Not understanding...the world I live in.

I hope its ok to post this in general,...I've been debating whether or not this is a depressioin thread,social,general,sexual,...or all. Right now...I'm so confused...I'm 17 for the billionth time..I feel I must say that for anyone new to my posts to understand where I'm coming from as a teen,and as a depressed person...So what is life? Whats love? I don't understand....I mean I hear so much even as of late from adults...that sex is the only thing in a relationship that holds it...and that builds it...this isnt a sex thread...thats just 1 issue im struggling with...you may take these things as minior things but their driving me insane and I can't be happy knowing that the world lives this way. Since I was about 15 I've started "ACTING" like other ppl...to try and understand life...and why they do the "things" they do.

I first started rebelling...doing irrational things for rational reasons...to be happy. I started to hate,smoke(not saying smokers are bad just it fit the image...plz take this lightly),sin,and just rebell...its hard for me to put these things in words as a teen but as I grow up it'll be easier to describe. As of late...I've tried to understand the difference between lust/and love....are they different or more the same then we think?

Gosh...I rattle my brain that I becmoe depressed...my mind never stops..I'm no normal in the aspect I can't do something without coming up with 100 reasons why or why not to pursue it and know the conciqeunces ...and I regretably pursue things that I do regret...

Gosh this was moree of a rant...and a chest reliver.....

Thanks for listening....

Moonkin, you shouldn't feel you have to say your age anymore... those who have greeted you know, and you also have it listed nicely in your profile in case someone wishes to figure out where you're coming from

You've only been working on this 2 years that's not very long considering mankind has wondered much of that for thousands of years.

I sense a lot of anxiety coming from you, and hope that the medicine your doctor recently gave you will help that settle all those questions down in the near future.

(((hugs)))

You will understand it the older you get man, You learn from your mistakes...Trial and error...Youll figure it all out someday.

dustin.........i too hope that the meds you have just started relieve some of your anxiety..........at age 17 you should be enjoying your youth and all the wonders it brings with it............my opinion?..love and lust are in no way the same.........