and tired. All of it together is causing me to have thoughts of suicide to make it all stop.

And I know "go to the hospital" right? Not that easy for me. Abuse in the psych ward is what caused my PTSD. Most of the abuse, the worst of it, happened in children's units. But I have had a good share in adult units as well. So I have severe anxiety attacks just being near a hospital. Being admitted is a HUGE ordeal.

I was just concidering going to the ER last night, ONLY concidering and had a bad anxiety attack. My stomach got all tensed up and felt like someone was trying to pull my guts out. I am so afraid of being harmed yet again. Which only feeds the feelings of ending my life with thoughts like "this is the only way to get peace".

I just don't know what to do. The PTSD is already hard enough to deal with. But at least there are times with the PTSD that I can manage ok. With this ghost issue there is no peace. No place to run where I can hide. And I don't know who to call for help. I have called a paranormal group, had the house blessed, tried crystal grids, tried begging it to leave me alone, tried yelling and ordering it to leave my house.

I am out of ideas. If it was only when at home I would try to get my room mates to move with me so I could work with them to afford to move. But because the ghost doesn't bother them, they think it's all in my head. It makes me wonder too. Why bother me and not them? I just don't get it. Anyway, thanks for the ear. As I said, I didn't know where to post something like this. I just don't know what to do.

-Stanley

[kaliope]

I cant believe that there isn't someone out there that cant get the spirit to move one. a psychic that can talk to it and find out why it is haunting you and get it to pass to the next dimension. maybe you have just not talked to the right paranormal professional. somebody has got to be able to make it go away. there is a reason it is still here, find out that reason, take care of it, and free it.

[glok]

Hello, Stanley_19802. I hope you are able to resolve the issues you face. I wish you well.

[Stanley_19802]

Hello,

Well there are mediums out there, but they are not cheap. So I can't afford that route. I mean I am a medium myself, but not NEARLY as good as someone like the Long Island Medium for example. When I get messages, they are random. I have not learned how to control how to get messages on demand.

But I do have a way to talk to the spirit and I am trying. I thought since the spirit clearly has the ability to move objects like my bed, the spirit can move a pen too. So what I have been doing (or trying to do) is I made myself a makeshift spirit board. Nothing fancy, just two rows containing the alphabet. Then I did a test to see if it would work and while lightly holding the pen I instructed the spirit to push right or left to move to another letter, and then when the pen is over the letter it wants then have it push the pen downward.

I got one message the other day that said "Get me away". The message does make sense when I connect it to a dream visit I had with said spirit. He (showed himself as a hispanic male around 40 years old) and said he doesn't like being around the other spirits that are here and wants me to get them away, or for him to be able to get away from them.

But the hispanic male is the powerful one. I call him J, short for John. But then again, when I asked him to spell his name I got only a partial spelling of LE. So maybe John wasn't his name. That was the name I heard, so perhaps John is one of the other spirits LE wants to get away from. I know the hispanic guy isn't alone. A black male around 20 years old is here as well.

So bottom line is I have found a way to talk. It's just that the information is coming slowly. He will give info for a few seconds and stop, like he's running out of energy trying to push the pen to letters. Don't get me wrong here, as much trouble and pain that he's caused me, I DO wish to help him find peace. But the hispanic male J seems to think I can bring him back to life.

He came to me another time in a dream saying that he believes I have the power to bring him back to life. He's afraid to go into the light/Heaven for fear of being judged/punished. Through a friend I found out J was gay during his lifetime and had a male partner he was in love with. His partner is still alive.

But I think J is afraid that he's going to go to hell for being gay. I know there is no punishment waiting for gay. There is nothing wrong with someone being gay/lesbian. But he died in the 1940's. All through history we have been told to be gay is a sin and you go to hell for it. It's just been recently that gays have had the right to marry among other things and are slowly being fully accepted. But I think he may have died believing he's going to Hell and so wishes for me to bring him back to life so he can skip going to Heaven and being reincarnated process. But as much as I have told him I can't bring him back to life, he believes that I am just refusing to do it.

All this information gathered over the last few years of him coming to me in dreams. Many of the said dreams he does his best to scare me. Such as the dream where he folded the mattress over like a taco to suffocate me. Or others where he picks me up against the wall by the neck. Maybe he thinks if he can scare me enough I will bring him back to life then. But I am going to keep trying to do the pen and letters to get information. It's just such a slow process and meanwhile he won't stop attacking. Thanks for the support. Just so difficult to cope with the attacks. I am just soooo tired.

-Stanley

Hi Stanley-

Perhaps it is time to look at other means and bring in other forces to help you. I would find your local witchcraft store and ask them to make a potion for you-it may be harder to find a store where they practice voo-doo-but they have powerful magic as well. Try Google.

You might also have a priest bless your room.

Try cleansing it with sage,

and lay a border of salt just inside your door so evil cannot cross it.

I hope you soon rid yourself of these evil spirits and find peace.

[Stanley_19802]

Hello Tea&Sympathy,

So far I have done the sage to the point of choaking on the smoke. Filled the room with it. With the salt, tried table salt and sea salt along the windows and doors. I had read about the salt thing awhile back. No effect. The lack of sleep is taking a toll on my body. I feel similar to having the flu and have started having chest pain. I know my body can't handle this much longer.

I tried to talk to my mom about it this morning. She wanted to know why she hasn't seen me in a few days. Although I have been laying in bed trying to sleep, I can only get 5-10 minutes. Not nearly enough time for the nap (if you can call it that) to make any different in going on 4 days with almost no sleep. She asked why I seem depressed. Well if she hadn't slept in 4 days while being touched and kept awake near constantly she would be pretty depressed too.

Anyway she comes off with "Ah, you will be fine" and leaves. I didn't tell her, but all last night I faught SI'ing. I have worked hard to more or less quit the cutting. I know how good it always makes me feel. But of course then I spend weeks covering up my arms and with it being summer that would suck. But I just feel like "screw it" kind of feeling. I just wish this thing (whatever it is) would just leave me alone. It's been 3 years dealing with this and I just can't do it anymore.

Thanks for the suggestions though Tea&Sympathy. I will look into a voodoo shop thing. Hopefully the price isn't a ton. And isn't a scam. I have already been scamed once trying to get rid of this spirit. I was referred to a facebook group of a woman who claimed to do long distance work of ridding houses of spirits. But required me to buy her "kit" for $25.00. My gut told me not to. One of the members of the group ended up paying for it for me.

I got the kit and did the instructions as she said. No change. Then she told me it was my fault saying that it's not her fault if I am not ready to let the spirit go. And then wrote again trying to blame my experiences on a medical disorder for woman (I am male) where their nerves in the genitals of sensitive and can feel like touching. ONE, I am not female. And two, IF I had that issue, how does my said nerves issue then explain the bed raising up and down? I don't have nerves in my mattress. She was just mad she got busted for being a fake. I am willing to try anything at this point, but I don't have money to blow of fake solutions that do nothing.

-Stanley

[Skanzi]

Stanley, This is quite an unusual story. But I personally believe that spirits exist. I am not an expert on this, but I think i can provide you some help. Because I am not an expert, I can not assure that the information is accurate, but I have a good understanding of human nature, of the dynamics of spiruality, dynamics of emotions etc... So I will try to provide you with some insight that can perhaps help you

First, let me explain what view I have on spirits.

I believe every spirit, every soul who can do something like this, was ever human. Maybe you can remember somebody who past away at the moment or just a little bit before the spirit started commiting his bad acts. This can be the soul of the person you're dealing with.

I don't think there are evil spirits. Just like humans are not inherently evil, spirits are also not. There are disturbed, hurt entities who express their pain in unhealthy manners by sharing their energy with persons with a weak energy, a weak aura. There can be no such thing as spirits who become happy of committing evil, therefore you must realize that the energy who is doing this to you is negative him/herself. The spirit is hurt. It likes to make other people miserable because ths soul himself is miserable. He refuses to go back to the spirit world, because he is ignorant. Perhaps it helps you to see it's expression coming forth out of this pain. Imagine that this soul had a really tough life when it still had a human body, suffered a lot, cried a lot, screamed a lot. This soul is a victim, too. Both a victim of his circumstances he/she lived and, but most importantly, a victim of him/herself.

I know this sounds really hard for you right now, and maybe even sounds impossible for you to do, but you need to create empathy for this soul. This soul is not happy. This soul is sad, angry, hurt from deep inside. It's no different from the pain that someone feels when a loved one passes away, that person too, may become bitter, angry and harmful towards his environment. Or, conversely, may become closed off to anyone and become really depressed. Yes, the source of the pain is different, but it is both suffering, and both an expression of it.

Treat this spirit with love and respect. I know it sounds crazy, but treat this spirit like your pet, your roommate, your best friend. Have no hate, fear, aversion towards it. Treat it no differently than a child who is crying because he fell on his knee and is bleeding. Negative energy can not resonate with positive energy, loving kindness, so negative effects that this soul has on you will diminish,

What you have to do, is to build up your energy. You have to become strong again. Now, you are weak. This is not a judgement, I am not calling you inferior, since we are all equal, but your energy is weak. Your energy is depressed. You fear what this entity is doing to you, but unfortunately this fear makes you weaker and more receptive to negative energy. This is not only the case with spirits, with souls that are floating around the world, this is also the case with people around you who are manipulative and predetorial. You're not very strong so you can't defend yourself well against negative energy.

That's why you have to grow, you have to raise your energy level, your energy frequency. You need to become alive again, you need to live again. You need to throw yourself out in the world, work on yourself, improve yourself. And also, you havge to remove yourself from your thinking mind, back into your body. The energy is now mostly contained in your mind, your thinking, worrying, anxious mind. The mind controls you, you think you have control over your thoughts, but these thoughts control you. If the energy is controlled by the mind, it will depress. If most of the energy is in your body, your body will express. Your body will express and thereby let the tension, anxiety, worries out of your system. This does not mean you can never use your mind again, your thoughts, that is. You can use it for practical purposes. But now it´s using you. And with thoughts, I not only mean words. I basically mean every form of reaction you have toward someone or something. A better word would be "reactions". Every position you take, every judgement you have, every fear you have, everything you hate, everything you love, everything you envy etc... These are all mental reactions coming forth out of the ego-mind. Now, do not condemn any of these feelings, but see them for what they are, just see them, observe them.

That´s why you need to take back your body again, so that the energy can flow freely through your body again, so you can get out of your mind which causes these reactions which causes suffering. This will not only give you physical energy, it will also give you mental energy. Mental energy is not the same as energy controlled by your mind.

I'm sorry, I don't have unlimited time right now so i'll end it shortly, I could go on and on and on explaining what I know and what you could do, but that's a bit too much for now. Perhaps i'll later edit and continue to write, but now i'll have to keep it short. I'll provide you with some really useful links so you can continue exploring further.

Ways to get the energy out of your mind into your body:

- Doing yoga/bioenergetic exercises. Why does this help? Firstly, automatically you focus your attention on the part of your body that is being stretched (or your breath), so your body (this does not mean you can't possibly be in your head while doing this, it just makes it much easier to focus on body parts). Secondly, there is problably a lot of chronic muscular tension in your muscles. This tension is produced by unconcious fears (sometimes perhaps concious). Most of us tense many of our muscles just so slightly that we're not even aware of it, but it creates problems. It hinders the free flow of energy through our bodies.

- Exercising, sporting. By moving your body, your energy will go there, too. Go jogging, go to the gym, express the energy that is within you, get it out of your head. You will feel better, more alive and stronger because of it.

- Meditation. Meditation is the practice of not reacting. Not reacting is the same as observing, it is exactly the same has proven out of my expierence. How do you not react? By becoming aware of your mental reactions towards thoughts, situations, anything that derives from the mind. If you are not aware of your mental reactions, you will continue to dwell on the same type of behaviour. If you become aware, you will automatically put a stop to it. You don't have to do anything to stop it, other than to just see it, observing it. Because your attention is not dwelling in the mind anymore.

There are different types of meditations, you can focus particlary on body parts, you can try just to remain in a gap with no mind, you can focus on your breath, you can focus on your thoughts, but this time you do not react to the thoughts, you just see them as they are. See what fits you best.

- Shaking it all out. These are linked to bioenergetic exercises. It's basically letting out all your frustration, anger, sadness etc.. By screaming, yelling, shaking. violently shaking, slamming your arms and legs. Also, allow yourself to cry when you feel it come up. Crying is incredibly therapeutic, it relieves so much tension and allows you breath deeply again.

Same with laughing as with crying. They both work incredibly therapeutic, depending on their duration and intensity, of course. So enjoy yourself, watch a comedy show, watch funny video's, do something funny. Make yourself laugh! But don't force it. Forcing something does not work, it has to be genuine, real. If you can't laugh or cry, that's okay.

- Last but not least, go out into the world again! Throw yourself in all kind of new situations, go do volunteer work, make a trip to another continent, go scuba diving, try practicing public speaking, go and approach women!

These are just suggestions, ofcourse, but go out into the world and live! You can also make a hiking trip through the forest. Whatever you want to, just don't stay home all day watching television, if you happened to do that. It will not support you.

- Accept everything that comes to you. Try to not judge anything. Realize that every experience, good or bad, is learnful and helpful if you deal with it the right way. I am thouroughly convinced that there are not bad things that can happen to you, because these so-called "bad things" may teach you the greatest lessons in life, provided that you are trying to see it objectively and see how it can make you stronger. In your case, you can use your 'demon' as a tool to practice with. To accept it, to accept every bad feeling it can give you, hence, feelings are just feelings. See them as they are.

The energy it depletes from you will stop at some point, and even if it wouldn't, so what?

That may sound not acceptable to you, me just saying "So what". No, but really, put it in perspective. Even if this spirit would haunt you and make you miserable for the rest of your life, there is so much more than just the life in the physical body you have right now. Your spirit is proof of that. You have so many more lifes to go. That may sound either soothing or scary to you, but these lifes all have their purpose, whether they be good or bad. In the end, you will return to your spot in the spirit world, feeling everlasting peace within.


Accept everything that comes to you, and try to get back in your body as much as you can, out of your mind, into your body. Using the techniques I described to you. Furthermore, educate yourself by reading books, watching video's, acclaiming resources that will provide you with the right information to grow further. And keep attacking the world. Don't misunderstand me, do not be violent, do not assault others. But throw yourself in new situations, gain new experiences, do things you never did before, live again!

I also found an really helpful article for you for the situation you find yourself in right now, it has to do with the spirit that is sucking your energy out. Note to that, I did not read the whole article, and I do not know if it is in complete agreement with what I believe, because of that reason, don't blindly believe, actually never in any situation blindly believe something, not even me. Think for yourself, too. but read it anyway because it does provide really useful information. Filter out what you think you can use, leave that which you think is nonsense. Same thing with the post I wrote.

Resources:

Article about psychic attacks:
- Psychic Attacks and Protecting Yourself

Youtube channels:

- https://www.youtube.com/user/elliottsaidwhat
- https://www.youtube.com/user/RSDTyler/featured (Focus on the main points he's making instead of the pick-up content if you're not interested in that. It applies to all of life)
- https://www.youtube.com/user/Kemetprince1

Books:
- The power of now, Eckhart Tolle
- The way to vibrant health, Leslie and Alexander Lowen
- Journey of souls & Destiny of Souls, Micheal Newton.
- Awaken the giant within, Anthony Robbins

Got any questions, you can send me an PM, though I am usually not fast in replying

[Rhapsody]

Have you just tried talking to them? --I have found that most Spirits just want to be heard and or have some thing that needs to be said, hence why they are here. The more you talk to them the nicer they seem to become. Try it and let me know how it goes and remember you have to let them know that you are in charge, not them..... you say what goes and what doesnt.

[ChipperMonkey]

Have you gotten in touch with the Catholic church? If these spirits really are violating you, that's pretty much pure evil, and I'd say the church is your best bet at this point.

[InRealLife45]

Originally Posted by Stanley_19802

Hello All,

I know this problem I have isn't common, and most who deal with it normally keep quiet for fear of teasing. My problem is I am being attacked by a spirit. I know how crazy that sounds. My mom and her boyfriend originally thought it was being caused by the bipolar, that I was seeing things kind of thing. I don't see it, I just feel it.

The activity consists of the bed being moved. I weight 380 pounds, yet this spirit can physically lift the mattress off the frame about a inch. That's huge for something without a body. When in my recliner (or any chair) it can bump or otherwise move the chair. I was eating out with my mom at a resturant last month. I kept asking her if there was anyone behind me trying to get by. It felt as if someone was trying to squeeze between my chair and other. Yet she said there was no one behind me. When I looked back the closest table was another two feet from me.

The worst activity though is the sexual touching. Without getting into detail, it consists of mainly fondling and esentially rape with penitration. I can physically feel what feels like someone's manhood being inserted into me. And I'm male. So you can imagine.

In short, it's quite upsetting. Most people don't believe you. If you tell a doctor, they want to admit you to a psych ward and medicate you thinking your having hallucinations. This happened last year. I was being admitted for bipolar depression issues and my mom who was with me at the time told the doctor about my ghost issue. It was put into my chart that I was seeing things and was put on antipsychotics which did absolutely nothing about the attacks. I ended up having to lie saying the attacks stopped so I could be let go to go home.

I contacted a ghost research crew who came in. Although nothing was visably caught on tape, both the researchers had experienced activity first hand. The one guy sitting right next to me put his hand right next to where I was sitting and could feel the seat raising and falling. But not enough to be able to see on camera. The woman holding the camera freaked out when the ghost grabbed her hand. But again, it wasn't visable. All there was, was her saying "Someone just grabbed my hand".

This whole mess started in September 2010. I had just lost my apartment across town when my friend I was spliting rent with died. My mom offered for me to rent a room from her. When I first moved in in August I was in the smaller room and all was fine. A month later the larger room was open so I switched rooms as really the smaller one was quite cramped.

A month later the activity started with just the bed moving. Just raising and lowering gently. Having grown up with some level of spirit activity I didn't care about the bed moving. Actually it felt like a message so I didn't mind. The spirit wasn't bothering me so I could care less if it stayed. But a little over a year later the activity turned sexual and rapes began. I am raped between once or twice a day. When that's not happening, I am being touched in some way. Either being fondled or have my cheeks spread open and touching the area. That goes on most of the day.

I have tried everything I can to make the activity stop. Moving isn't a option for two reasons. One is money, I barely can cover the rent. I don't have the income to cover first, last, deposit, moving truck, turn of fees for utilities and such. And the second reason is I don't think moving would work. The attacks are not JUST when I am in the house. This ghost follows me. The last time I was admitted to the psych hospital, due to my county not having one of their own I am transported to Sacramento which is a 3 1/2 drive from here one way. The ghost was with me the whole ride in the car and stayed with me the full 12 days in the hospital and was in the car the whole ride home. I am never away from it.

Which brings me finally to my point of the e-mail. Right now I am dealing with depression. Not that it's really shocking concidering. But part of it is due to the PTSD as well. The flashbacks and nightmares have gotten worse again. Then on top of the ghost attacks which keep me from falling asleep. Hard to sleep with someone touching you like that. So I am so drained and tired. All of it together is causing me to have thoughts of suicide to make it all stop.

And I know "go to the hospital" right? Not that easy for me. Abuse in the psych ward is what caused my PTSD. Most of the abuse, the worst of it, happened in children's units. But I have had a good share in adult units as well. So I have severe anxiety attacks just being near a hospital. Being admitted is a HUGE ordeal.

I was just concidering going to the ER last night, ONLY concidering and had a bad anxiety attack. My stomach got all tensed up and felt like someone was trying to pull my guts out. I am so afraid of being harmed yet again. Which only feeds the feelings of ending my life with thoughts like "this is the only way to get peace".

I just don't know what to do. The PTSD is already hard enough to deal with. But at least there are times with the PTSD that I can manage ok. With this ghost issue there is no peace. No place to run where I can hide. And I don't know who to call for help. I have called a paranormal group, had the house blessed, tried crystal grids, tried begging it to leave me alone, tried yelling and ordering it to leave my house.

I am out of ideas. If it was only when at home I would try to get my room mates to move with me so I could work with them to afford to move. But because the ghost doesn't bother them, they think it's all in my head. It makes me wonder too. Why bother me and not them? I just don't get it. Anyway, thanks for the ear. As I said, I didn't know where to post something like this. I just don't know what to do.

-Stanley

:-( I wish I wish I had a suggestion for you, but I don't. I'm sorry you're going through this.

[Rhapsody]

I have been thinking about this issue and I was wondering if any of your professional therapist think what is happening to you could possibly be coming from your past sexual abuse mixed in with your PTSD?

I ask as I too use to feel like some one was touching me when I was in bed. I felt like some one was trying to get under my covers, was touching my breast and was always trying to take my under garments off. But after spending several months on this matter in psychotherapy with a trusted counselor I came to realization that while these moments seemed real to me at the time they were happening, the repeated touching was really my wounded mind playing games with my struggling mental world of clinical depression and ptsd.

I still have moments when my ptsd takes over and fear of the dark returns, but then I remind my self that my therapist has given me the knowledge to stay grounded in the here & now........ and thats when I talk my self back into the safety I call my friend.

Hello Stanley_19802, I really like Skanzi's idea of boosting your own energy to free yourself from other ones. I also very much agree with Rhapsody. Rhapsody has a very good idea with what's happening, and I agree with her the most. Do you have a therapist you can talk to about this? And not only mentioning ghosts, but how they might relate to what you've been through...

I thought I would give my own two cents. I do believe in spirits, and I'm so sorry what you are going through . Very interesting story. Well, I did live in a very old house once when I was younger, and had some strange experiences. I believe there were two spirits haunting it: one kind man, and one who was rather evil. I remember waking up one night waking up to scratching noises and seeing what looked like a bunch of small branches in a ball rubbing against our window. I sat up, and it was still there. Since my family had only just moved in, I figured it was a tree next to the porch or something and went back to bed. I looked outside the next day and saw nothing that could cause it, and certainly not a tree. What's stranger is that the window was under a porch and protected from the wind. Over time, I started seeing two people in my dreams. I only saw them during particularly bad nightmares in which I often woke up in a cold sweat. Yes, they could have just been dreams and not spirits of any kind. I was going through some hard times, and they may have represented some repressed emotions like fears. However, they stayed part of my dreams for years. Once we moved, I never had a dream of them again. I noticed that I had more nightmares when I was having problems going on in real life, and then they would show up more.

Maybe if you could find a roommate, you could try moving? I think living in another location entirely is at least a start. Plus, you might have a better chance of having a new roommate believe you if something happens, if they believe in spirits. If you do find a roommate in the future, you can ask them sometime if they believe in spirits.

If you don't move, I recommend trying out living in a different room. At least it's something. Is that small room you used to stay in still available? If you had less hauntings then, it'd probably be worth your while to move back there. If your mother needs an excuse for you to move, you can say your old room smells bad or something, lol. You can also try sleeping in the living room at some point.

I think spirits like to haunt people who are going through difficulties themselves. Maybe overcoming your own difficulties can help pull you from the situation? I have heard of a story of someone's friend who had a ghost haunting her. This ghost was actually pretty dangerous, and had caused harm. She didn't have a problem talking to me about it, and what eventually got the spirit to leave, or at least calmed it, was people coming in to talk to the spirit and doing rituals, I think. I'm not too sure what that's all called.

By the way, I noticed you have good writing skills. Very nice!

If anything, I just wish you the best. I hope this can end for you soon.