Don't want to go to T

right before midnight?! that is SUPER late! the latest my T has ever called me was 8:30 at night, and I was worried about it being too late when she called.

No. But once, early in therapy I couldn't sleep. It was midnight and I decided to call her just to listen to her recorded message. I have both the office and her cell phone numbers stored in my cell phone directory... and when the recording didn't start, I looked at the number I had dialed and it was her cell!! Aaack! I hung up real fast. A minute later she called back and sounded very sleepy and I was sooo embarassed!

Awe, well it was nice that she called back -so quickly too! What did you say when she called you?

My T has woken me up before when she called me at 12:30am. Other times she has woken me up at 6:30am by texting me. I think she was trying to get even with me though because I used to text her at 3am sometimes but I always thought that she would have turned her phone off when she went to bed. I asked her once what time she turns her phone off and apparently it is on 24/7! Oops!!

I know right!?

Yes, I think they have to keep it on 24/7 because of emergencies...but sometimes when I call my T's office voice mail she has a different greeting when she's out of the office for a while. She gives the name and number of another therapist who is covering for her in her absence. (otherwise she says in the greeting "if you are a current patient and only in the case of a clinical emergency, you may reach me directly at....")

Thanks WOWY. I never thought that she would have her phone on 24/7. I don't know why, it just never occurred to me. It does make complete sense though...

Sure. And I've never had to call her cell phone, thank God...

My T doesn't have his phone on 24/7. My calls go to a voice mail that he checks when he can.

I actually like it that way, because he can listen and call me back when it's convenient for him, and I can call whenever I want without worrying about bothering him.

Although on days like today, I wish I could just REACH HIM.

That's what I thought that my T did. Apparently i was wrong.

So I saw my T today... Apparently I regress a lot. And apparently I have a lot of borderline personality tendencies. Yay me.

The first step in getting better is to know what you have to work on.....

Thanks for your support Rainow rose!

Thanks Sannah, I hadn't looked at it that way...

Is there a big difference between borderline personality tendencies and borderline personality disorder??

Also does anyone else regress a lot in therapy? Or have been told by their T or PDoc that they are regressing??

i would need you to explain more about what you mean by regress

She says that looking at me sometimes my facial looks look like that of a 5yr old. Especially when I put on my "Pouty" face. She also said that there is a part of me that wants her to take care of me and hold my hand like a child. I denied that but she told me that even though I think I don't want that, it is unconscious. She also says whenever I answer things by saying "So?" or "So what?" or "But you did it too" it makes me sound like a little child. Hope that helps!

i think my sitting on the floor is regresion and not being able to talk .i think mostly it is my reaction after T when i am alone that is childish.my anger and stuff

Thanks for sharing Granite.

I wonder what causes or can cause regression. Anyone know??

I know I definately regress in therapy at times, not on purpose but sometimes I would hear something I said and If would sound so child like. Or sometimes I say something and my T just smiles at me and it makes me realise it. I have BPD and have read a lot on it and many people with it (or in your case with tendancies of bpd) are very childlike. Some researchers say that really a person with BPd can be like dealing with a child who is trying to function in an adult body and world...thats totally how life feels for me. Although at the same time i can be extremely mature...far more mature than I probably should be for my age...so its confusing. For people with BPD usually they do have a deep need to be cared for, in the way a child does, possibly due to issues from the past etc.

Thanks Dizgirl. I wonder if that is true for me as well. She did say that I regress a lot in the same sentence that she said that I have a lot of BPD tendencies...I see her later today so maybe I will ask her then,,,

So I saw my T today..She said that the reason that I have so many BPD tendencies is because of what I wasn't given by my parents growing up. She also caught me EVERY time that I started to regress and would say "I want to see Adult Cats now" I am so not aware of when I even go into the regression state...