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Apr 14, 2009, 04:53 AM
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Things are getting worse - my new anti-d's arnt working or maybe they are making me more anxious - dunno - not sleeping - pdoc had me writing down how many times I wake in the night - last night 14 times - night before 12 - sooo tired.
Have T on thursday - have hung out for this - now dont want to go  dont want to tell her how crazy I have been recently - that stupid things have triggered me that never triggered me before - what a wimp! and that i didnt cope well  I somtimes say I feel like I stand at the edge of a storm that threatens to wipe me out - I feel that storm close by now and the closer it gets to T the worse it gets - it should be getting better but its not.... I dont know what to do....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts  its how many times you get back up!   (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture  )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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#2
Apr 14, 2009, 07:03 AM
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no need for replies _ i just have to ride it out - see T thursday - dumb not to be able to cope till then - I will do what I have to to cope till them - thanks anyway - take care everyone
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 14, 2009, 08:16 AM
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If it helps I know how you feel, I am going though pretty much the same only the app was last week and I didn't manage to make it in the end. My meds don't seem to be working and my pdoc isn't even bothering to monitor me. |
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Apr 14, 2009, 08:23 AM
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(((phoenix7)))))) muffy gets her fan out and pushes the storm away
may you feel better |
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Apr 14, 2009, 08:24 AM
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Im sorry midnight sky - can you rng your pdoc and see if he /she can see you? I hope you have a new T appointment soon - its hard being so confused isnt it .... take care P7 thanks Muffy - but I think you'll need a bigger fan lol logging off now - 11.30pm - have to at least try to pretend to sleep lol take care everyone - be safe and well
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 14, 2009, 08:29 AM
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(((phoenix7)))))))))))))))))))))) theres always my magic wand
and also I can listen to what ever you need to say 
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#7
Apr 14, 2009, 08:33 AM
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thanks Muffy for the beautiful picture - maybe things will look better tomorrow.... take care P7
- I think I have already said too much but thankyou for listening
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 14, 2009, 08:37 AM
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((((phoenix7))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) sleep well and i hope tomorrow will look better.
You never say to much and im always willing to listen kind one |
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Apr 14, 2009, 12:40 PM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 14, 2009, 05:36 PM
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) says dont go! sigh...... but I will - have to face the music . I know what happened was/is very triggering for me - but I chose an innapropriate method of coping out of desperation - I should have known better than that - I did/do know better than that..... and im still stuck in that cycle.....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 15, 2009, 12:52 PM
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Phoenix, has your T been ashamed of you before? You have been having huge triggers that have been very difficult for you to deal with. You did the best you could. I am not ashamed of you at all!
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 15, 2009, 04:13 PM
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The shame is the worst feeling, isn't it? And it's impossible to just turn off, I know.
I'm sorry you're feeling bad. I think that although you turned to that method to cope in desperation, it's valuable that you found a way to cope. You got through. You took care of yourself in the best way you could. There's, in my mind, no shame in that. I know it's impossible to see it that way right now, but perhaps hearing it many times from many different people will help. |
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Apr 15, 2009, 09:34 PM
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Thanks Sannah and Skeksi -
I dont think T has been ashamed of me.... yet..... T cancelled again....... may have a phone session tomorrow - if I have trouble talking about this in person - how will I ever do this over the phone...... 
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet Last edited by phoenix7; Apr 15, 2009 at 11:22 PM. |
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Apr 16, 2009, 07:27 AM
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I'm sorry that you still have to wait for an appt! You should be able to benefit from a phone appt. though?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 16, 2009, 06:07 PM
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yep - I think I need the phone call - 2 hours to go - wish me luck
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 17, 2009, 04:32 AM
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T told me today she is leaving.....
 one more session then ....gone.....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 19, 2009, 10:58 AM
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So are you working on getting another therapist?
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 19, 2009, 02:52 PM
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dont know - cant think - will see what she suggests at next visit - everyone leaves.... maybe I can do this on my own ... sad...
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 19, 2009, 08:35 PM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 20, 2009, 02:01 AM
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I thought my anti-d's were finally kicking in today - I felt better - then I did somthing really stupid - I dont know why i did it - and I dont feel bad about it - Im just sorry if I let anyone down (apart from me and I dont really care about me -)
raining and cold here - I like the grey clouds and the darkness - it feels right .
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 20, 2009, 09:43 AM
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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Apr 20, 2009, 12:08 PM
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(((phoenix7))))))
I understand how you feel, I'm sorry you are feeling bad. It is very hard to get through. The feeling of shame is devastating and always painful. You should always tell your T when you are feeling triggered. Your T will always be there for you and he always understands you. Take your writings and bring them into your next session. Xtree
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Apr 20, 2009, 05:57 PM
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Xtree, T is leaving - next session will be my last.....
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts its how many times you get back up! (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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Apr 20, 2009, 07:25 PM
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Xree
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