[eskielover]

I just got through all the paperwork for the back taxes with the IRS that my husband never bothered telling me about & never did anything about himself with the IRS for almost the past year. I got everything mailed to them so they can fix the amount...in the end, it wasn't anything close to the huge amount they first claimed because of several stupid mistakes my husband made on the 2005 taxes.

I got all the paperwork in that the loan officers needed for the refi that my husband was spinning his wheels with. I am still waiting to hear if they are willing to refi or not.....but I know whatever is supposed to happen will happen.

I am working on getting all the receipts together from the items that were stolen out of my truck last Thanksgiving...besides my flute.

The only thing left to really have to do is get the patient assistance paperwork filled out & see if I can't get some financial help with my medication.....that $4050 is a lot of money to have to come up with every year (the amount the part D wont cover called the donut hole). At $1200 a month for the med, I get to that point within 2 months.

The only thing that I had really left to do was clean up the basement & my doggie crates. With all the cold weather, snow, & rain, I had left them in most of the winter & had tried to keep everything cleaned but when I got overloaded with paperwork, I was doing good to make sure the food & water was there for the last few weeks......so I had a mess to clean up. I got that done on Tuesday & thouht I could finally sit back & breathe & start working on the yard & the painting of the house......nothing else to worry about.....just pray for the refi so I can finish up the barn, fencing, replacing the pool that the cleaner ate a hole in last summer, & getting the arches fixed so I can finish the painting & staining.

Well.....no such luck. I hadn't thought much about the puddle of water on the floor in the basement after the huge freeze we had & the snow. I thought is might have sat on the deck & when it thawed, it all melted & ran into the basement. Not quite what happened. I had cleaned up that huge puddle of water & the other day, I found another puddle. It was after a huge rain & it seemed wrong since the wind doesn't even blow in that direction, but I mopped it up.....thinking that had to be the reason.

No such luck.....when I was cleaning up the doggie pens, the puddle was back all along the floor that opens to the back yard & all down the wall was water marks in the drywall. I tried to figure out what was above it, but that didn't make sense, the kitchen if over it, but not where the water flows (I know water runs all over the place so you can't really see where it originates from). I got it cleaned up & then yesterday when I was walking in the basement, I found another drip puddle. I looked up & there wasn't anything wet right above the drip. The pipes were over a ways, but it wouldn't drip that way....& it looked all wet around the pipe that was coming through the floor.......the downstairs toilet.......I don't use it much & I am the only one in the house. Then the huge oops. I was standing in the kitchen looking at one of the walls & pulled at the painted over wallpaper. I pulled & it came pealing off. Under that paper was a very damp wall. Then I pealed the paper up towards the ceiling & there was a huge black moldy area. I had just cleaned that area the end of Feb, beginning of March & it wasn't like that. What is upstairs it the shower I always use. It's a huge mess & I am not in any financial position to deal with this mess. Then I remembered that there was a home warrentee that came with the purchase of the house, which is up on May 15. I called them immediately yesterday & the plumber they gave me the name of didn't have anyone available......they called the home warrantee company & they were supposed to call me back today with another company.....they didn't bother, so I called them just at the end of the day & the other company is supposed to call me tomorrow & set up an appointment to check out what is going on.

I have visions of a huge mess. The upstairs shower?????down the wall into the kitchen & that wall completely ruined......then down into the floor & dripping into the basement. Unfortunately, my second bath isn't draining, so I will have to fix that so I can have a shower while the other one is being fixed. Visions of my whole house in that area being torn apart from top to bottom.

I just needed a break from things going wrong.....just for a little while.....but I guess if it was going to break...it was better for it to happen before the home warrentee was up than right after.....but I didn't need for anything more to happen. I am exhausted.....mentally & physically from the lack of sleep that came when I was working on all the paperwork.

When do I get the break I need......I don't see a break for the rest of my life honestly.....with no one to help out at all on a 10 acre farm & no money to hire help......I am going to be exhausted for the rest of my life....praying for a few hours of rest when I force myself to take it. The nap in the middle of the day, just to feel a bit of energy for awhile when I wake up.

I just want everything to quit being broken.....there are many broken things around here that are on my list to fix, but finding the energy to do them is another story.

The ongoing saga of my move to Kentucky,
Debbie

[TaintedGoth1]

Debbie,

What a mess!!!! I'm sorry your move to Kentucky hasn't proved to be free of so many hassles! Man, if I could I'd help you out....and you wouldn't even have to pay me a cent!!!! But I am so far away from where you are...

Please give yourself as much "me" time as possible! You certainly do deserve it!

[Doh2007]

You know? You are an extraordinary person. I'm amazed at all you've done. Maybe you need to take a day off and go visit your horsey friends. The problems will wait for you.

[StarPonysMama]

BOY DO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.

I have lets see.....let me count....dont want to list them as to hijack your thread.

I have about six things going on right now......big projects, all at one time. Medicare does not cover my mom's eye injections that are $750.00 every 10 weeks or so. LONG STORY but it's REALLY CRAZY!

I agree with Doh2007 - take a day wit your horse friends. The problems will be there when you get back - for sure. BUT - try not to dwell on it for a day. I know what it is like to feel overwhelmed. FOR SURE.

It's hard to block it out but, I try to at least every once in awhile.

I REALLY hope things get better for you!

[eskielover]

TaintedGoth, Doh, StarPonys,

I appreciate your hearts& your thoughts.....they are very kind. It's ok if you want to list your struggles here...honestly....that wouldn't be hijacking...it would be sharing & sometimes that helps both.

The call went in to the plumbing company & they had no one to help, so they called the home warrantee company....they never called me back....I didn't want to seem too pushy, but called back at the end of the day. They called another plumbing company who was supposed to call me this morning......well, it was 10:30 when I finally got my energy going & I called them immediately. They didn't have an opening today so will come out on Monday.....what's a few more days of water damage????

So I decided that I was going to just go to the Extension office. They were having a meeting for the community to discuss all the programs they have going on. They have 3 different people who have positions there & cover the different aspects of the community. It was really exciting. The 4-H has many things going on that I wouldn't mind volunterring time to work with the leaders......I don't want to take on the responsiblity of being a leader especialy in a new community that I don't know well, but they need help with horsey things & also with doggie training things (those are some of the things I have experience with).

They have a wonderful community person who works with the concerns of the elderly & other people in need. I talked to her about the situation I had with the home care person who abused my Mother when she was dying of cancer & offered that if there was any way I could be of help is providing help with those dealing with these kinds of issues, I would love to help since is hits deeply in my heart & emotions. She is planning on putting together a meeting & wants people who have had experiences to present them......so I will feel I am doing something for the community. It was an exciting time & then she showed me around their beautiful new building that was just finished.

California doesn't have extension offices that are that obvious if they exist at all. The only time I had heard of the extension offices was with my Dad's family in Nebraska who were aways involved with their extension groups. I had no idea how many community things are tied to the extension office. Our Mercer county wants to carry the refurbishing of the old tobacco barns & add them to the quilting trail historical movement in other parts of Kentucky.....I just love having a community to be involved in.....it just gives one a warm tummy feeling when everyone at the meetings are so open to including you in on things & there are so many fun things to work on.

I am having them come out to my farm & do a soil test so I can figure out what to plant in my pasture for grazing. Right now, we have many strange things growing in the fields....this purple stuff that no one has even seen before. It has something to do with the drought we had....other stuff died out & this stuff was left to come out from nowhere.

Everything has started growing & getting overgrown right now....I have to get my lawn tractor out & start cutting everything before it gets too overgrown.....I love yard work & am hoping that once I get everything organized here, I will be able to start a real garden. They have a community farmers market & it would be fun to grow a garden & be part of that...bring in some extra money......if I'm not spending it all on keeping the critters away & on watering.

I take the time when I can't do anything about my problems & get familiar with my new home....heaven knows, there is enough to do around the house, & the community has so much more going on than I ever dreamed.

To think, my husband couldn't imagine being interested in anything here.....nor sure what his logic was....but I had said to open your mind & not come with a closed mind so you can see every opportunity......there may even be ways to earn a little extra money over the disability when one comes with an open mind, saying they can do anything they want to or find interesting........I feel like a kid in a toy store for the first time in their life. With beauty of each season showing itself all around me & new opportunities showing up all around me with everything being new.

It doesn't mean that the frustrations aren't here & I really do need a break!!!!! or maybe I should say I NEED THINGS TO QUIT BREAKING!!!!! I would love for the everyday things to quit being such a struggle to get through.....but maybe God is trying to make me a stronger person......really, I think I am strong enough for just a little while anyway...just long enough to catch my breath & catch up on my money!!!!!! I have this conversation with God quite often lately.......but I'm sure the reasons are there....like I said....to make me that stronger person I have to be to take care of myself by myself. I will never believe that he's trying to tell me that I need help because my helper never could help me with these kind of things. If he didn't have money to hire things to be fixed, they never got fixed.....Me......if I can fix it myself....I will do it myself & I can do it myself.....just not this huge water problem.

At least I remembered I had the home warrentee to cover it as much as they will cover.

I am relaxing also....now that I have my laptop working again, I have been playing my DVD's & watching movies while laying on my air mattress on the floor in the spare bedroom. I just don't have the evergy yet to dive into the painting & woodwork & the insullation around the windows & the lawn mowing & the cutting back & cleaning up the dead wood & putting weed killer on the grass that's growing where I don't want it.....but that will all come in time too......A few more days of taking a break & I should have the energy to start doing the things I didn't have time to do with all the paperwork issues that were dumped on my. Now is the time to spend on my farm....all for me.

Debbie

[bflatgary]

Debbie,

Did you see "The Money Pit"? I hope your luck improves. You have had more bad luck in your few months in Kentucky than I have had in 23 years in my house.

Gary

[sarahlilianne]

(((((((((((Debbie))))))))))))))
You are an awesome lady! I admire your courage and faith. I hope that things will get better soon for you You truly inspire me.
Lily

[eskielover]

LOL.....right now, I feel like anything but an awsome person. I feel like I'm just hanging on for dear life & praying to God that he guides me to making the right decisions & try to fix the things I can figure out how to fix & find the funds to make it through each day

Gary,

Ah yes, "the money pit" I have watched that movie many times. I used to laugh when I watched it.....now I cry....lol...not really.....but I can really relate to it. I am just waiting for my stairs to fall down, or maybe fall through a hole in the floor & get stuck between floors. I know there aren't any holes in the floors however, but with the water damage......who knows what's going to colapse.

I was just down in the basement looking around at the leak & the water is definitely spreading.....it's dripping in places where it wasnt dripping before. The plummer won't be here until Monday......I can't really turn off the water to the house cause I need to use it for the toilet & dishes. I thought it couldn't do much more damage in a couple of days than has already been done, but I'm now wondering. I am going to have to figure out how to fix the drain in the other bathroom that has the bathtub/shower & use that one. The problem with it was that it wasn't draining at all. The whole bath/shower mechanism wasn't working & I knew I had to figure out how to fix that....but I had no idea there was anything wrong with the master shower. All it has is a wonderful walk in shower.

I think all those hot showers I was taking when I was having the anxiety attacks caught up with the plumbing......oh my. Just because I was taking 2 or 3 showers a day.....shouldn't have broken the shower....lol.

I was taking a lot of showers also because it was so cold & I had the furnace set a little high & the humidity was so high & maybe I was having hot flashes on top of it all, but I would end up sweating & then I would get chilled & the only thing that helped was the nice hot showers. Then I had muddy doggies & I showered them off in that shower......who knows what I did to the pipes. It got a little plugged up & I used some drano like it said...followed the directions exactly.

Well, I'll find out on Monday just how much damage there is throughout the house. It's strange because the leak is moving from the wall into the room.....I have a roaming leak.....but I think it's the wood & everything getting so saturated that it's just spreading out.

It seems that God is definitely testing me to see if I really am willing to do it alone......or maybe he's showing me that I can & that I am quite capable of taking care of myself. I know it seems that I'm continually being thrown things that I never had to deal with before & I am always provided a way to take care of everything, so I feel good about everthing even if they are challanges that seem beyond what I can handle.

Debbie