Experience of being bullied?

Exactly the same thing happened to me. Now I'm fat. Everyone complained when I was thin as a boy.

People say it's liberating to let go of things that happened in the past, but call me weak or whatever, but I don't think I could ever forgive these people for what they did, because they ruined my life.

Things like force-feeding, telling me not to waste food when I was full, etc. and now I've been fat since I'm 8 years old, and never managed to lose the weight.

I was always skinny as a kid but never underweight. Then I started taking Abilify and my weight went crazy. I think I have it under control now.

You're not weak. If it makes you feel better, I'm in the same boat in regards to forgiveness. I find it impossible to forgive those who hurt me in the past and I sometimes wish bad things upon them.

I have never been bullied.
I was a bully a few times in my teens. Just verbally. I could be very *****y.

I'm so sorry for all of you who where bullied. I wish I could have been there for you, I was always the one who stood up for the one getting picked on, animal or human. I will never understand how people can be so mean.

It's messed up you had to go through it too. I hope you manage to get to a healthy weight again. People can be rude and hope next time around, you'll be prepared to deal with any negativity that comes to you and know how to deal with it.

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I've always had thoughts of getting back at them.

One would be to inflict death or harm upon them.

Though they say it's not a humane answer...

But really, I was so weak back then and stuck in a hole. It took me many years to crawl out and harden.

Though I've learned not to be weak and stand up for myself. I've learned to seek destruction on my enemies.

i used to have thoughts of inflicting pain on others too for the things that happened to me but I was also kind of scared to actually go through with it... now a days i dont even think that way anymore... i think i dont even know when someone is being rude and harmful anymore. I think i lost my identity.

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I was never bullied. Up until I was 11 years old, I was really popular in school. When I was in second grade, I have memory of me and my friends bullying a girl that no one in our class liked.

When I was in third grade, still no one liked her. Her name was Elizabeth. There was another girl that joined our class that year. She had severe autism and her name was Megan. I took an interest in Megan, and so did Elizabeth. The rest of the class was kind of afraid to approach Megan because none of us understood autism. So usually, I would go sit with Megan and color with her. Elizabeth would join us. Megan was always with a special Ed teacher while the regular teacher taught the rest of the class. Whenever the special Ed teacher couldn't calm down Megan (she had a lot of outbursts and crying fits) she would hide in the class "closet" and yell out for me and Elizabeth to come to her.

So Elizabeth invited everyone in our grade to her own birthday party. I get an invitation too, and so did Megan. I knew none of my friends would go...and I was friends with everyone so that's how I knew. I decided to go because I liked Elizabeth. Megan showed up too. No one else did. I got to see how poor Elizabeth's family was. I spent the night and the sheets smelled like urine. The house was dirty and gross. They didn't own very much...they lived in the poor area of our county. So it made me sad that she didn't have any friends.

But I didn't really have the guts to be besties with her. I knew I would be made fun of by my friends. So while I was always nice to her, I never played with her or saw her after school. She moved after fourth grade, anyway. I cannot find her ANYWHERE. I can't find her anywhere on Facebook. I really want to know where she is now.

After I was 11 years old, we moved to a different county and I changed schools. From 6th grade to my sophomore year, I had few friends and was very depressed all of the time. I had severe social anxiety that actually started while I was still at my old school but I'd had plenty of friends that didn't seem to mind. I was afraid to talk to people because I knew I would embarrass myself. I thought I was fat, and I wore glasses until 9th grade, and had braces. I was never bullied by the popular kids, though. Some of them were nice to me, but most of them just ignored me. I truly thought I was invisible for years.

And then in my junior year of high school, I think that's when I had my first manic episode (or at least hypo manic) because I got really sick with anorexia but I was crazy social and made tons of friends and was always going to parties, getting drunk and smoking. I drank and smoked to mask my social anxiety. It "loosened" me up. By that point, I was also never bullied, but everyone thought I was a slut (I wasn't). So people would say things about me behind my back and I would hear about them later.

But anyway, I was never bullied but I think I was always afraid of being bullied.

I've been bullied on and off all throughout my life. Even as a child, I remember adults joining in on the fun sometimes. It made me grow up paranoid of others, and I always thought I was criticized no matter what I did. It took a toll on my young life, for sure. And my parents seemed obsessed with their own problems and offered little comfort so I suffered in silence most of the time. I had my art to fall back on, but sometimes I would get so depressed that not even that would help. These days I try not to think about the past anymore because it just makes me resentful, but there are times when I read people's experiences or see bullying and it flares up this fire inside me and all the memories come back. I really hate it, and I wish more would be done to stop it from happening. It really is a form of violence against the victim and has long lasting effects....

Kids with autism have a horrible time. I am always friendly to them when I see them. One of my sons has PDD/autism spectrum. He has a hard time being social. We work with him a lot.

I definitely empathize.

Oh yes. The strongest people are those who had to suffer the most. All the bullies are accomplishing in the grand scheme of things is hardening their victims so they don't have to put up with people's B.S anymore.

I'm grateful for all of the abuse that I had to suffer both at the hands of bullies and abusive family members because my experiences have not only hardened me, but has taught me how to think critically, how to question everything, and how to become a wolf rather than remain another mindless sheep which puts me well above 98% of humanity.

People like us are the true elite.