Im back and lost... please help me

Its been a while since i was here but tonight i cant take it anymore.

i cant sleep and havent slept a good night sleep in more than a month... 4-5 hours per night.

im plagued with

and consequently unwanted, disturbing, intrusive and obsessive thoughts. especially at night when i can distract myself.

im losing my support system on purpose to set them free from me.

i have stopped taking my meds because they slow down my metabolism and im developing anorexia.

im 41, too old for this.

i cant take it anymore and nobody seems to understand it.

please, someone help me

I am so very, very sorry you are in the situation you describe in your post. You mention that you stopped taking your meds. Did you do this gradually under the supervision of a physician? Sudden discontinuation of mental health meds can often lead to distressing outcomes and unimaginable suffering. You probably already know this.

I know that the side effects of meds can be brutal sometimes but losing one's peace of mind and joy of living can be even worse.

I went off my meds because of side effects and all kinds of horrible things happened to me. Wish I knew what to say to help you. Hopefully others here will have better words for you than my poor words. My heart goes out to you!

Please go to a hospital emergency department for help. None of us here are mental health professionals and you deserve the best that is available. We wouldn't want to lose you!

Welcome back, sinking. We're here for you.

i reached out for help here online, elsewhere, on the hotline, at the mental health center, to my psych... nobody seems to get that i might even cause i cant take it anymore, truly.

i quit some meds altogether, now they're giving me them back. they said it will take from 6 to 10 weeks to get back to normal. i cant take that.

im really out of myself

I am so sorry, could you take yourself to the hospital? Take yourself to emergency? If I felt how you described, that’s what I would do. Don’t know if it will help but it doesn’t sound like it could get any worse. Maybe do that?

i have thought about that. if it doesnt get better i'll do it tomorrow. thank you so much

Good plan. Hang in there. We are here for you

Im going to the psy Er this morning. Cant take It much longer...

Thank you for the advice.
Love

Please be better soon and I think it’s the wisest decision right now

Thank you, if It werent for your advice i probably wouldnt have done It. So thank you.
Now i sleep Better and i feel safe. Thank you so much

Hang in there sinking until you can get to the ER

Let us know how you go.

They sent me to the psy Er and now im staying IP for a while. I already know the Place and people so im feeling safer and Better, sleeping a bit more.
It was the best thing i could do.

Love and hugs

I’m glad you’re safe

So glad you are safe. Sending you many hugs and best wishes

Hello,

I know it is difficult especially when it comes to taking psychotropic meds; sometimes, it takes a number of different medications to find the right one that works for you

Its comes out i had nervous+psychotic breakdown. Im taking lots of meds now to go back to normal....

Thank you for your help

Psychotic breakdown is no fun. I’ve had them too. I’m glad you’re safe and being taken care of!

Hugs! Hang in there, we are here for you

Thinking about you, sinking!!

I have also had a psychotic breakdown and also depression with psychotic features.

It's a relief to know you are in hospital and are safe... Hang in there!

Hugs!

Thank you so much for all of your support. i couldnt have made it without you.

meds are magic pills. psych is sweet, i am hanging in there with plan B: living.

I'm glad you are feeling better. Just having other people around you can sometimes break the hold of a bad depressive episode. Three years ago I was alone with dangerous thoughts and ended up going inpatient. It made such a difference and got me over a bad hump. You made a good decision.

Nine years ago I got into a "partial hospitalization program" where I went there 5 hours a day, 4 days a week. That greatly relieved dark thoughts I was having. Ask the staff if there is anything like that you could transition to.

I hope you continue improving.

Hi and I hope you feel better soon! My son just had the same thing happen to him last night, i didnt even know he was in the hospital until they called me later this morning. We found out he stopped taking his meds too. well im praying for him right now and will add you to my list! have a nice night of peaceful dreams!

How wrong was i...

now plan A is back in first position.

i do not have the courage to live...

What happened?

I am sorry you are unable to remain stable.

Im even taking 2 Mood stabilizers but It seems they dont work.

My Plan B1 Is useless

My Plan B2 Is useless too

I dont see the point in doing anything.

At this point i dont care anymore.

Whatever Will happen, Will happen... Both good and bad... Whatever. I give up my right to decide of my future.