Went grocery shopping, mowed the lawn, cleaned the house, and moved a bunch of furniture (including the PIANO) with my boys today. So tired. Inlaws arriving from out of town any minute. Ack!

[FourRedheads]

Quiet day. Taking kids to see their dad on a semi-supervised visit this evening. Going to run a few errands with oldest daughter while they are gone. Feeling very tired and run down. I think it's the depression. I made zucchini bread yesterday and that felt like a huge accomplishment. Count-down to T's return continues. 4 days....

[granite1]

had a melt down at work today it's all starting again i dont know what to do

[delicatefade26]

Doing really well today...I worked all day but the customers were really nice!! Also a boy from work asked me to hang out this weekend I'm nervous! but I think it will be fun! He is such a nice guy!

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by ECHOES

Do you have a way to be safe if Irene visits?

Who knows what it will be like this far in advance? I intend to try to find a parking place for my car not near any big trees, if that is possible!

Aren't you envious and missing hurricanes now, ECHOES?

[Rose76]

Reached equilibrium again. Feeling decent now. Going through piles of paperwork, but the job can be tackled. I'm finding I can tackle things that seem overwhelming, if I just break the big job into stages or small parts. Then just do something. Small scale efforts add up to what can seem like an impressive accomplishment. My apartment looks like a I moved into a different place. I'm really glad, now, that I took this place.

[kaliope]

pachyderm, i hope you can find a safe place. my daughter is in virginia beach. i was visiting in may and a regular storm broke lose and caused so much damage in such a short amount of time i hate to see what Irene is going to do. she is all alone to. her hubby was out to sea and with the warning, his ship was going to be held out to sea until the storm passes. she is all alone and nearly eight months pregnant, doesnt drive. im worried for her.

life is going good. i dont know whether to say my new med is doing anything or not. i havent been anxious so i guess its working. but i cant really say things have been happening to make me anxious. crisis at work but i handled it fine. looking forward to the weekend.

[nicoleb2]

Rollercoaster day for me again. One minute I'm fine and the next I am having bad SI urges again.

I went for a bike ride with my brother (13) and my 6 and 8 year olds. We got a tandem trailer thing so my 6 year old could go with us for longer rides! First bike ride I have been on in probably 10 years and we went at least 4 miles (which was a lot because I was hauling an extra 50-55 pounds)

Felt wound up all night so got no sleep again (2 nd night) Today I cleaned the house, got my blood work results (high sed rate )
Then went shopping to prepare for the hurricane. I can't get my body to settle down and I feel my blood pressure is up again.
I broke my spine at L5 so excercising is out for now. I feel like I'm falling slowly.
Countdown to T : 4 long days

[ECHOES]

Originally Posted by pachyderm

Who knows what it will be like this far in advance? I intend to try to find a parking place for my car not near any big trees, if that is possible!

Aren't you envious and missing hurricanes now, ECHOES?

Green with envy, pachy

Stay safe!

Worked today. I cannot believe how this is wearing me out! I should be used to it by now, but I'm not. I sure hope that I get some sleep this weekend. I need it!

[SilentLucidity]

Today was so long it is already tomorrow! I had a stressful medical test this morning and hosted two big events at work. Lots of anxiety, all about me, all in my head, then work, work, work. My evening ended with a heart to heart chat with a student. Sometimes it is just heartbreaking to hear all the things these children are experiencing in their lives.

Tonight's the first football game. Nothing like Texas high school football! Yesterday school was all about spirit wear and pep rallies. So much fun! I'm tired though. This getting back to work thing is exhausting. Sure hope my stamina builds quickly.

[Rose76]

I am scared. I did sleep very well. If I make an honest effort, then I think I won't feel so scared. Mainly, I am scared of me letting down me. Lately, I have been looking after my affairs a lot better than I was doing for months. Being scared is not the same as being very depressed, and I am grateful to not be depressed at the moment. Let me make the most of it.

[FourRedheads]

3 days...

[cin1]

i am ok (today) but now something has set me off and i am angry. The anger seems to build.

[kaliope]

i got out of bed this morn very anxious, verge of tears, chest pain when i breathe anxious. how exactly does one wake up that way? i had a good night sleep. didnt get up till noon. i guess i was thinking about what i could do today to challenge my anxiety...pdoc orders....so i guess the idea of challenging it was challenging enough huh?

plus i had receiveed a phone call from a friend in PA who i hardly ever talk to. she didnt leave a message so it got me worried that she was calling to see how my daughter was doing who also lives onthe east coast, right in the path of irene.

so i tried distration and organized the cluttered areas of my apartment that have been bothering me. got my laundry ready to go for later this evening. made myself a cup of coffee and here it is an hour and a half later and it is still nearly impossible to take a deep breathe. maybe i should go chat.

hating the fact that T is in a city majorly affected by the hurricane if he's not already home or on his way home, he'll be stuck there until I-don't-know-when. I have 2 sessions scheduled this week...Monday and Friday..but I haven't seen him since Monday, so Friday feels REALLY far away. I want him to be somewhere safe. Blah.

[nicoleb2]

Today sucks. My T keeps wanting me to feel my feelings. When I do that I get angry and crabby and I don't like myself and I want to cut. I'm a lost cause

[cin1]

seems as though every day, i have nice moments, and then angry moments, then frustrated. i never am level it seems. not sure what to do, cin1

[cin1]

Originally Posted by nicoleb2

Today sucks. My T keeps wanting me to feel my feelings. When I do that I get angry and crabby and I don't like myself and I want to cut. I'm a lost cause

Never a lost cause. give yourself time. i am angry, crabby , ugly, but i get over it...cin1 , those feelings come, and it is ok.

[SilentLucidity]

Just want to get in bed and hide there away from the world.

[cin1]

i only use my bed to sleep in at nite. lots of reasons to get out of the bed. the longer i used to stay there, the worse every thing got.. cin1

[laceylu]

waiting impatiently to see my T. 11 days seem like forever. i am not sure what to ask her first. i think my first question will be what are your plans for me now? i am so afraid of T's that i can not imagine starting over with another one.

[nicoleb2]

Originally Posted by cin1

Never a lost cause. give yourself time. i am angry, crabby , ugly, but i get over it...cin1 , those feelings come, and it is ok.

But it is a lost cause. I've been told there's no other meds for me to try. Being passed to yet another psychiatrist. I just want to quit