When it rains, it pours...

When it rains, it pours…

I am still in the process of dealing with my Grandma’s death and now my uncle has died. I am still dealing with some psychotic symptoms from going off my meds and I have barely managed to stay out of the hospital. There is no way I can make the drive home for his funeral—it would not be safe for me to be in the car for 10 hours. I feel a little guilty about that, but I know he would rather I take care of myself.

I am trying to focus on the positive memories I have of him. All the fun times we had riding horses together, sitting around campfires, playing horse shoes…he taught me how to play poker. He had a major drinking problem, but he quit. He was a good source of support when I was trying to quit drinking. We sat in his kitchen drinking coffee and talking for hours at a time. He always made me feel special by teasing me and telling me stories. He made me feel like I was somebody—I always left his house feeling good about myself. I will miss him.

>>>>>>.. ((( DepMe ))) ..<<<<<<< I Would say this...............make the sound of a ringer or steel in the pit for the horse shoes.

.And maybe make a fire this winter and have a cup of coffee and A memory to build that tear that is sure to form.

.Oh and By the Way DepMe,,,,,,,,,,,,, Try to remember One of those Stories........>>>>>>>>>. cool . Take Care .

Depressme. Remember those times with him. They way you two were together. Thats what he will want you to remember too.

I'm so sorry for your loss of your uncle. I can tell he was quite special to you.

If you arent able to make it their, its okay. He's with you in your heart and thats where it really matters. You make your peace and talk with him at your own time and he will be there listening.

Please accept my condolences. I give you my hand to hold and walk with you for a while.

chalmette

So sorry bout your uncle dpm, you have an album full of memories in your mind, like an internal photo album, may you alwayslook at it and turn the pages when you are down...he will give you strength, and he's still with you imho ..... spirit wise.....

Love, Kerry xxxxxxx

Thank you all for your support--it helps to know you are here for me.

What does imho stand for?

you surely have been thru the "mill" sweetie... I am so sorry... so very sorry.....((((hugs))))

imho= In my humble opinion

(((((((((((((((((De)))))))))))))))))

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear uncle. You are so right though, he would want you to take care of yourself first and foremost. Physically being there is only a small part of the grieving process. While you may miss being with other family members during this time, your uncle is sitting right next to you and remembering all those wonderful times together with you. He knows you love him and will miss him. He loves you very much and that will NEVER stop.

I think wmd had a wonderful idea for you to build a fire, put the coffee pot on and just sit and remember. Cry when you need to, laugh when you need to. Try to feel the warmth from within that you and your uncle shared through the years.

Sending you healing and calming thoughts.

xoxoxo
sabby

Hi Dpm,
It is so hard when we lose someone we love. And you've had two big losses right in a row. I'm so sorry.

In 2001 my grandma, aunt and mom died. So, I can truly feel your pain. I hate it that you're having to go through this.

I don't have any great advice for you like others here. Only wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you, and that you are important to me.
Love,
Okie

(((( DePressMe )))))

I'm so sorry for your loss. I agree that he would want you to stay safe. Maybe youcan make a horseshoe out of blown glass. Keep focusing on those good memories, and feel free to PM anytime.......


Rayna

My condolences to you DePressMe.

(((Depressme))))

I'm so sorry for your loss. But try and focus on all of your wonderful memories of him, he sounds like a special person, and know that he'll always be part of you.

--splitimage

((((((((((((( DePressMe )))))))))))))

so sorry to hear of your loss.please take care....