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* Scapegoated by family
* Lost friends * Therapist expresses low confidence in treating me and its the fifth one, and the one I trusted most * Can’t study due to great stress * Concerns getting along with apartment colleagues I have no idea what to do I don’t deserve a life like this. I deserve so much more than that and I’m not getting it Might as well end my life |
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Tes, I am emotionally out of control... a bit
And I used to be able to make points and arguments in a kinder and more sophisticated way I just had a problem with the suicide hotline. I talked about my problems and the receipt said all I said is wrong, so they included the abuse I’ve been to in that regard. I can’t believe a place which is supposed to help me says all I say is wrong They tried to contact me afterwards. They said “We hope you’re not going to kill yourself... today”. This was beyond unbelievable |
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It is totally not their job to tell you what you're doing "wrong." I'm sorry that happened!
Are you in contact with your parents? Do you have an ok relationship with them? I know you'd said in the past your dad wasn't always very nice. But I'm wondering about your mom? Also can you call your T? Either way, can you find a way to cool down for now? I learned about splashing cold water on my face when I'm upset. It actually helps! Also sometimes I wrap myself in a blanket and just listen to my favorite music. Heh, I'd started a thread on self soothing in the Coping With Emotions forum. I need to listen to my own advice! Hugs, VO. |
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My parents are no source for help. They only want me in a safety net and don’t want me to flourish |
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You're very welcome. I'm happy to.
![]() When you say safety net, do you mean like, they want to catch you if you fall? And like they coddle you? Not sure what you mean. |
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No, they’re just fine with “supporting me” (not checking on me despite telling my parents about it countless times, asking them why they won’t check on me and finding it hard to get help when the calls go unanswered no matter how hard I work to make them understand the calls)
They don’t want me to flourish, and would prefer me being “weak” and “in need of support”, rather than see me as “strong” and “in need of encouragement and boosting upwards” |
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Why are you thanking this post?
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Hmm... My parents are the same way. For the longest time, I tried to so hard to get my mom to be different. To care in the way I needed her to. To change who she was, essentially. It was frustrating for a long time. At the same time, I love and care about my parents. I've made peace with it now. But my mom is definitely....well, for the longest time I was like, "I don't get her."
Do they support you financially and let you live with them? Perhaps that is just what they know to do. In terms of them not wanting you to flourish, are you sure? Do you know that as a fact? If they haven't said that outright to you, I think it might be in your benefit to consider the idea that...your parents just are doing the best they can (even if it seems like a crappy one to you. And I can so relate, every time I bring up job stuff to my mom, she says "well you don't have to decide today" ahh! so frustrating! I'm learning to just stop going to her with issues of that nature) with who they are and what they know and have. People are interesting. It would be interesting to be able to choose our family before we're born. |
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Was thanking you for explaining.
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Because I am an opportunist the glass is not full enough, and it seems to pull me down rather than fill me up |
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VO,
Regarding your words on your last post about your opportunistic nature pulling you down or the glass is not full enough. If that's the way you feel about being opportunistic perhaps that is not the right path you should follow. Do things that fill that cup enough for you...things you feel passionate about. Do the things that feed your soul, that help you to feel good. Start that gratitude journal so you have a minute or two of positive thought. Initially this could be a challenge especially if you're really down. The first week you might only be grateful you saw a beautiful flowering tree...and that might seem like "diddly squat" to you but it is a beginning and an important one. I also think DBT could be helpful to you in learning distress tolerance ie. skills to get you through the hard times. I have learned in life that good things take effort and perseverance and don't fall from the sky in front of you. You have to be willing to do "the work" and pay your dues no matter what that may be. There are no short cuts in life but that doesn't mean every day be full of negativity. Some times even in small way we need to change our thought process, in how we are going to view a certain issue, not always easy but sometimes the alternative is worse. In the midst of a thunderstorm I can find something good. It wasn't always like that, but I can easily access the good now. Hope some of what I have written is at least worth reflecting on.
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True happiness comes not when we get rid of all our problems, but when we change our relationship to them, when we see our problems as a potential source of awakening, opportunities to practice patience and learn.~Richard Carlson |
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VO, I hope you're having a better afternoon.
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Still wanting to die
And can you please not express side-taking? I find it unhelpful and only adding more unnecessary pressure for me Other than that, thanks for the help so far |
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VO,
I think every one who has replied is on your side.
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True happiness comes not when we get rid of all our problems, but when we change our relationship to them, when we see our problems as a potential source of awakening, opportunities to practice patience and learn.~Richard Carlson |
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That means allot to me
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Hi vibrating obsidian,
Sorry to hear from you. I can understand your situation. I think you should visit a therapist for relationship counseling. He/She will definitely help you. Thanks.. |
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I agree that it can be very painful when people give up on us, and running into the same roadblocks again and again can be very discouraging. I guess my comment here is that other people’s opinion’s do not define your true potential. You have value and potential whether anyone else recognizes it or not! Your well-being and peace is not dependent on what people say, but on who you are! I have to admit that I am deeply affected by what people think and say about me. We are all social creatures and I really do want to be appreciated. But I have also found it quite freeing to put aside worrying about what other people think and just embrace the fact that I do have value and purpose in the world and pursue finding out what that is.
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I understand the feeling of scapegoating from family, and losing friends. It's a hard and lonely feeling. I just wanted to let you know that I can relate.
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