so angry and tired

i read some of the posts, not just in this forum but other ones. I dont know why. but i want to just tell some people where to go with themselves. but that aint me talking. its really what i want to tell myself. and believe me i do.

when does any of this end. is there any closure to any of it. why does this even happen. where is that end of the rainbow. who makes all those decisions.

safe hugs if you want them....
(((((((( chalmette )))))))))

I tried to watch the videos you posted. my player cuts out every few seconds for several minutes so i had to finally give up. But the power of that wind.... oh good lord. it took a while to tell that those were cars and they were floating past the house. such fear!!
Kiya

relax and be kind to yourself.

I'd like to add useless and worthless to the list. I know theres more, but my mind is running in circles right now.

(((chal)))

Cyran0

you've had hard enough blows as it is, don't hurt yourself more by tearing yourself down, k? =( You have more strength than you realize.... and enough strength to take a load off.
Thinking of you
(((((((((((((( chal ))))))))))))))))
Kiya

((((((((((((( chalmette )))))))))))))

Most of the survivors of Hurricane Andrew had to leave the area. Changing the environment was a great help in starting over and putting it behind. To continue to live in the area only constantly triggered (everyone who couldn't get out.) The area is vastly changed now, though not 100% good or rebuilt. Thousands did stay, or return. Some found solace in helping with the rebuilding. Some just plod along to live, as life requires it. The memories stay, but helping to file them away properly allows to find other things, enjoyable things, to use the space better.



The recent storm front that went through this week caused terrible winds and thunder and lightening. I opened the closet door, just in case the tornado warning sounded... or the memories of not only Andrew but of the day of my disabling injury overwhelmed me. Fortunately, I've finally begun to not always need to cower in fear. It's a long journey.

hey now. Get some rest

I hope your okay now. The problem with having PTSD is that it will always haunt you. I don't have the answer as to how it will end but I am hoping that it will one day. It is hard to forget about the trauma and the injustice when I feel like a failure because of that and I did try to get up but I keep getting knocked out.

depression, irritation and frustration. I hate it. All this time having it 24-7. It wont go away. I wish so bad something comes this season and i'll stay.

((((((chalm)))))))))))))))))))))
Something i hope comes your way
sending you all my good thought and healing prayers
your my friend
you matter to me
All the times in chat we talked when i first came here ty
so many times your words mattered to me ty

I can relate for my own reasons I am sorry this is happening. Just hang on as it does change. Be well.

in t's waiting room last night there was a National Geo magazine i was leafing through and at the heart of it was a long section on New Orleans and pictures of the flood and the aftermath. I sat there crying, looking at the devastation, retracing the many routes i worked, pointint out landmarks i saw in the 9th (the picture was from Feb after the storm) and t came out - i showed her and told her those were the areas i had worked. She looked at them and then took the book with us to her office where i then showed her all the pictures and the maps.

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I hope your okay now. The problem with having PTSD is that it will always haunt you. I don't have the answer as to how it will end but I am hoping that it will one day. It is hard to forget about the trauma and the injustice when I feel like a failure because of that and I did try to get up but I keep getting knocked out.

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One explanation for PTSD is give here.

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Hypoglycemia

I do understand that feeling too well. I am sorry it feels that way and can only tell you it is time to have some fun with people in a connected way. It does help.

Lately ive felt irritable....very little thing makes me mad...ill be walking down the hallway of my highschool and if someone cuts me off...my blood boils..or if someone looks dirty, i get so overwhelmed with this feeling of being annoyed that it acutally bothers me...lately instead of being nice to someones face and ***** about them later...ive just been mean to their face...which saves me the anger later, but im losing friends...quick...idk why im soo irritable