[88Butterfly88]

I had fries today myself but not that many.

[88Butterfly88]

Well last night I had more food at once than ever. I woke up at 3:30 AM with what I call a food hangover, its like my stomach was having trouble holding it all. Worst part is I feel I will have trouble stopping myself from eating that much in the future.

[What_the_hell]

this is helping me.

[Anrea]

I have gained 8 pounds in under 2 weeks. The opposite of what I wanted for my yearly Doctor visit next week - and possibly because of it. Going to try yet again something else - 5 Intermittent Fasting Methods: Which One Is Best for You?. Thank you What the Hell, for that video. I wish we could all live together in a big house, and have a food police dole out what we could and couldn't eat. Of course, then we would (well at least I would) be sneaking out, and hiding food in my room. Eating, Eating, Eating - it is like a machine driven constancy. :/

[88Butterfly88]

Yeah I'm due to go to the doctor soon too and she's not going to be happy with my weight gain either.

[Anrea]

This intermittent fasting (eat within an 8 hour period and fast the other 16 per day) is on my 3rd day.

I can't commit to anything really - too many issues. But so far: Day 1, easier because it was new and I watched intermittent fasting vids and info all day for inspiration.

Day 2, ate things I shouldn't during the 8 hours, but did stay within the 8 hour section. Learned a new thing - when we say no 100 times, and yes once - we DID have great willpower for that 100 times.

Today is Day 3. So far, I haven't eaten, and am actually hungry. My stomach growled once yesterday, but today I actually FEEl hunger in my stomach, rather then in my head. I had gotten to the point of never feeling hungry - ever.

Today is a bit tough because my Borderline Personality Disorder symptoms are high. :/ Otherwise, I actually like myself this particular second for feeling hungry!

[Anrea]

6/28/17

Still on track with the intermittent fasting.

Today was the worse binge I have been on since I started this 5 days ago. I have had almost no problem no eating for 16-18 hours in a row, because mornings usually have the most will power, so I eat between 1-9 or 2-8. Today I am actually glad it has hit 8pm, because the eating got worse and worse - but now, at my 'cut off' time, I can stop. And basically, take a break from dealing with my over eating until tomorrow at 2 when I will allow myself again to start eating.

I think if anyone wants to try this, but are scared about the hours - maybe a guideline of not eating for 10 hours a day (sleep plus a couple hours) might be a good start.

Because I have actually not made this about what food, or quantity, but only about hours of when I can eat - it is working.



Best of luck to us all!!!!!

[88Butterfly88]

Great job Anrea! I overate yesterday but not as much as usual. Also wanted to get French fries and lemonade at Wendy's but only got lemonade so I'm proud of myself.

for most nights this week, I have been sick, due to the fact I've just eaten so much stuff.

today is saturday, and i'd say every day this week involved bacon for breakfast, candy and snacks mid morning/ mid afternoon, a meal involving fries, and then more candy

eating all day if you like. it's a lot

[Fuzzybear]

Too many nuts and berries too many prunes. Yuck

[88Butterfly88]

Hugs shattered and fuzzy.

I had a whole bag of rice bites today.

I have only eaten my breakfast today so far

but for dinner I am having fries.

not sure I should be entirely pleased with that (because I had fries every day last week), but I am, and it's what I like, so.

[88Butterfly88]

I was snacking all evening last night. My mom says I should watch the show called My 600 LB Life and maybe that will change me. But I just can't stop eating, I just can't. No one understands.

I feel too depressed to eat this evening.

I always forget depression can make you feel that way.

but yep. it can

[88Butterfly88]

I ate a whole bag of candy yesterday. I tried to put the candy in the other room to stop myself but I kept going back for more.

[Standup2me]

why am I so out of control???
Why do I eat my emotions?
why can't I just stop eating once I feel full?
why does food control me?

Originally Posted by Standup2me

why am I so out of control???
Why do I eat my emotions?
why can't I just stop eating once I feel full?
why does food control me?

questions a lot of us here ask ourselves

what I don't get especially, is that I actually hate food and if their was something I could do to survive that does not include food, I would do it in sted.

still eat food anyway

massive contridiction

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

questions a lot of us here ask ourselves

what I don't get especially, is that I actually hate food and if their was something I could do to survive that does not include food, I would do it in sted.

still eat food anyway

massive contridiction

Is food love to us?
Do we equate food with love? (oh did you scrape your knee? here's a candy)
We can't live without it, so in some ways it controls us

yesterday I pigged out on french fries

oink oink

I'm such a pig

[KingMe]

Is it appropriate for me to post my own eating check in goals on this thread and post regularly or should I start my own thread don't wanna take yours over.

[seesaw]

I've been binge free since about April 10. I've lost 19lbs. But tonight I kind of just lost it. I HAD to have some refined sugar. It's funny because those cravings had gone away entirely, but I had to have something with refined sugar in it. So since it's after midnight, I drive over to the gas station and get two zebra cakes, this birthday cake thing that is a rice crispy treat, and a barq's root beer. I also got two bananas and an apple and some raw nuts for tomorrow since I'm holding off on going to the grocery store until after my trip, and I leave on Wednesday.

Anyways, I already had a high calorie day, but I'm actually proud of myself in how I handled the binge. Instead of drinking the whole bottle of root beer, I had one cup. I sliced off one serving size of the birthday rice crispy cake, and I haven't touched the zebra cakes yet, but they may both disappear.

This feels different than past binges where it was every day and in secret...this is, I have a craving, I'm going through some crap right now, so I'm allowing myself a high calorie day. Tomorrow I'm cutting back a bit to make up for it and getting some extra exercise in to even out.

Part of me worries this is some kind of relapse, but I know that it's not or that it doesn't have to be. 16 more pounds and I'll have met my first goal...I'm seeing that one pound that will get me to 20lbs down off this week. I'm hoping to get lots of hiking and yoga done while in the mountains this coming week. It will be nice to just take a break.

I have to figure out sleeping arrangements though because if I have to sleep on their pull out sofa thing, I'm going to go crazy.

Seesaw

[Elio]

contains numbers

Possible trigger:

I have been struggling for about the past 3 months after being really controlled/restrictive for about 15 months and losing 1/2 my body weight. I've been able to keep myself to the same 10 lbs spread. I just can't seem to stop myself from reaching for food. I feel like I did a good job last night stopping at 700 calories. It was a struggle.
This morning I had 900 for breakfast.

despite having a vomiting bug the last couple of weeks, I have not been put off binging on everything from potato chips to chocolate.

Possible trigger:

of course, it all ended up coming back up, making me feel terrible for even trying to eat it in the first place (knowing I am ill, and I probably shouldn't)

not really sure if that makes it good or bad

eating with a vomit bug... never really thought about it

I really really need to cut down on the treats (I know, I always say it..)

but this week alone

3 KG of dolly mixtures

1 KG of fizzy watermellons

60 pack of monster munch

it's ****ing shameful, I know.

but I can't help it.

things haven't improved much
ordered more of the chips and the candy, and despite trying to eat more proper meals, it's just not working.

i'll cook myself for example a nice chicken pie, then go spoil it with 20 30 packets of chips.

I need self control.

I don't have self control