The New Year funk

Am I the only one that on the dawning of a new year gets depressed? I find myself looking back on this year with a huge bunch of regrets and not many happy things. I went in on Emergency to my T's office today and the lady I talked with didn't seem to understand my urgency. Maybe because I was looking at a magazine when she came out to get me and I didn't hear her call my name but oh well. She seemed to think that because I could articulate what was going on and that I had plans for the evening I wasn't in crisis. Ummm lets see when I get home tonight I will be in a bad place because I'll be all by myself alone with my thoughts. That's when I get into trouble. Last night I ended up in the ER due to some major problems I was starting to not be able to figure out what was real and what wasn't. I'm scared that will happen again tonight and I'll have no where to turn.

Janniebug

awwwwwww Janniebug. I'm sorry your having a hard time. Feel free to message me and we can chat. I'll be on off and on all week.

esthersvirtue

Something's been buggin' me, too, but I thought it was just the let-down after Christmas. I've got some regrets about the day and I'm hoping to make up for it.

For some reason I hadn't thought about the coming new year but now that I've read your post, yeah... if I let it, it can get me down. I'm with Susan. The older we get, the faster time seems to go. It seems that nothing got really accomplished in the past year. Maybe that's why people make resolutions. I don't make them probably because in some ways, I have a defeatist attitude. But by golly, THIS year I'm going to accomplish what I've been talking about for years! Not going to say cause I might jinx it. LOL

Try not to be afraid of your thoughts as long as you don't get desperate. It will be a good time check those thoughts out for validity. Take the time to convince yourself that there's better ways of dealing with problems and it sure doesn't hurt to ask for help. Also, don't be afraid to exchange those thoughts for more positive ones, even if it's only in a small way or it's hard to believe. Try journaling. Pound away at your keyboard and just let your mind take you where it will. Later, you can go back, read what you wrote and see where you feel you can make some changes. I've done this for years and it's really helped me!

You're not alone.

I hear ya! I'm kind of depressed that after working our butts off nothing really seems to change? Does anyone feel the same?

Uh... no... I've worked my butt off to get control over my derpression and anxiety and can honestly say I've made it. Of course, by the very nature of the illness, I have bouts with it from time to time. One thing I can say for sure: "I'm not what I should be but I'm sure a whole lot better than I USED to be!"

Maybe what you've been doing isn't working?