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So...tomorrow my husband is coming to session with me! I feel like a mix of this >>
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() It's something my T suggested a while ago when my husband was wondering why I needed to be in therapy still, but didn't insist on. However, a few days ago, he said, I think I want to come with you! Well, you could have knocked me over with a feather.....I didn't think he was anywhere near that thought or desire! But bless his heart.....he does understand that I am having some serious struggles, that this therapy stuff will probably take a while, and he wants to understand better what he can do to help and support me. So, I told T this and she was like 'that's brilliant' (she likes that word ![]() We made up an agenda yesterday. And she had me journal how I felt about him coming.....one thing I wrote was this: 'that I was afraid I would be caught between 2 people who care and have nowhere to hide'. She said, 'that's it right there....you know you will be with 2 people who care about you, you are afraid you will want to hide, but not be able to....because you like to hide!' Amen, sister, that is it in a nutshell indeed! So I'm just trying to keep in a calm place about it and accept that it's OK if I can't hide......and that it will be OK if I don't hide, especially from those who do care and want to help. |
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I would try to remember too, that your T is in the same situation you are? She doesn't know your husband at all; what if he asks a hard question of her she might not be able to answer or causes some sort of scene? She's there for you, and if he says/does something that threatens your well being she will have to step in to help you!
You're actually in the "best" seat because you have associations to each of the other two, you and T are a pair and you and your husband are a pair; each pair has individual, shared stories the other person not in that pair doesn't know about. They can't "gang up" against you because they have never worked together, haven't even met each other!
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And its okay to want to hide! If you feel this tomorrow and feel overwhelmed, just say it out loud. This is always so helpful to me. Can't wait to hear how it goes.
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I thought of something else this morning when trying to calm myself/prepare myself for the session today.......that I'm thinking of her as my T and I'm nervous about 'sharing' her, as it were, my husband! I'm certainly not jealous of her other clients, no......but when she's with me, her whole attention is all mine for that time, but this time, it's a different dynamic......the attention will be shared. So, I sort of had to roll my eyes at myself a little when I realized this, as the way I'm feeling is sort of like when one of my kids wants my attention all to him/herself....
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I'm curious to know how your session with your H was!! I hope it went well! My H has come to therapy with me, but not with this T yet. It was usually productive but I did feel like I was missing MY time with MY T.
It's wonderful that your T actually ASKED to come! Mine would never do that. I think it's "brilliant" too. You've got a nice H! ![]() |
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I hope it goes well! Keep us posted!
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oh, you didn't go yet? Then, good luck!
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That's normal to not want to share your T.
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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on our way in 15 minutes!
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Oh wow....I feel completely wiped out! (of course, part of that is due to the fact that I have been sick, some sort of flu, and I'm still feeling sort of loopy from that, too
![]() My T handled it brilliantly (to use one of her favorite words ![]() So...there was basic stuff about confidentiality, etc. Then she asks him how he thinks I'm doing, what does he see - well, of course I hide things/emotions so well, he said he thought I seemed to be doing well enough....and in the course of the conversation he was simply dumbfounded to realize how deep my depression can be, how I've felt that way most of my life...depression is utterly foreign to him. I had also told him about the safety contract I have with my T because of the really powerful SI compulsions, but of course self-harm, why I would want to, was hard for him to comprehend too, so she did a very good job of explaining to him the shame, the anger I feel against myself, the feeling I should punish myself, that drives the compulsion and also what goes on biochemically in a person's body when they do SI......that was one of the hard hard parts of the conversation. My poor husband was looking so teary. ![]() ![]() So....it was heavy, but it was productive. I think my husband understands better now my need to be in therapy, what I'm struggling with, and a little better how he can help me. I hate to be so vulnerable, yes, but it's also time to quit trying to do this all alone, without help, and time to learn how to hide a little less, at least from the people who have shown they care and can help! She told him what I need right now is for him to be gentle and loving and she said, I think I can see that you will do that for her..... But I just don't think I can handle another joint session any time too soon.....I feel wrung out and undone and like I need to find a deeper place to hide! ![]() |
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That sounds like a wonderful session, Poet! You are lucky to have your T and your H! As hard as it was for you, now you have someone to support you besides your T. My H doesn't "get it". He's logical and analytical too. He keeps asking if I'm cured yet. I'm glad for you that it worked out.
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Very good pgirl!!
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Don't let your problems or the world make you feel small. Stretch your arms out over your head. Take a deep breathe. Tell yourself that you are big. You are big, not small. You always have space, you are not trapped........ I'm an ISFJ |
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So happy for you! It sounds like you have a very supportive husband, or at least you will now. It must be such a relief to have him respect your T and have a bit more knowledge. Sounds like your T is pretty great too!
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It sounds like a real success, a session that opened your husband's eyes. It's wonderful that he was willing to go and to listen and to take a role that would be supportive. What a positive, if exhausting piece of work you both did!
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Sounds exhausting! Sounds like it was good of your h to go and t seemed to really help him understand. i really liked what your t said about adding "another communication piece" it feels so great when the t totally gets us!
ps i can sooo relate to the wanting to hide |
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Thanks all!
![]() And I do feel blessed in the T I have......I might be a little biased, but I think she's awesome, not perfect, but still awesome! ![]() ![]() |
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