Not knowing who I am......what I am...typical?

As the smileys say I'm confused!

Being a teenager I know confusion comes with it. Regardless it hurts I know I can count on you all to help me.

I'm 17 , 1 year and I'm in the adult world. And yet I don't "get", or "understand" myself. Heck, I like a wide variety of music, and constantly bash myself saying "kids my age like 1 style , and they get in a "click" and they rebel, yet there is me, the american eagle t-shirt wearing, dress pants guy.

I've never had a romance at a young age. For some reason I feel it nesscary, I want it, I want to experience the faults of young ppl, I'm just expericing the guilt of being behind.

I've never fit in at school. In fact each 4 years of highschool I dressed different trying to attract different ppl and "clicks" (groups). Its never worked. Of course I talkl to a few ppl, but seldom, very seldom am I comfortable with them and consider them "true" friends.

My sex drive is of course high, espcially being a guy( i hear we have a higher sex drive in the teens then girls ). The thought of lust and greed botheers me aas you can tell from previous posts. Yet a sexual relationship seems to be a "need" from me...I'm so sad.....

Sexuality is a biggy, while I'm not physically attracted to others guys, I do fantasize. And its scary becausue the confusion it brings....

I just wonder if this is a game life is pllaying for me now. My T said heer early 20's where hard for her, so maybe my teens are hard for me then it'll get better.

I doubt that, I'm not trying to tell myself I wont get better, but I however do NOT believe this is a teen thing.....I can't explain why.....

I could be wrong....

ty for lisstening

Dustin

You sound like a male version of what I was in high school. I was not in my first romantic relationship until a few months after graduation. The only time I felt like I fit in was in marching band, but even there, if I wasn't in uniform I was nothing like anyone else. I longed to fit in, be in a romantic relationship, date, party, have fun, but it just didn't work. What you are going through is far more common than you know. Some of those mistakes (especially the sexual ones) your classmates are making seem like typical teenage activity now, but could affect their lives negatively far into the future. Get through the rest of high school and go to college... join organizations... take all kinds of different classes, see where you fit in life. You are at the perfect age to have a variety of tastes and are going to do much better in the future than if you limit yourself. I know, I"m some old 27 year old chick and probably "don't understand" - that's how I wouldv'e felt at 17 hearing this, but I do understand. Times change and the music and styles change but the feelings that go along with teen life remain. Sometimes not fitting in as a teen makes for a healthier adult. Just get through high school and look forward to college where everyone can find a place for themselves!

I hated high school.

My teens and 20s were hard for me. I was talking to an 11 year old the other day about how fast time moves when you're older; she didn't feel it did, her days went by slowly and I pointed out to her that that was because she didn't have that many yet. Experience is like that; things are harder/easier, more "extreme" when you're younger I think because there aren't enough to "average".

i've always heard that being a teenager is confusing too, but it didn't seem to me that others were experiencing the kind of confusion i was... i mean, how can you just not know who you are anymore, how can someone lose their entire sense of self? because of this i knew there was something more going on in my case...

ae shirts and dress slacks look good imo, a diverse taste in music exhibits an open mind

most people want romance... its later on, after a few jolts that they tend to put up a guard

why would you want to fit in moonkin? my step-mom had this one: if everyone jumps off a bridge, are you going to too?

i believe you will find your true friends and when you do you will have an earnest appreciation for them and they will be lucky to call you thier friend...

high sex drive in males is not really unusual... look at what is all around you in ads, music, conversation... in fact, a healthy libido is very good for the country... two people together often spend more than one... movies, dinner, getaways, etc... they are actually trying to get you to have a relationship... so thier plan is working...

you're ok moonkin, thanks for sharing...

((((((((((((( Moonkin ))))))))))))))