[MINIME]

For the last three days I have been unable to eat and have been throwing up. I get this way when I am way over triggered. I went to therapy today and it helped alot. My body is still a little high strung, I went to the dr and my blood pressure was high and my pulse rate was 130 and I was dehydrated. The dr gave me some ativan. I go back to therapy Monday and back to the dr tuesday and therapy again thursday, Does this happen to others?

[gimmeice]

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I have had a similar reaction to being triggered so I know that it can be awful.
Hopefully you are feeling better soon, it sounds like your doctor is concerned which is a good thing.

[MINIME]

WOW I didnt realize how alone and diferent I was.

[skeksi]

Are you reacting to a lack of replies? Remember that traffic is always slower on the weekends.

I have gotten physically ill from flashbacks. It makes sense to have an elevated heart rate (you're afraid) and the nausea makes sense, too. You're not alone with this.

[Kiya]

no, you're not alone or different in that. i've been in my own mood and couldn't write. i was trying to take about 30 pills with an alcoholic chaser so i was a little distracted.
my appoplgies =)

i too get physically ill from stress and triggers. in fact, our bodies are programmed that way (tho our society would have us think otherwise). your body is a warning system that something is wrong. it pays to listen to it- it is like the fire alarm that says the blgd is on fire.

i was so ill last weekend from triggers and depression i couldn't write my paper... oh wait, that;s happening this weekend too. *sigh*. In fact, it was a trigger that set off the pill episode.

keep breating, try to do things that are good for you - and heed those warnings. kiya... actually i'm MPD and not Kiya right now but I don't know who i am... other than really rrrrow! i'll try to tell kiya to check on you.

[(JD)]

PTSD has that effect. Learning stress reduction skills, grounding, meditation and visual imagery will help you find a good level to return to regarding bodily responses.

[MINIME]

I just wanted to know. I have given my self six month to show some improvement .I keeptrying to keep positive and work really hard in therapy.What I didnt expect was to be triggered by therapists. They didnt do it on purpose,it just really took alot out of me. I just dont know if its all worth it. I have made some pretty big progress but the set back this last week has been huge.To go back to therapy and have this fear of being triggered by them is hard to do. I know I will keep going. Its just scary to think if I dont get better then this will be life.

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You know, six months isn't very long to give yourself to heal. Healing is a big job.

I wonder if maybe you are moving too quickly in therapy because you have this time limit in your mind? I think it probably took me a full six months before I could even start getting really deep into the trauma stuff. And even with that, we've only touched on it. And yes, it does give me physical symptoms. It's hard, hard, hard stuff. I talk to T on the phone, and we work on containment....but sometimes, it's just almost too much.

I have had a few glimmers of HOPE since starting therapy, though - and I am hanging on to those. I do think that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I just think we have to give ourselves time to get through the tunnel, and get through safely.

((((((((((((((((((( minime )))))))))))))))))) Be gentle with yourself. Be patient. Give yourself the time you need and deserve.

[Kiya]

often I find when I give myself an ultamatem, my self will purposely cross it and fail, just to show me it could. But if i am open and allow healing rather than forcing it, it works much better and there is more "me" on board with the program =)

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6 monthsisn't a long time at all, my t says everyone is different, she wasin therapy for 6 years, don't be put off .... she said mine could be quicker, i have been triggered badly and have felt lousy for the last 2 days, headaches, feeling very nauseous, shaky, hyper,hyper sensitive etc etc.... in fact anxiety has hit like ast year to be honest....not good, but, with the help of the fantastic mods (Sabby and Clyde)who have talked to me andall my friends here including you, things are looking up.....

you are not alone sweetie, gentle hugs and care to you,Kerry xoxoxoxoxoxox