flipping moods

I have wanted to post for ages now. About nothing in particular. One day i want to be really cheery and smile at everyone and be encouraging. The next i want to be humorous, or post my favorite song or something. The next i want to write a post about the depression. The next i want to write that i want to give up, that i just don't care.

I'm flipping from one emotion to the next. It is exhausting! I thought these meds should be quieting my mood swings... I'm writing this in here, because it is not about depression and there was no other place that seemed appropriate. I just wish my mood would stay still for just a few minutes.

I wish i knew what to say to quieten my mind. I'm like a wound up coil on the verge of being released.

Oh my gosh! I could have written your post myself. I'm so glad you posted as I struggle to start a post and it's such a relief to know I'm not alone-- thank you.

Yes- me too, one moment I feel like being silly, then creative, then so so very sad, then sometimes even calm. it's confusing to have so many different emotions in such a short time.
I wonder(in my case) if it's because I'm entering in a part of my life that I think of as "awareness". All my life before now, I didn't allow myself to "feel" at all. Was just numb. Oh, I've had almost all the memories- just not the feelings. I've recently unwrapped "packages" of the past allowing me to see just what was under the paper....... it's upsetting, confusing and full of emotions-- emotions that I'm not very acquinted with.

Could it be that you are at a similar point in your life? Maybe seeing things in ways you've not before?

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I'm like a wound up coil on the verge of being released.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> oh yes, this too. so sorry you are feeling similar.

I just started with a new T.(therapist) and something she said the other day surprised me........ "I will do all I can to keep you from that road leading to hospitalization".....!! I thought no one could see how close my coil is to becoming "sprung". ........ not hiding it so well these days, I s'pose.

I hope that you have someone to talk to and that you can unwind that coil slowly and with care, so you can deal with the emotions as they come. All the best to you.

Abby-

mandy

so sorry you are bothing feeling so close to losing it. I too have felt this way. the only thing I have found that helps me is distractions, getting my mind wrapped around something else, this can be very hard. try posting all those posts as they come into your head, maybe it can help .

linda