Am I losing it?

Hi - I am new to this and have been reading many of the postings and am glad there is a place to "chat" with others. For the longest time I thought I was the only person in the world that felt alone and miserable. My story starts many years ago and could fill a warehouse, but I will try to get to the heart of the issue. Two years ago, I suffered a seizure and the doctor was unable to diagnose the problem, he thought I was crazy, until I had another seizure, consequently, I was given many drugs that made me loopy all the time. Then someone took advantage of that situation and raped me. Some so called friends, said I should have known better and not taken the drugs, yet I was only doing what the doctor stated. (Is this called "practicing" medicine) Needless to say, I have gone through many "DOWNS" and not so many "UPS". Certain things set me off in a downward spiral and I don't know how to correct it, and then I just crawl deeper and deeper into a hole.. I used to be a very outgoing individual and loved doing things, now I just want to stay away from everyone and hide. I am currently in a relationship, but I am shrinking away. I don't know what to do or how to come back, does anyone have any suggestions, or do I give up now. Thanks for listening.

CJ

Cinders

What you went through is not something simple to deal with.
Please know there is a lot of people that care here...
There are others here that have experienced similar things so, they'll give you some words of encouragement.

Consider getting some help from a counselor or a support group. And keep on talking to us.

gab

There are various anti-seizure meds, I take one for Bipolar disorder, and there are several of those meds out there that work well and are also well tolerated. Please do not give up, try to seek out a new doctor or group of them.
What meds or med did they give you? Depakote can be very sedating, I personally did not like this med when I was put on it, it sedated me so much I almost drove or actually did 3 times, so far the one that has been good with me is Lamictal, non sedating and no weight gain, yay!
I definately would persue finding why you are having or had seizures, maybe a MRI can show something, I do not know if they do reveal the evidence of seizures.
My main point here is do not give up entirely on the medical professionals, maybe you just need to change the ones you are or have seen that failed you.

I wish you luck with this and hope for you to get to the heart of this seizure condition.

BTW Have you ever been DXed with Epilepsy? I know seizures can have different origins but this was the first one that came to my mind.

Take care,
DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

Hello Cinders,

Friends who blame you for what happened are definatly not friends at all. It wasnt your fault that this happened, you were following the direction of you doctor.

You are not loosing it, and you are definatly not alone with this at all. Many of us have been through what you did including myself.

Have you sought out any therapy to deal with the assualt? Doing that would be the number one step. Getting treatment and so forth will make you feel better. Help you get a better understanding about what is going on with you and why you feel the way you do.

I hope you are feeling better today, take care.

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Thanks to everyone for their support and information. I have been calling to find a therapist in my area to help me through some of the trauma. It just seems that it takes awhile to get an appointment :-( As for the diagnosis, still a little fuzzy on that one, seems that I have inherited debilitating migraine headaches from my grandmother and have MS. I now on an epileptic drug called Keppra which does not seem to make me as loopy, still hate taking the drug, but it does help with the continuous headaches. Anyone have other suggestions for meds for headaches, I cannot take Imitrex and vicodin just does not cut the mustard, any suggestions would be appreciated. I hope that everyone is doing well, thanks for listening.

Cinders

Cinders

well stress sure does it to ya..

I switched from imitrex to Zomig disintegrating tablets... and also just began Topamax, both should help with my migraines...

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