Crawling under a rock and hiding until the anxiety passes.

Tonight is especially bad.

Though I seem to be getting a TINY bit better as time goes on.

I just need some hugs I think. I know it will pass but dangit I hate having to go through it in the first place.

So I come and dump it all out here in the hopes of "better out than in" if you all know what i mean.

Having anxiety chest pains (noone worry,they are the same pains I always get with anxiety) feeling like everything is spinning out of control.. ugh. Its a nasty feeling trying to overcome your head even though it all feels like its physical I know its not.

Its easy to rationalize it though but putting that into practise is ever so hard.

[bebop]

((((((((big hugs)))))))))))

[(JD)]

(((((Hugs)))))

(((you guys))))

Thanks. Man, your both fast lol.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((( Rainbowzz ))))))))))))

[Perna]

{{{Rainbowzz+little z}}}

[nowheretorun]

hugs Bowzz!

(((((Rainbowzz ))))))
big hug to you
Breath in breath out
sitting here with you

((((hugs back))))

I find I have a really hard time remembering to be soft with myself, rather than throwing things out there like "oh just get over it" or "its all in your head" "just ignore it for god's sake"

Which, as some of you probably know, does nothing good for me.

I have to concentrate on saying things like "This may be psychological, but that doesn't make it any less real" and "This has passed before and you did not die, so you can make it through this another time" and "you will be ok, remember that even though you perceive it to be like a heart attack, doesn't mean that it automatically is" "you are strong, and can make it through an anxiety attack - you have made it through worse before" and "every minute you make it through this makes you stronger and is closer to it passing"

I think saying positive things rather than dismissing it is WAY more efficient.

[Fuzzybear]

[nowheretorun]

right on Rainbowzz ... sounds like stting, breathing, centering, calming and clear logical thinking works for you... its self honesty to connect with the feelings i think, it honors and validates something which is real for you in this time....

not fighting it, but, accepting it and yourself sounds very healing to me.....

Yes, validation is very important. For a long time I fought it, or gave into the feelings entirely.

Fighting it led to it getting worse.

Giving in to the feelings led to being overwhelmed by the feelings.

So I do my best to acheive a happy medium between letting go and being overwhelmed. Acceptance moreso than becoming what I am experiencing.

It is important to remember that whatever we are experiencing, we don't have to BE that experience, we can just recognize it for what it is, and choose to understand that we are not our illness.

It's helping me just to type this stuff out, it reminds me of the positives.

[wisewoman]

Good job with the self talk and thinking there. I am impressed!!!!

[sabby]

(((((((((((((( Rain )))))))))))))))

What a wonderful job you are doing for yourself and your child. Not to mention for the rest of us here who also suffer from issues that we need to validate and deal with. You are definitely an inspiration.

May you feel better very soon dear one.


sabby

(((you guys)))

It's also important that when I feel I need something, as long as it is not harmful, then I go ahead an induldge. I mean for example like making a post here - I remind myself to never feel bad for requiring the help and attention of others to make it through an anxiety attack. I mean heck, there is much worse things I could be doing to get over it right?

I think, that the crisis point has passed for the most part. I don't feel as on-the-edge-of-my-seat as I did. Though I am still edgy and anxious to some degree.

Ahhh... I came, I saw. I conquered once more.

I am the king of the castle, and the castle is my experience.

[splitimage]

(((Rainbowzz)))

Glad you made it through your panic attack - and I like your positive self talk.

--splitimage

[SeptemberMorn]

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! A conquerer once more!

Sorry I wasn't here sooner, though. You did a wonderful job... so you really didn't need me.

WHAT?!?!

Of COURSE i need you.

You are one of my special friends too you know.

[Zorah]

{{{{{{{{{{bowzzie}}}}}}}}}}

Sorry we didn't find this earlier

[nina52]

Rainbowzz,

I am so sorry for your pain, and I totally do understand where you are coming from. The god news is that you can always find support among the people here, because a lot of us have been or are where you are right now.

Hopefully you are seeing a PDoc or a therapist. I didn't start feeling better until I sought out help. Sure I stil have my good and bad days, but I am very grateful to have my doctor, and a place to meet with others that do understand.

Things can only get beter. just hang in there, and share your feelings.
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NINa