PTSD because of termination and abandonment by therapist?

I´m not diagnosed with PTSD and never have been but as I still have very clear and difficult memories from my last therapy, about the abandonment combined with a huge feeling of loss I can´t get rid of I´m thinking about perhaps it developed into PTSD. I did a self evaluation test and scored 40 which is around cut-off value for PTSD depending on which test you used. I took the PCL-5.

I always feel very stressed and find myself easily crying over my former therapist. If I see pictures of the town where she has her practise, perhaps footage on the news or something, sometimes I begin to cry. I also avoid going into town even if I sometimes do but I then don´t go near the area where she has her practise. If I see someone who look like my former T I get sad and if I´m alone and see someone on TV for example I sometimes cry.

There are a lot of those examples and as the termination was over one and a half year ago I begin to suscpect PTSD. But at the same time I know PTSD isn´t applicable to my event as it´s more about having been in a war, witnessing death and such.

What do you think?

While no one here can diagnose you it is possible this event devastated you so much that you developed a lot of anxiety, and even mild PTSD. You reached out to this therapist for help to begin with, then something happened that made you feel very abandoned and hurt. There is also another condition called "complicated grief disorder" too that you can read up on and while this individual did not die, this was still a traumatic loss for you.

Yes, I believe that´s how it´s become for me. I feel stressed and anxious, I wake up that way quite often and even if it´s also because of my other problems in life I think it became much worse after termination.

I read a bit about complicated grief disorder and I got the thought "why hasn´t my T talked about this?" I mean, why doesn´t she announce my condition more and try to be more emotionally supportive? No one has the answer of course but still.