[bobe]

After a botched plastic surgery I am permanently disabled , 24-7 pain and almost bedridden . I have lost my career and almost everything I once had . My home is now in foreclosure and I have been in a state of shock unable to even go outside for over a year . I am so afraid of medication as I do not believe in it , I am so afraid I will be put away soon as I live with suicidal thoughts and do not even want to get out of bed most days . I had a wonderful life before this and now I am in a living hell with this injury .

I have been taking a little pain medication and a little xanax so I do not completely go crazy but soon with the foreclosure I will be on the streets and I am in a living hell . The times I have gone for therapy they wanted me on all kinds of drugs and wanted me to go the the Pavilion at McLean Hospital for individuals requiring expert psychiatric and neuralgic help , I decided against it becuase it was just another program that used drugs . I am afraid to even take a bath most days and am alone and need to do something but I am just completely gone .

[pegasus]

bobe,

You obviously have been hurt very badly by an incompetent plastic surgeon.

I hope that you can soon take the big step of getting help from professionals who can help you.

Can you talk to your doctor and trust him to help you.

PTSD is disabling and sometimes we have to ask, and accept help.

Welcome to Psych Central.

[bobe]

As bad as I am they want me on massive amounts of drugs .... depacode , paxil , zyprexa , xanax , and many more and in a locked down facility . Those drugs will make me worse and then there will be no return .

[bobe]

I guess I scared off everyone with this post and how serious this is . That is the problem when I work with therapist for most of them a PTSD this severe is out of their league as most of their cases are quite different and are not this extreme that is why the Pavilion was recommended as it is one of if not the top places in the country . The only problem is it is just another place that passes out dangerous medication and cost 22K a week .

[pegasus]

bobe,

I urge you to go and see your doctor (or ring him), so that someone can help you.

It may not be necessary to stick you on loads of meds.

I know it is hard to trust people, but you don't want to carry on hiding away do you?

I hope that you will seek some help.

Hi bobe,

Sorry to hear how rough things are. Maybe you can find some help at these PTSD and Trauma Websites.

The first one is loaded with info and the support group is active and current.

Hope this helps.

Petunia

PTSD and Trauma Websites

Online PTSD Support Group

PTSD alliance

[bobe]

thanks ...

[(JD)]

Hi and welcome to psychcentral. I am just now reading posts for today, please don't feel you've run anyone off... members need time to read, think about, and respond to a post. Sometimes I will read and come back a day or so later to respond. It doesn't mean you've run anyone off.

I'm sorry to hear of your suffering. grrrrrr.

I have PTSD from an injury, as you may have read from my previous posting.

IMO if you are losing your own home, you need to consider what is being offered. As long as you sign yourself in, you can leave on your own also. Nothing is forever.

I realize that because of the trauma, PTSD, you (as I) have a tendency to catastrophize. There's a lot of excitement in your thinking. You are taking some meds, be sure to take enough of them to do the job you need help with. Also, unless you have tried all of the other meds, you don't know that they won't help or make you worse. Let the doctors (at least one of them) help you make decisions.

With regards to your home, of course I don't know the full circumstances, but selling is always better than losing it. Talk to the owners of the mortgage and see how much more time you can get. They don't want to foreclose if there's hope they can get their money (like, through your selling.) Even if you sell, you can then short term rent if you don't wish to do inpatient right away. There are storage rooms for your stuff while you decide.

Doesn't sound easy, this road you have to take... wishing you had someone to help you with it all. Use your doctor, if they offer suggestions. TC

[wisewoman]

Hi, I am saddened by what has happened to you. I want to ask you to entertain a thought for me. Maybe sometimes drugs are the only way through stuff. You have been to war. Doesn't mean the drugs are forever. Secondly, Mclean is a very very good hospital and they will do all they can to adjust your meds so that they have the least side affects possible. Thirdly, what do you have to lose? Sounds like where you are now is unbearable so maybe turning it over to a well known competent hospital would be the best thing for you right now. I am sorry for all that's happened and all that you are going through. Hang in there. After being butchered by the medical person, Doctor, I would guess that it is very hard to trust. Trust Mclean, you yourself said they are well known. I wish you compassion on your journey. Good luck.

[bobe]

thanks ... there is no more money for Mclean now ...... I have very real thoughts of ending it and I know that is not a good thing .

[SongBirdandDaisy]

bobe,

we are here. Please call someone so they can help you. We have all been where you are and some of us are there now - but don't be afraid to reach out - you are doing that now! Reach out some more and call your doc. safe hugs

[wisewoman]

Call mclean and tell them that, call a crisis line. Please get the help you deserve.

[darkeyes]

Is it okay, that I ask why you had plastic surgery, what happened? Were you injured in some sort of accident?
Was the surgery for reconstructive purposes?
If this was cosmetic surgery, were you going to have some sort of feature change? I'm only asking so that if there is some way I can find info for you, have you spoke with a lawyer in regards to malpractice case?
I am sorry to hear and see you are suffering, though you say you do not want any medications, there may be some that can be of some help, try to be open to any possiblities that may be of some help to ease the pain somewhat.
I wish you well, and hope you'll decide to hang on.

Please take care now,
DE

[bobe]

Thanks for all of the support , I am so afraid of drugs , and now with now income and almost homeless I have now way to even see a Dr.

[darkeyes]

But bobe,
Did you just see my questions? It would help if you'd give us a teeny hint of what happened, which may help someone here find some help, or direct you to someone/someplace, rather it be legal/financial and/or medical advice. I'm not one for sueing for everything, but if what you are showing us in this pic is ONLY due to bum plastic surgery, you have a case, and a contingent lawyer would take the case in a heartbeat, charging you no cash, just getting a percentage from your lawsuit claim/pay back. (don't know the right term, but equals cash to you) so can you see offering info here as to what this is all about can help.
I can understand you feeling uncomfortable to explain stuff, but after all you have showed us a picture without much info. such as why you had the surgery.
I wish you well with this all,
DE


(((((((((((( bobe ))))))))))))))))

[darkeyes]

???????????? well? ???????????????
With some info., I am sure so many of us can give you some direction, even if it is teeny.
Would you be interested?

[bobe]

past statues of limitations ..... home will be sold in less than 10 days and homeless ..... Dr butchered me so bad I am now pretty much bedridden for life .... In a complete state of shock and just trying to stay out of psych wards as I do not want to be here anymore as this is a living hell .. Dr.'s just want to drug me up for life becuase there is no way to fix the damage . Thanks for the support here !

[(JD)]

I'm sorry you found us here at PC so late in your experience... surely someone might have had ideas for options.

I still think that there are kind and caring surgeons out there that will do pro-bono work. There's so many breakthroughs in this area, if there isn't anything to help now, there soon could be.

IDK, I don't like having to take meds for pain, but life isn't worth living without the meds (and sometimes.. when the pain flares...then too.)

[bobe]

Pain medication is fine it is the psychiatric medication that I think is the poison and when you are as far gone as I am the psychiatrist want to load you up on all kinds of these meds .