Update

Well, I have been reading and replying some but have been off in my own space. I had a sinus infection a few weeks back and it's still here. My daughter is having another surgery on her nose in a few hours. I got 2 complaints from volunteers at work, and a list of 8 mistakes I have made in state enforced paperwork at work. I feel vulnerable. It's the ptsd crap. If I can be perfect I won't be hurt. I am so far from perfect. My memory is non-existant and I need to change the way I do things to accomodate for this. I am so scattered. A lot has been happening here and I have been distracted on top of usual lack of memory. I feel like a failure at my job. Took today for daughter's surgery but the office wanted me there for a big staff meeting. Need a clone. Ear aches, face hurts. Happy stuff. Little Benny looks like a black grizzily bear and acts it too. He is fierce. We have had to scruff him for playing to rough with us. He is funny, falls off the bed when he's wrestling and grabs the toilet paper every chance he gets. On his bed he has hubbies slipper, a tie, 2 beanie babies and my sock. That's my update.

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I'm sorry things aren't getting better. I'll be thinking of you and your daughter today.

Take care of those babies...human or canine. Wishing you well.

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i hope your daughter does well with her surgery. i'm sure the things at work will blow over. i can't imagine you as anything other than an exceptional worker. therefore, a few mistakes should blow over very quickly for you, hon. i sure hope so.

little bennie sounds sooooooo cute! do you have pics? i'd love to see one.

i'm sorry about your sinus. God only knows that i know how that is. my oldest i having the same surgery that i had on monday. i worried for her. it's extremely painful. however, over the years, i think they've changed the ways it's done, so i'm hoping pain won't be as bad.

i have a pretty bad sinus infection too. think i'm heading for the dr this weekend. i had a sinus infection before the flu, now it's worse and just won't get better. need to get some antibiotics in me. are you taking meds for yours? i hope so. warm cloths help the facial pain

love,

kd

Sounds like you need a big hug, so...

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Hi everyone, daughter did fine, crabby but better then last time. I was on levaquin for 5 days but I am still stuffed up tight. Benny is a brat and someday I will use my new digital camera for a pic. He attacks the bottle lamb who lives in a play pen in the living room. Oh don't ask. Long day. I was so entirely freaked by the work stuff. My mind is slugglish and cloudy. Need to learn new skills. Was going to sleep late today but as hubby and daughter 1 were leaving she came back in and said there was a big puddle of gas under her car and could I give her a ride to the bus stop. She started my car and I jumped in a work jumpsuit for farm chores and off we went. Called the wrecker and it turned out to be a gas line the same mechanic put in last week so no cost. Yeah. She got a ride in to pick it up cause we was at the hospital till very late and then I thought I had lost the script for pain meds and when I was running around like a nut I found it rolled in my sweater where it had come out of my pants pocket. i swear I am losing my mind. I ate some veggie chilli and had a beer as well as ambesol for a sore tooth and now I am a bit more mellow. Last time daughter had the surgery she was forever waking up and had a swollen uvula for days. She could hardly swallow. They intubated her today and she woke up quicker with only a mild sore throat. Tube last time was only to back of throat and she reacted. They also gave her some cortisone to counteract the swelling. All and all she did well and is watching a dvd in her studio on my laptop. I am very pooped! I feel like life has me running in circles chasing my tale and I can't keep up. Son home for a few days next week as he needs to see urologist for some kind of bad infection that is not healing. So One of us is supposed to bring him to this doc 1.5 hours away as he may be sedated. More time off from a job I can't keep up with! He has been on antibiotics FINALLY since Tues after I left an angry message at the University Health Center telling them that he had been in 3 times with same complaint and even my insurance company was telling him to go to E.R. but kid refused. Finally they gave him drugs for an infection!!!!!! Geeez. And he woke me up late at night to complain to me about being sick and I was having trouble sleeping. Does this sound like a long major vent? Yup. Oh well, sorry folks. There is never a quiet moment here. What is in the air?

(((((((ww))))))))))) i'm sorry. Seems like things just don't stop happening. Can friends or relatives help sometimes?

Hey SS, actually, a friend will be taking this daughter shopping for me in a week or so and hopefully another friend will take my son to his appointment as my day is booked solid and hubby has to take Tuesday off for an MRI, oh yeah, did I forget to tell you he has a pinched nerve somewhere and has numbness pain and tingling in his right arm and hand? He's on pain meds too. Tues I have to get daughter back to surgeon for a recheck and that will be interesting as well. Most of my friends, as I have told you in past, have full plates. Cancer girl has frequent medical visits and is in remission now. Has liver issues but they are stable for now. Other friend has a big business and runs 24x7 and has some naughty young adult children. I do have another friend who would go to either appoint with kids I think so maybe I will give her a call. I feel guilty as she also has her plate full with two live in parents with dementia. But you are absolutely right, I need to spread it around and ask for help. good help. I can't sleep, daughter has crashed for now. Obsessing about cat proofing my daughter's studio and my son's bed room. Stupid I know. Just my mind is racing. I am just frazzled and in need of a new memory chip so I may function more efficiently and keep everything on track. I actually plan on asking my T about my declining ability to keep all trains from derailing as I have been doing it successfully for years. Now I am a major brain fart. Also my body is reacting to something. I had a red blotchy face in the hospital this a.m. for a while. I don't know if I was anxious and didn't know it or was reacting to latex or maybe I suddenly have high blood pressure. guess I will ask to get it checked if that happens again. Weird. i am a rambler my dear. Reminds me of the song. okay, enough, hope you are well. Thanks for your kind thoughts and good wishes.

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ahhh, thanks. got a back rub with that? Can't sleep.

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I sure hope you got some sleep and that back rub.

take care.

a cup of chamomile, a gentle back rub and penning up the puppy so your hair remains unchewed? Does that sound okay?

I wish for some relief in all this chaos you live through. I am in awe that you are even upright! I would have crumbled a loooooooong time ago.

((WW)) You're a strong soul who can keep reaching out here and knowing that you're supported and cared for. I only wish we could collectively come make things better for your family. But I've got lotsa wishes for those kinds of things. I have hope.............might not know how things will happen but I have hope about the outcomes.

Thanks zh, were muddling through. Daughter getting better slowly and puppy, well, he is trying to not eat people but it's hard. I do have a much too complicated life. Gotta change that.