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Hey guys,
Today I had one of the best sessions ever, I left feeling good and I should still feel good but actually because it was so good, I started to think about how i'm going to loose my T sometime next year and it's made me feel extremely anxious all evening. I feel like someone has given me really awful news and my heart feels so weighed down. I know you are probably thinking - next year - get over it!! My T and I are going to review in Feb but I can already see her evaluating things and talking about the progress I have made etc. I know this should be a good thing and until today I wasn't worrying about this at all. I don't know why I have let this panic take over on a day when I should be over the moon about a great session!! I hate feeling this anxious, I don't usually suffer from severe anxiety! ![]() |
![]() BonnieJean, Dr.Muffin
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You're facing a loss and even though that loss isn't for awhile, it feels real now. I'll be asking my T today if she plans on moving out of the area. I imagine she might say, "not now but probably next year". And even if my imagined event does not take place until next year, I will feel the loss now. I know if she does say those words today, I will feel a rush of panic come over my body. I will know it's not rational but I can't help my feelings. Any threat of abandonment by T causes these feelings. So, I understand completely why you're experiencing that. I'm on the verge of panic myself just thinking about asking her this question but I have to so I can get it out of my mind (or learn to cope with the horrible fact if, indeed, it is true).
But I also know that worrying about the future or even having regrets about the past do rob us of our lives in the now. I'm studying mindfulness now (T gave me a book) and it makes all the difference in the world. You might check it out. |
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When I was coming out of depression, I went through four stages:
1. I'll never be happy. 2. I'm happy now, but it won't last. 3. Happiness doesn't "last" but it does come back 4. Happiness is where I live |
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