I am so angry right now I could spit bullets

I just got off the phone with dear old dad. My phone bill is due tomorrow and I had given him my phone bill but he forgot to take it home with him so he didn't pay it and I got a text message reminding me that it was due so I called him and he said oh ya I forgot to tell you I didn't pay it. So I called the company found out how much it was and called him back to tell him and make arrangements to get the check so I can pay it tomorrow so no big deal you would think. Well I told him that he could give the check to my mom because she's supposed to go to therapy with me tomorrow and the do do hit the fan so to speak. He said he didn't think that they needed to go see my therapist with me and that they didn't need to change yadda yadda yadda and now I feel about 2 inches tall and am crying. I have all these bad thoughts runnning through my mind I am waiting for my T to call me back but it doesn't appear she is going to be doing that. So now I'm stuck here in my own little world crying.

Jbug

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I'm so sorry you are upset and crying. Don't you just hate when someone makes a mountain out of a mole hill and then makes you feel responsible for their reaction?? Hon, it's not your fault that dear old dad had a flip over your therapy session. That was all on him hon. You stand your ground and know that something will work out....it always does! Remember to breathe....slowly in and slowly out.... Maybe give him some time to calm down and call your mom in the morning to get things arranged ok?


sabby

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sorry you're having a bad night. hope things get better real soon.

J BUG to you. I have the same trouble with my mom. I had

to take over my moms finances cuz she gets so confused!!! She

says she paid a bill and low and behold, there it is sitting on

kitchen Table!!! She blows lots of money on magazines that just

sit around on the coffee table. What a job its been looking after

her with medications, schedualed at the appropriate times...etc

etc... I've workeds in health care before but its even worse when

its your own family, cuz you can't go home for a break...hang in

there J Bug... ..... ziggy (David)

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hopefully it will all get sorted out ASAP. Take care of yourself.

sometimes our parents are blind to our needs but know he still loves you in his own selfish way i know because i am a parent and have made so many mistakes so keep your chin up and know there will be better moments

beannie

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(((( jbug )))) I'm so sorry your dad reacted like that. You didn't deserve it, and it's not your fault. I hope things get better very soon.

I went to therapy today and laid it all out on the table and cried and screamed and stuff. Then I got home and called dad to leave him a message about something that happened earlier today and got lamblasted again. I guess to him I am getting worse not better he wants to lock me up and throw away the key. He said I slur my words and I sound like I'm drunk all the time that he can't understand what I'm saying. He asked what do I do in therapy sit there hold hands and sing KumBiYa? If I wasn't so stinkin mad at him I would have to laugh. I sent my T an email at both her home email addy and her work email so hopefully she looks at one of them today because I am seriously thinking of checking myself into the hospital not sure what I will do with Tyger but need to talk to my T seriously.

Jbug

(((((jbug))))) I'm so sorry that you're not getting the support that you need from your father. Is your mother perhaps better? Maybe you should just deal with her until you're in a more stable place.

As parents, we tend to lash out when we are hurt, angry or scared, it's not right, but we're human too. Perhaps deep down he's feeling somehow responsible for your or just plain miserable because he can't fix it for you.

Try to exercise a little self care. You're dad sounds like he's old school and probably doesn't fully understand what's going on, if you can keep your conversations with him to things like the weather and have mom help you with the big things. Remember that you'll never be able to change his attitude, only your own and your reaction to him.

Big cyber (((((hug))))).