It took me almost two weeks to post this.

I have a host of other issues, and for the life of me this one is the hardest to grasp and the hardest to admit (since it really describes me perfectly except for the explosive anger - i turn it inwards)but, here i am and such.

Its certainly not very fun is it? Having trouble finding the good things about being borderline. I always try to find the positives to issues I might have and well I havent found any to this one yet. Anyone else know any?

Hey. I'm... Sorry to hear about your dx.
:-(
I think this dx is indeed one of the hardest ones to grasp... Some theorists bemoan the fact that BPD has become something of a dumping ground dx and it is indeed hard to make sense of what the dx is supposed to be about. I think that repressed anger / anger turned inwards is an issue that a lot of people struggle with. I know I most certainly do.

> Having trouble finding the good things about being borderline.

Well... Sometimes the dx helps one get access to forms of treatment that one can't access without the dx. DBT for example. If you ever get the chance to do that then I'd highly reccomend it. I think it could really help people with most dx but it is only empirically validated (as a package) for BPD dx.

People with a dx of BPD are the (in the words of Linehan) 'colourful' people of this world. We aren't boring and, well, you wouldn't want to be - would you? Emotional intensity can be channeled into passion and can help one succeed at what one wants to do. It can be useful with respect to persuading others to affect change in the name of a good cause (animal welfare or global warming, for example). People with BPD also tend to be emotionally sensitive and can pick up on the moods and emotions of others. When well channeled this can lead to an almost uncanny ability to 'mindread' the emotional state of others.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope you are doing well at this time. I am sorry to hear that you are BPD, but I am glad that you are diagnosed and can look more toward what you need to do with having this disorder. The main thing is life is to adjust to what needs to be done to be successful in life, and learn to be observant as possible at achieving this success. I think you are taking a very positive step that you are willing to be successful in yout treatment and recovery, and that takes a lot of courage to want to learn to be positive in recovery. I hope the best for you in the future. Take care "sincerely Soidhonia

Thank you both of you.
Your advice is so well timed.

Something I wanted to make special note of is the following"

People with a dx of BPD are the (in the words of Linehan) 'colourful' people of this world. We aren't boring and, well, you wouldn't want to be - would you? Emotional intensity can be channeled into passion and can help one succeed at what one wants to do. It can be useful with respect to persuading others to affect change in the name of a good cause (animal welfare or global warming, for example). People with BPD also tend to be emotionally sensitive and can pick up on the moods and emotions of others. When well channeled this can lead to an almost uncanny ability to 'mindread' the emotional state of others.

This is exactly how i feel! I wondered for years why I felt more than others and was able to feel what others were feeling... Im very sensitive to that. I guess there are some positives.