Cancelled appt with case manager

my case manager comes to see me every 2 weeks. I didnt feel like talking to her. She is nice and everything but I just didnt feel up to it today. I called and left her a voicemail saying I wasnt feeling good. I'm not. I dont feel good emotionally or mentally. But I said it like I had the flu.I didnt want to have to answer questions. I just wanted to be left alone today. I feel bad for lieing to her in a way though. I dont lie. I dont like it when someone lies to me and I dont like doing it to them either. What is wrong with me? Why do I have to feel this way?

Oh great , she just called me . I had to reschedule already. Argh!This Friday at 9:30 am. I DONT WANT TO SEE HER!!!!!!!

You said that you didn't feel up to talking to her today, but you also seem pretty upset with the idea of talking to her on Friday. Is there something about her or your meetings that bothers you?

No Ben she is nice and all , I just find I end up saying too much when I dont "feel good" and I dont want to end up in the hospital again. I trust to easy and I will not get put in the position I was in last March. I cant do that again.

It sounds like you're really having a hard time seeing or talking to anyone right now. Maybe telling her you're struggling with talking to her may help right now. Just a little suggestion. You're not talking to her, but yet having an open discussion about it.

((((((((((((((((((((beth)))))))))))))))))))))))

I wish I could say some magic words or offer a wonderful suggestion that would be a clear answer. I hope that it goes well on Friday, and then will be over for another month.

You're in my thoughts, dear.

KD

icaancelled again,now i am in trouble. i have to call them back. i dont want to .

UGH!!!!!! She called me back again.another appt rescheduled for Monday at 5pm. And sne said to use the hotline if I needed to just talk to someone. Thats the whole point. I dont want to talk to any of them. I am too scared to because I dont want to end up in the hospital!They know this and they still push the issue of talking.... STOP !Some days I wish I had never walked into that place! I just want to say screw it all!

Try looking at it from their point-of-view for a minute. Let's say you work for an agency and you've got this client. You're worried about her, but she won't talk to you. You have no idea what could be going on with her. What are you going to do?

What I'm trying to say is that the more you try to avoid them, the harder they're going to work to try and talk to you. It's not that they're bad people or that they want to hurt you...it's completely the opposite.

Beth,

By now, you must have already had your meeting with your "case worker"......hope it went better than you expected..........I am curious about what a "case manager' actually is? What place did you walk into to get a "case worker"? Sorry for asking so many questions. In the 12 years of dealing with anxiety/depression & filing a workman's comp case against the company I was working at that was the cause of my problem (which I ended up loosing), I never ran into anything that required a case manager.

During the past 12 years the only ones that have hospitalized me are the pdoc's & psychologists I have had.....& yes, it was when I talked to them (maybe similar to what happened to you). I know how hard it is not to say things when I am feeling bad (both physically & mentally...usually at the same time).....& just the wrong thing said seems to land me in a situation I don't want to be in too (lost count of the # of times I have been hospitalized).

Hopefully you will be able to keep in mind what you said last spring & concentrate on not letting those words come out in the future.

I am also curious....is there a way you can end that "case manager" relationship. Sounds like it is more stressful than it is worth......seems like they should be helping you rather than putting you into the stressful relationship you are in with them.

Thinking of you,
Debbie