[BlessedRhiannon]

I know I could call my T or email, but I really, really don't want to. I always feel like I'm bugging her, even though she has assured me that I'm not. I'm just really struggling today, and I don't know why. I wish I had a session today, so I could just go talk to T. I have to wait two more days, though!

I don't know what's going on and it's so frustrating! I didn't sleep much last night, and today I'm really jittery, anxious, flighty. I'm struggling to stay on task and get things done. I hate when I get to feeling like this!

Not even sure why I'm posting, just needed to get this out somewhere! Think I'll try and journal for a bit.

[Elana05]

Hi BlessedRhiannon,

Sorry to hear you are having such a rough day. I can relate. The period between sessions can be so scary and seem like forever. I often feel worse/more anxious too if I haven't gotten enough sleep. If your T says contacting her is OK, maybe just leave a brief message. Journaling is helpful too. That way you can "prepare" for T by organizing your thoughts.Sending safe hugs your way. Hope you can get a bit of rest and that these 2 days pass quickly.

[Suratji]

Oh, I think I know how you feel. That is an awful place to be in - jittery, anxious, flighty, difficult to stay on task. Do you know what's causing it? I usually don't. The other day when I was trying to decide if I should take klonopin before a session and my T suggested I experiment first in 'real life' (I have only taken it before flying previously), I took some. Man, what a difference it made. It calmed me down, lifted my mood and I was able to focus on task.

So, do you have access to meds to occasionally help with those feelings? Also, it's good to call T and journal as Elana suggested. Probably start with those first anyways.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Thanks Elana and Suratji

Do you know what's causing it?

No, that's what's so frustrating. I think I started feeling anxious yesterday morning, and it's just progressively gotten worse. If I can catch it as soon as the feelings start, I can usually get the anxiety to manageable levels, but I didn't catch it this time.

So, do you have access to meds to occasionally help with those feelings?

No. I haven't been on meds for anxiety in a very long time. I'm very resistant to meds except as a last resort. I tend to have weird reactions to them. My T knows this and thinks I can manage without. And I can, usually!!!

I know I should just call, but she's gone home for the day, so I'd have to call her cell phone, and I really don't want to bother her at home. Plus, I'm heading off to a class now myself...hoping that doing something I enjoy will calm the nerves a little. If not, it's back to journaling tonight!

[WikidPissah]

I know that struggle. Wanting to just touch base, get a little support...but feeling that I am going to bug him if I do.

I hope you find a little piece, and a little break from the anxiety. Can you take a walk, listen to loud music, read a light book? Sometimes hitting the gym for a good workout helps me...but I realize not everyone can do that.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Going to my dog training class and actually running my dog helped a bit, listening to my favorite music helped even more. I'm still anxious, but less than I was. I think I can manage until Thursday now. I so hate feeling this way. I'm still going to journal so that I can talk about it with my T in our session.

[jazzy123456]

wow.... i love how these are like the exact words in my head this week...
except i have to wait a little longer....
i sure hope you feel better sooooon!