Chat rooms

Hi Everyone,

this is a bit of a strange post.... I just tried out the live chat thing that comes up at the top of the screen - it's the 2nd time ive tried to partiipate and both times I have got triggered - here's the strange thing - I wasn't triggered by what was said ... this sounds sooooo stupid.... I was triggered by the fact that I didnt know who was going to come in - I didnt know who was outside - couldnt see them... well der! it's chat you can't see them! and people would just appear.... and be gone - it felt like i was out in the open with nowhere to hide - guess it touched my fear of people coming at me when i havnt seen them - difficult to explain - first time i put it down to nerves but this time it was worse - sigh....... guess some of us just arnt meant to chat!

I completely get it. I find that disheartening too. There is a private function there. We could try it sometime and just do the private chat thing.

thanks skydancer I appreciate the offer ,not sure if I can try again - each time I have tried the effects are worse - Im fighting off a panic attack and its so stupid!- didnt want to let it beat me - but I think it has and im not even in any danger! what are they going to do - word me to death!!!!! grr talk about an inappropriate reaction! you'd think I was 5 years old!!! sorry

Hey phoenix, I hope I didn't cause anything towards your trigger, and I apologize if I did when talking to you.

I also wanted to say that I kind of feel the way you feel, I too was panicky in there, maybe because it was my second time too, I don't even know what triggers some sort of panick attack..

With me..I think it's because I tend to overlook my writing and what i'm saying and by the time I'm happy with what I wrote or comfortable the conversation is probably over and done with lol..so I end up seeming really quiet..and then blurting out a whole bunch in like one paragraph..

I found when new people joined I also felt hesitant..I don't know..It's weird.

I guess some of us just aren't meant to chat, you're right lol.

no StephanieDv if anything you were the one that was keeping me calm by keeping in the conversation - so thanks for that

i've been triggered a few times in the last couple of days - got triggered by a lift of all things - twice ! so maybe it was just going to happen - who knows not me! - my T says I get triggered more when I'm tired and I have been very tired so that's probably it! drat! T right again! I told her "dont you ever get tired of being right" and she sort of smiled and said "no" LOL

funny, this morning I was feeling disconnected - wishing I had emotions - now I wish they would shut down LOL never satisfied