[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

Binged last night. Had frozen yogurt with toppings, sweet potato chips, two high calorie granola bars and a bunch of fruit snacks.

[88Butterfly88]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Thank you!

so i've just discovered on amazon you can buy lint chocolate (MMM lint chocolate), and also they have a huge jar of jellybeans for like £6

i feel a binge coming

[Anrea]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

so i've just discovered on amazon you can buy lint chocolate (MMM lint chocolate), and also they have a huge jar of jellybeans for like £6

i feel a binge coming

Hugs. I feel you. You know Shattered Sanity, I was envious of your wallet when I first began reading your posts. I didn't understand the disorder as much. I thought choice of binge foods was optional, and it was all about quantity. I used to fantasize about being able to buy anything I want, and I also thought that since you could buy anything you want, it would be easier for you to overcome. (At that time I really hoped to afford a watermelon, and was envious that you could just go buy one). But now I think the opposite, because you can choose whatever you want.

I was so wrong. I am very sorry. I see now that my limits keep me limited.

<3 <3<3

My issue is quantity of almost anything that includes some starches or carbs. (even a big bowl of potato flakes with bullion - just to have a certain full feeling). You have the same issue manifested differently. We get a certain emotional feeling that comes from our required combination. It helped me to learn that it isn't just quantity - it is combination, perhaps for some people it is more then just the combination, but has to be cooked a certain way, or presented a way, or be a certain brand.... But the core issue of learning it is more then quantity helped me to understand BED more broadly.

I don't know what we can do, but I do believe that this sharing is helping. I really feel not alone about it. I do believe that you, I, and each of us here knows the right choices, and having someone tell me what I ought to try makes me annoyed, resentful, and feeling that they don't understand. So I try not to give advice. I mean, really, who here doesn't know what we are 'supposed' to be doing. So, some information doesn't help a lot. But knowing I am not alone in this struggle does seem to help.

A true and honest smile at a group of faceless strangers who shares their most intimate vulnerability with me and shows me that I can share my struggles with them.



Lately, I have been doing okay (2 days of okay). My food issues, and my digestion troubles are entwined - I had gotten over the depression with food, and made myself incredibly ill, terrible stomach pains, and vomiting from the bloat of an overly full stomach (side effect of Miralax with a binge maybe) Yesterday, my stomach was still so tender, I had to be very careful about quantities and types of food to ensure I didn't get ill again. I also skipped the Miralax, and am cutting that back to once every 2-3 days depending....

I have a small raspberry patch, and have gathered about a bowl a day of them. Freezing some. But yesterday, I ate a bowl of them one at a time. I felt like I was doing a good thing, but also I was 'feeding' my issue, because I tend to graze all my waking hours. I hardly go less than an hour without eating. Another manifestation of my BED. Anyway, even though I am still eating constantly, at least it is something healthier. Of course, I still needed my starch/carb fix and had that yesterday also - but my choice of eating the raspberries is a tiny thing I am really proud of.

It may seem silly to other people, but I think to us - when we do make a good choice, even if it is a tiny good choice - we have an obligation to ourselves to really celebrate it. Because if we make our tiny good choices feel great - we reaffirm how good we feel about the good choice, then we can combat the good feeling from the bad choices.

I like the website : Worlds Healthiest Foods. When I make good choices, and read that, I feel like I am patting myself on the back and that feels good. So, double the good feelings!

As I have mentioned before, I have been changing what I eat over the past year slowly. On my limited budget, my only choices were foods that cost a certain amount per ounce. Example - Most things under .06 cents an ounce ( like rice, beans and canned veggies) was all I could afford, with a few .12 cents an ounce items thrown in, and maybe 1-3 treat items.

Now that I am budgeting a little better, I no longer shop that strictly. But I do try to stick to having veggies, and 'real' foods on hand. I still binge of course. But like, if I make a cold vegetable and macaroni salad, it used to be more mac then veg, now I try to make it reverse - more veg then mac. I think since what I am binging on has changed to including more good for me foods, it is the reason my cholesterol has improved and some weight has come off.

I am still in the problem. With its ups and downs. But I am more optimistic that by changing my ingredients, I will slowly continue to improve. I have no expectations, and no rules for myself - only this general guide of buying healthy foods and learning to cook them in a way I feel really good about. The taste AND the feeling that I am doing something good for my body. I bought an entire BAG of garlic cloves. LOL! A BAG of cloves. I never even buy one, but what the heck! So now, I am adding garlic to many recipes and finding out it is really good (cooked right - the broccoli, kale, and garlic soup was just gross).

Please everyone, love yourselves, and keep sharing with each other here, as I will. Together we can walk through this life comforted with the knowledge that we are understood, even cared for, WITH this issues - not in spite of it.

Hugs all around!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[88Butterfly88]

I just binged. Too many fruit snacks and ice pops. I have insulin resistance so this can't be good.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

I just binged. Too many fruit snacks and ice pops. I have insulin resistance so this can't be good.

How do you feel now, any better?

[88Butterfly88]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

How do you feel now, any better?

A little better, thank you for asking.

[Anrea]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

A little better, thank you for asking.

Oh, so glad you are feeling better!

[ddd764]

Ugh, not doing so well at this. I will start up again today, documenting my night binging. Today it was a chocolate bar and rice krispy square.

i'm not doing too badly

apart from my sausages today, sneaked a bag of potato chips

made myself sick yesterday.

thankfully i didn't have to go to the hospital (being sick terrifies me)

[Anrea]

Did fairly well yesterday slight overeating. Hut had a slice of pizza around midnight that I wasn't hungry for, didn't need, and hasn't set well. Feeling sick today. Very little sleep.

i should feel glad that i didn't get my cola delivery (they'd probhably be all gone by now if i did), still need to speak to amazon about it

well yesterday i ended up eating 12 crunchy bars in a row (you know you get those packs of 4?), well 12 in a row

some breaded fish and chips

2 bags of potato chips

about 4 dr peppers

and some gummy candy

ah yes- and my sausages too

[Anrea]

Did poorly yesterday in response to roller coaster emotions.

hey anria,

can't find the thread you mentioned i should have a look at

(searched all over the overeating subforum and don't see it!)

[Anrea]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

hey anria,

can't find the thread you mentioned i should have a look at

(searched all over the overeating subforum and don't see it!)

Your a sweety, and your consistency in updating how your doing, and your constant support of others is an encouragement for me. Thank you!

[88Butterfly88]

Did very well with this yesterday! I did hurt myself instead though Off to a good start today as well.

after my roast dinner, i spent 2 solid hours just eating bag after bag of potato chips.

really shocking, and i still felt hungry afterwards

[Nimportequoi]

Brain activity and response to food cues differ in severely obese women, study shows

Just wanted to contribute that link...

[Anrea]

Overeating a bit recently. But, going through something right now, so luckily it isn't worse.

(Read the link. Wish they had said men and woman, but the study could apply to either. I have wondered if there is something in the brain that does that. THANK YOU for sharing the link!)

[88Butterfly88]

Well my stomach is funny so little desire to eat.

[Angelique67]

My sandwich, that was delivered yesterday is almost rock hard today. I'm mad because why would they use that when so often the bread they use doesn't get hard for over a week? 😵

[Angelique67]

I bought a whole lot of rice milk and almond milk. I feel a binge on those coming on. i wanted hemp milk too but they didn't have it. I love the malty taste of all those. I don't know if I've ever had almond milk before, i hope it's good! Gotta have a few binges on them or they'll just go to waste.

ETA I don't mean to sound cavalier about my various milks here, it's just that I didn't realize how much I had ordered. I thought the rice milk was going to be those small ones, but then I saw them and they're like gallons or something.

[88Butterfly88]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

I bought a whole lot of rice milk and almond milk. I feel a binge on those coming on. i wanted hemp milk too but they didn't have it. I love the malty taste of all those. I don't know if I've ever had almond milk before, i hope it's good! Gotta have a few binges on them or they'll just go to waste.

ETA I don't mean to sound cavalier about my various milks here, it's just that I didn't realize how much I had ordered. I thought the rice milk was going to be those small ones, but then I saw them and they're like gallons or something.

That's not the worst thing to binge on. Good going, keep making healthy choices.