[Wren_]

My dear dear friend George died last night at 9:42 He was so accepting of his illness and of his death. I want to handle it as gracefully as he handled it. So many people loved him.

[skysblue]

Originally Posted by treehouse

My dear dear friend George died last night at 9:42 He was so accepting of his illness and of his death. I want to handle it as gracefully as he handled it. So many people loved him.

My sympathies

[WePow]

(((((((Tree)))))))))

[Butterflies Are Free]

Having a session with T today where I celebrate the life of my grandmother - my mother called yesterday and told me that she died on Sunday night.

[FourRedheads]

(((Tree)))

[granite1]

Originally Posted by treehouse

My dear dear friend George died last night at 9:42 He was so accepting of his illness and of his death. I want to handle it as gracefully as he handled it. So many people loved him.

tree

[delicatefade26]

((((Tree)))) and (((Butterflies)))

[rainbow8]

tree: I'm sorry about your friend.

I feel relieved about therapy again. I'm glad I sent the last email to my T about the part who wants the pattern. I wasn't honest with myself before and that was making me miserable. I do a lot to perpetuate this pattern but it's not ALL of me and it's not that I'm bad. That part isn't bad; she's just very needy and desperate. Facing that is giving me strength I didn't know I had.

I'm a little nervous because one of my kids and family are going on an airplane soon. I'm trying to be calm.

[monalee]

I can't get on the bus to see my doc today,having panitk attack.

[delicatefade26]

I have a session tomorrow after a week of not...and I'm super anxious about it-I think because I have so much I need/want to talk about and I'm worried it won't come out right or that I won't have enough time...also we are meeting in a different office and this bugs me...but I'm also really excited that I get to see T again and I look forward to a hug from him and his calming presence (I have this horrible feeling that he will be distracted and distant tomorrow for some reason...I really hope this isn't the case)

(((((((Butterflies))))))) I'm sorry about your grandmother

((((PC Friends))))) Thank you for the hugs.

[kaliope]

i totally flipped out last night and left a message for T at 130 in the morning. a coworker was just diagnosed with lymphoma. i was being irrational, jealous that it is not me. why does she get the opportunity to die and not me. i was just sobbing. i took extra haldol and that knocked me out and i called and apologized this morning. he called me back and is working on a letter to my new pdoc. i wanted him to write something up for my new pdoc cause i do not present well for pdocs but now i am scared what he is going to write. i feel like i am in trouble.

[FourRedheads]

Hi Monalee,

Welcome to PC. I'm sorry you are having a hard time today. I'm glad you posted. This is a good place to let people know how you are doing.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

Last night was bad... Doctors office called and rescheduled my appointment that was Tomorrow and changed it to October 26th, 2 months 2 weeks and 2 days away. Wouldn't be so bad if it weren't for seizures that just started popping up... Not angry any more, just looking at it as a life test that I'm gonna pass. Patience has never been my virtue!

[skysblue]

Even when life is 'good', things are going well, there is nothing to complain about, there are no serious challenges, the blooming flowers are beautiful, even then, even then, it's hard to be enthusiastic about life. It will be nice when finally the day comes when it's all over.

[crazycanbegood]

skysblue

[SilentLucidity]

How does one follow fencing emoticons?

Seeing T for the first time in two weeks in 74 minutes.

not like I'm counting down or anything.

73

[delicatefade26]

Originally Posted by SilentLucidity

How does one follow fencing emoticons?

Seeing T for the first time in two weeks in 74 minutes.

not like I'm counting down or anything.

73

hehe that's great! you will have to let us know how it goes!!!

[FourRedheads]

Confused today. I don't know what I feel or if I can trust what I feel or even if what I feel is real. Was my marriage abusive? Is that abuse? Will he hurt me now? Is he going to hurt the kids again? Wait--I feel fear. Fear of what happens next. I'm paralyzed by fear.

Had my first session in my T's new office today. It's very nice, but decorated very differently from the old office (which isn't necessarily a bad thing). T was pleased to see me doing so much better. It was a fairly light session which seemed to be the right mode for me today.

Geez!! It has been a very, very long day. We had open house for the parents so I did not get off work until 7:00pm. That is 11 1/2 hours I was at my school. I am bushed! Today was a good day, though. Except that some parents don't understand my teaching style. I am very hands on, not so much 'worksheets'. Most of the parents love it and tell me that their children seem very happy to be in school (for a change). But some just don't get it. They want me to stick to the textbooks. I hate to inform them, but in this area, textbooks will be obsolete in a few years. It will be technology and hands on!

[Rose76]

I'm getting scared about benefits running out. Scared no one will hire me. Trying not to slide into depression, and I have not done so. Anxiety is escalating.

[delicatefade26]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm getting scared about benefits running out. Scared no one will hire me. Trying not to slide into depression, and I have not done so. Anxiety is escalating.

: It's so hard not to slip into it...I'm struggling with that again too-hang in there

[SilentLucidity]

Today's session with T was alright. There was so much to talk about and not enough time really, but I can't complain really. I just wish it was easier for me to actually re-frame things in my mind. Always a work in progress.

[crazycanbegood]

2 more weeks until i move away from my T