[Rhapsody]

I could not believe what my eyes where seeing...

As I was flicking through the TV early one morning when I could not sleep - I stopped on a movie that caught my attention for it was based on a real life story.... and what should I see about fifteen minutes into the show, but a woman being sexually abused by a man and I just went white and felt as though I was going to throw up.... for what he did to her was exactly what a man had done to me about ten years ago.... this is so beyond what one thinks a human would really do to another living being, let alone have to see it on TV, even if is a Movie Channel.

I never thought about this sick sexual act happening to another person - I still cannot believe that it happened to me (and) now I cannot get the picture / the abuse out of my head - I am feeling sick to my stomach all over again, not to mention anxious and fearful.

Rhapsody -

... What has happened to this world and to the people in it? - to many have gone mad and their sick minds are in control.

[heartspace]

Safe hugs ((( Rhapsody )))

How awful for you. I know it feels horrible, but those images will fade in time. Do you see a T you could talk this through with? At any rate, we're here for you.
Take care.

[jennie]

you are not alone (((((Rhapsody)))))) . . . there is a popular book/movie that emotionally triggers me every time i see/hear that story title . . . i can't understand how it receives support from people or even how a dear friend of mine (also an incest victim) says that movie is one of her favorites.

sometimes i cry at night when i remember what my abuser did to me as a child . . . i cry for people here at Psych Central who have been hurt by others . . . i cry for the many children being hurt now.

we can't understand it. but . . . we can help others. we can join others in the fight against these crimes.

one day when i'm stronger i will be involved in groups that protect women and children from predators.

[heartspace]

(((Jennie)))

[Rhapsody]

It is just SICK....... the way that our Generation / Movies are portraying the MORBID minds of the sexually perverted people in what they now call innocent entertainment - Yeah Right - NOT!!
Do they not realize the power, not to mention ideals, they are giving to the already sick in head people.... when will it end?

= = = = = =

[(JD)]

((((Rhapsody))))) I'm sorry you ran into this.. and was so triggered.. hopefully you can step back away from it "in your mind"... it isn't happening now... etc...

Unfortunately, this is also what porn is .. .over and over again, imo... many ppl involved are NOT involved really willingly. It all needs to stop!

[Rhapsody]

Yeah I know that it is not happening now.... I am just sick to my stomach and full of anger that our society has accepted such trash as entertainment.... some almost thrive off the degrading of another, and if it involves sex then it is even the better to view - Yeah Right, Phooie Spit Spit!

Plus.... this has resonated a lot of past abuse for me, every little thing is popping up in my mind.... I hate the memories of such sickness. WHY? - why are people like they are (men in my case), I just don't understand how ppl can do such evil to another.... that which often goes past what some would consider regular sexual abuse / rape.

Greatly Sadden & Lost,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

People, Females, Women, Girls..... were not made to be used in such ungodly ways, to be entered into so roughly and with such force that damages take place, nor are non-sexual items meant to be placed there..... I was not created to be a lab rat - to explore and dissect for mere male pleasure, was I? - - - - -

[PasDeDeux]

(((Rhap))) I am so sorry you had to see that and now have horrible feelings and images in your head

(((((((((Rapsody)))))))))))

hang in there

(((((((Jenny)))))))))))

I too have some movies like this that I call my favorites for example lifetimes movies - Shame, Shame 2 and the Accused.

If it was just about the fact that the movies are about sex being raped I wouldn't call them my favorites but in some movies like "Shame" and "Shame 2" and The Accused with Jody Foster - theres more to it. then just the sex.

for example Shame a woman drives into town on her motorcycle, has some run ins with a couple locals in a bar while trying to find out where she can get her bike fixed and she goes to the home of a machanic and finds herself at the home of a girl who that night comes home from a date raped. through out the development of the movie its revieled the biker lady is in fact a prosecuting lawyer. She spends time with the girl and other victims in the town. Because the girl is becoming stronger and the perps are "the name" in that town they go after her and the biker. the girl decides to press charges and makes a statement with the police. like always happens in movies and sometimes life the perps got to the girl and instead of being raped again she was strong enough to fight back and jumped from the vechile. Unfortunately in the jump she hit her head and died BUT her friend who had also been one of the same perps victims decided she was not going to have her ffriends death be for nothing and SHE went in to press charges. It ends with the feeling that in this town they can no longer terrorize their victims into silence for if one goes down another is going to step up and say uh huh you are NOT getting away with raping us.

Shame 2 picks up where the first one left off I think a year or two later.

See my friends and I who call some of these "rape" movies our favorites feel its not about the sex..

Rape is about power and in these movies you see the process of the power being TAKEN BACK away from the perps by the same people that they thought they had power over.

They show how to fight back by using the judicial system, how to tqake back that power of our own bodys and lives, and in doing so learn how to instead of being a victim how to become a survivor where the rape and the perp is not going to rule the rest of the persons life.

I may have to leave the room during the actual rape scenes but boy do I love seeing the perps get what they deserve, and watching how other survivors were able to become stronger and fight back.

hang in there jennie.

[Sabrina]

(((Rhapsody)))

[hillbunnyb]

))))))))))))))) rhapsody( (((((((

[alisandria]

(((rhapsody))) sorry you are going through this, I think many of us get triggered by things like that. I'm new here, I don't know your background so this maybe a little off key (direction wise). Would you feel able enough to get involved in groups that lobby our congressmen to change these things?

I've done such in the past. There are a lot of woman's & mothers against-groups out there that go after such stuff. I find there is just too much of it for sensationlization purposes. I can see when a movie is done as a documentary or based on true event-that, is made more to educate the public. But the ones that use it as a source of entertainment-poo poo on them. There are far more better things to catch our interests as entertainment right? My idea of a movie is escapism from reality, not looking at abuse & gore that some freak somewhere may try and immulate.

Hope I didn't step over my bounds here...just certainly feeling for you.

Lisa

[Rhapsody]

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Hope I didn't step over my bounds here...just certainly feeling for you.

Lisa

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Thanks for the suggestions.... and NO you did not over step your bounds, and YES I would love to get involved (have been in the past) but I am afraid that my present depression & anxiety attacks will not allow me to venture to far from home these days -


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

[Littlefish]

It is v uneasy to let trauma go , i still seem living in that for so long years..........

[(JD)]

I might take a second to explain... I don't feel that any movie maker needs to show anything so traumatic just in the interest of entertainment ...and if it's educational... well... I'm just not sure it needs to be shown so viciously...

Letting trauma events "go" is difficult..that's why they are categorized as traumatic... if it was easy... it wouldn't be labled so.

There is a need to go over and over a traumatic event... to help the brain file it correctly... to where it doesn't always intrude into our daily thoughts. Most of the time, you need someone expert in hearing and helping us work through it... someone to hear the story over and over with us... rumination or rerunning the event over and over in our minds isn't the same thing.

The main thing, imo, to to keep telling ourselves it isn't happening NOW... it did happen but I'm safe NOW. It gets old, I think, even to you all reading me saying it here at PC so much... but imo that's what it takes... keep telling yourself.. it takes a while for your mind to believe it..

[Rhapsody]

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The main thing, imo, to to keep telling ourselves it isn't happening NOW... it did happen but I'm safe NOW. It gets old, I think, even to you all reading me saying it here at PC so much... but imo that's what it takes... keep telling yourself.. it takes a while for your mind to believe it..

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YES.... telling yourself that it is not happening now will help one to stay grounded in the present, but it does not stop the residue that is left inside of ones body from being resonated from such sick movies - which is what is happening to me.
If I had known that such a deviated scene was in the movie I would not have stopped on the channel, not even for a minutes.

> > > torture and perverted sexual abuse scenes do not belong in movies..... not even Rated-R or Adult films.... who are the people that think up such moments for human viewing and pleasure?

Have so many people with in our world become so sick and low that they now enjoy this stuff? - YUCK!!

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Lucky_13]

(((((((((((((((rhapsody))))))))))))))

[(JD)]

I don't have "memories" from this type of trauma...but I do from my accident and subsequent mishandling... and yes, there is residue inside... that's why it's so important to stay in the moment of HERE and NOW by telling yourself, that was then and it was bad... but now is now..it isn't here and now TC

[Rhapsody]

Yes - I understand that Sky..... I guess my anger comes from knowing that others are still suffered this type of abuse, and its soooooooooooo SAD!! - children are being destroyed and society continues to compound it with their so call acceptable adult entertainment, websites and magazines.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

All wounds come out, resurface, as to make way for more HEALING..... and this is what I feel has been the out come here.... my body is ready to work on the ANGER!! - that which still lies with in me.

....... ANGER from my abuse, ANGER from men, ANGER toward my husband.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[MyBestKids2]

Dear Rhapsody,

Please feel better soon. I can empathize with your triggers. Mine are "Mommie Dearest" and "Flowers in the Attic". I shall keep you in my thoughts, as long as you need!

[BalishBun]

There are horrible horrible people out there just like the person that abused you, too many people have to go through something so undeserving like sexual abuse. It angers me so so much. But all I can say is, at least you are here and at least you are alive to see another day.