Not feeling well and alone...

I live alone and have for most of my life. I don't know if I really could live with another person. I am extremely introverted and I need my alone time time to recover from being in the world with all its people and stress. My house is my sanctuary and I'd prefer to not share my sanctuary.

The only time I ever feel alone is when I wake up in the middle of the night sick. Right now would be one of those times. I just wish there was somebody here so I could tell them I don't feel good...maybe get a little sympathy and love. I am sick and I am alone.

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I know how that feels. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. It's really the pits.

Thanks SeptemberMorn...it feels good to know you are here for me. Takes a little of the loneliness away. Thank goodness for PsychCentral.

I also know what you mean.....I posted something similar when I was at my farm in Kentucky. I am married with my husband in California, & it's been 32 years of marriage, but I refuse to let him come to Kentucky because of the horrible marriage it has been...I would really rather be alone than with him.

But.....I got a horrible cold & larangitis when I was in Kentucky & there were times I felt so horrible, I couldn't even leave the house to go to the store to get food for my dog or myself. I was just getting by & having to do things that I really felt like laying in my chair bed rather than even moving.

That was one thing my husband was good at was doing things that would help a person if you asked & he would get things you wanted so you just could lay in bed & sleep it all away....not have to give the dog a potty walk or cook dinner or even something simple like making sure the dog had water..

It is nice to have that other person around when you are feeling like you just don't want to move or do anything, but I'm not really sure that the price of having the person around with all the other agrivations that are part of a relationship are really worth having the person around when you are feeling bad.

I just arrived in California after a horrible trip home over the last few days & going through the horrible experience in Albeqierqie & he promised to cooperate with me at getting the rest of the house packed here. I came home in a bad mood, but he seemed to want to push every button in the world & wouldn't cooperate like he promised. I am so angry, all I see is RED when I am with him......I can't even imagine having him back in Kentucky at my farm for Christmas like I planned now.....I don't want to be anywhere near him.

But when I was sick & feeling horrible.....that was another story.......but I also realize that his help are really empty actions without much feeling behind them.....he just is the kind of person who does nice things for people because it's the thing to do.

Sorry for dumping my crap here.....I really do understand how you are feeling & glad that PC is here to fill that position of having someone around.

Debbie

((((Depresseme)))) hoping you feel better


chalmette

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I'm so sorry, that feeling is so horrible

((((DePress Me)))))

Thinking of you and letting you know you are not alone. I do understand that feeling of wishing someone was there. We are all here to uplift you and pray for you that you feel better soon. Take care and know you are loved.

cami

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Thinking of you and letting you know you are not alone. I do understand that feeling of wishing someone was there. We are all here to uplift you and pray for you that you feel better soon. Take care and know you are loved.

cami

DePess me I know exactly where you are coming from...the only difference is I am married and I would purposly send my wife out at night with her friends because I wanted to be that hermit for a while. I am living by myself now and I actually made myself sick the first month I was there by myself. I am an introvert as well, but I have found that when I forced myself (I know it is different for you) to go out and make new friends and see old ones, I actually had fun. This is a small step process and not something I would recommend you jumping right into. I am here for you and any support I can give to you I will.

Dragon

It's amazing how what we consider our sanctuary becomes our worse enemy.
Even though married I prefer to be alone in my sanctuary, my safe place.
However when you are hurting it becomes a place full of isolation and lonelyness.

DePressMe

I hope you are feeling better this morning. I too went to bed sick last night. In a way I wished I had someone here to take care of me too...someone to hold me and bring me hot soup or tea. But in the long run, I know I, myself are better off alone when I'm ill.

I'm sorry you were feeling all alone and sad and sick. It's never fun feeling that way

Sending you well wishes and some virtual hot tea and honey.

sabby

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I hope you're feeling better today hon.

(((Depressme)))

I'm sorry that you're feeling sick and lonely - I can relate to wanting to be alone most of the time, but sometimes it really sucks. Try to make sure that you're taking care of yourself & I hope you feel better soon.

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> I just wish there was somebody here so I could tell them I don't feel good...maybe get a little sympathy and love.

Sympathy and Love! For you!

Thank you all for the wonderful support. I am glad to tell you that I feel much better this afternoon. It is great to know I can always come here for a little sympathy and some hugs. You all are awesome!

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Hope you feel better soon, You will be in my thoughts , sending hugs so you don't feel alone, My pm box is always open , i will be happy to listen and return symapthy when you are ill

Linda

I'm sorry you're feeling down. If I lived close, I'd bring you a bowl of chicken noodle soup.

Hi Dep,
I know how you feel too. I'm sorry you're sick. You really aren't alone as long as you have your computer by you! We are all here with you, and for you!
Love,
Okie

Hi De, I'm so glad you are feeling better! I'd like to still send you warm,loving, wishes & thoughts.
You are important.

Depressme...What you have said sounds so SO much like me....alone here in my little sanctuary. But, I too have been sick from time to time...once with the flu, I could barely get up out of bed, and I do know how it feels.
On the other hand, when I had a partner, married for 20 years, he wasn't attentive at all when I needed him, though he, himself, was very demanding if he happened to be ill.
I am glad you are feeling better, and also hope you, like me, are feeling proud of being able to live alone and take care of yourself!
Love
Patty

(((Depress)))

Hugs and best wishes and I hope you continue to feel better...

Wow, you all are great!!!!

I am still taking some meds, but I feel pretty good.

It just continues to amaze me that every time I reach out to the PC family, I get such an outpouring of incredibly warm responses. I guess it amazes me because you all have gotten to know me and yet you still seem to like me. It reminds me to be grateful for the many blessings in my life. You all are at the top of my list!

Depressme...What you said:
"It just continues to amaze me that every time I reach out to the PC family, I get such an outpouring of incredibly warm responses. I guess it amazes me because you all have gotten to know me and yet you still seem to like me. It reminds me to be grateful for the many blessings in my life. You all are at the top of my list! "
I feel the same. I went into the office/lounge of two of my teammates/fellow teachers yesterday, at which time they both disappeared to attend to duties. Being there, left alone, I felt abandoned. I never feel so here on PC!
Love
Patty

Hello DePress
i know exactly what you mean about your sanctuary and although i do not live alone, solitude is as necessary as oxygen to me! i am sorry that you're not feeling well and will send feel better vibes your way...
a kindred spirit
lilyorbit

Oh, I hate being sick at night, in the virtual cold and dark and not knowing how best to care for myself. One seems to want "simple" things but they're so hard to accomplish and it's so frustrating. I cry.

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