Progress.

<font color="green">In light of recent events I have been privy to, I can say I have progressed! Some of my triggers concern authority figures, and those who project to be more intelligent etc while acting inappropriately. (When my industrial accident occurred, the ppl in charge of seeing I received help, did nothing! Since, there have been those who SHOULD be my advocates, yet they have failed and at times sided with the opposition.)

My usual response was FLIGHT. Many times though I was into flashback and became angry and acted out: FIGHT. Recently, however, I was able to discern what was going on, and though my impulses were to BOTH fight or flight, I did neither. I might not have done as well as someone without PTSD would have, but for me, this was HUGE! (I know, I know, don't break my arm patting myself on the back. )

I might add that with many disorders (ptsd and depression included) there is a hesitancy to admit improvement (if we can even recognize it.) It's like if we aren't doing bad all the time, or admit something went ok, then others will think we're fine now... well that rolls into a myriad of emotions and thoughts... I won't get into here. I have a long way to go. I fear this is just a fluke of circumstances. But it happened.

Sky!



Petunia

Sky,

I'm not good with the cutsie faces or dancing hot dogs, but want to send you congratulations on stepping farther on the path of progress.

Debbie

Sky, this is good to hear! I know how great it feels when you sense you are making progress. I too hesistate to admit I'm getting better because I know my long journey isn't over. But after I admit it, I know that my journey is going to be a little shorter and a little easier.

I'm so happy for you...this is truly heart warming. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and continue hope that your journey continues to shorten.

((((((((Sky)))))))))

xoxo

Congratulations Sky!

((((Sky)))) Progress is progress, don't discount it, no matter how small it may seem. To NOT react, when you usually would react "inappropriately", is huge! Keep it up. Love ya and HUGS!

Thank you all.

It happened again! I have been having a fit trying to get new wrist splints. It's taken 4 months already. ...long story. Anyway I received another call but no message from the medical supply... I assumed they were in. So I went there, and the ones he had were too short. He began to argue with me, trying to prove to me by measuring wrongly that they were long enough. I explained I'd been wearing splints for 18years and they've never measured like that.. and I needed the longer ones. He went into a tirade, obviously having had a lot of trouble with a few suppliers. I began to lose it but turned away and took a breath and tried again... calmly!

Even though he had thrown things around... telling me he quit and can't help me, I began to ask him if he would be out any money because of all the shipping charges etc... anyway, to make another long story shorter, he began to calm down with my calmness and though I didn't get new wrist splints and my hands hurt greatly, at least I didn't react negatively. I don't like situations like that... but guess this is better than responding likewise.

Sky, for what it's worth I am feeling more peace from you as I read posts. I am incredibly impressed that you are reframing and not going into the fight or flight. As for dealing with morons, you are truly a good woman.

<font color="blue">TY ww... would that be for dealing with them or not? ROFL

Sky, I don't want to make you blush, but I am feeling a real change in you. You seem so connected with us here and open about where you are at. Your posts are loving and always intelligent. I just have seen so much growth, like you might be feeling some better. Hope I didn't jinx it by saying it. But you should hear the good also don't you think? You are pretty cool.

I should have known better than to try and report something positive, and not know that I would be beaten back down. see? I'm not using color and not using icon either.. forgot to delete my avatar too sorry... can you tell, I'm tired of ppl pushing my buttons and proving there is NO REAL PROGRESS there never will be.

Sky, you should never discount the positive. That's the only thing that keeps us going sometimes.

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Sky, I need cyber-conflict like a hole in the head! What the heck are you speaking of? I was sincere and loving. Please tell me what the heck is going on.

sorry, it's not you ww. it's the RULES posted for me.