A suggestion was made to have a "Daily Roll Call". Its a section where everybody checks in for the day to say how they are doing. Okay, I am going to start this thread and see how far it goes. Is it a keeper?

[WePow]

That is a fun idea! Will love to see how others are doing!!!

Me: I am 21 days sober. I am making good choices. It wasn't easy today, but I feel good that I made a solid effort. Also told my first person face to face (who is not my T) about my addiction and recovery. I told my best friend of 23 years. She didn't have a clue about my addiction. And she was VERY supportive. So I give myself an A for the day!

Tonight I am feeling great! I am reading a book that my therapist gave me "Boundaries". It has been very helpful to me in understanding that we all have boundaries and that every type of relationship has (or should have) boundaries.

[elliemay]

I ordered "love's executioner" today by Irvin Yalom. I guess I figure things have been so good, calm and productive in therapy as of late that it's time for me to freak out again.

[geez]

I've had a good day and trying not to think about my 'last appt' at the end of August! My next appt is this Tuesday and I think the hard part of ending therapy is the transference I'm experiencing right now.

[Indie'sOK]

WePow...that is great! I'm glad she was so supportive and accepting.

Geez...yeesh, I so know how you feel right now. It's the suckiest thing in the world and you deserve all sorts virtual hugs and more...I hope you feel better soon.

I'm doing alright...still at the campsite, having for the most part a good time, but I'm really grieving still. I miss my grandma so much and I tear up every time I think of it. She died in May. I feel guilty because I'm making this trip less fun for my parents and they want so badly for me to have fun...I bring everybody down.

[protector1973]

im reading the sociapath next door, excellent read

[skysblue]

I left message with my T today and promised her that I would be as honest as I possibly can in the future and come out of my hiding and I told her that saying this gave me the heebie jeebies. I told her that I was making a huge leap of faith and trust and I wanted her to know that she holds so much power over me now. And I said I know I can't make progress if I keep back and I'll do anything I can to find the courage to keep going.

[WePow]

Skysblue - now THAT is very awesome and brave!!!!

[laceylu]

I am tired but still need to figure out my new mp3 player. T wants me to learn guided imagery to sleep. A therapist named belleruth naparastek has a web site with downloads. I may or may not get this player working tonight might have to try again tomorrow.

I just gave my T a book called "First Person Plural, My Life as a Multiple" to read. She's excited, I'm excited for her. It makes me feel normal. I saw Harry Potter and was excited about that. I'm not doing well overall. I'm not sleeping well, and trying to function. My depression is sweeping in over me.

I know that I already checked in for today, but I have something else to say. Is that okay? The reason I feel great is because my marriage has turned around so much in the past few weeks! He made me a 'love songs' CD. This afternoon, he gave me a massage as we listened to the CD. That was so sweet. You see, my husband is a quadriplegic and for him to try to give me a massage took great effort on his part.

He kept telling me to just relax (I was trying to talk about stuff), so I finally gave in and laid there quietly. On the inside I was sobbing!! Why? because I cannot believe that we are finding each other again! I haven't been able to show too much emotion in front of him yet, but as I get used to the idea of 'falling in love again' after so many years, I will be able to open up to him more. I sure wish I could send you guys a picture of us!

[karebear1]

Awwww Squiggs.... that is so wonderful!!

Overall- I'm doing really well! I had a LAZY day of watching tv and relaxing and my husband was just a sweetheart abou it.

[Elli-Beth]

Things are messed up. Loads of stuttering, moving, new job soon, confrontations with people I'm scared of, migraines. T session felt like it only lasted 5 minutes. T will be on vacation at the worst possible time. I'm terrified of everything right now and T isn't taking it seriously!

I took a leap of faith and posted my pic on my profile. Not sure I can totally be identified (still need to keep that secure) but you get the picture that my husband and I are 'starting over'.

Curious as to how everyone "thought" I would look. You know how we get an image in our mind about people? Well, you don't have to wonder anymore. You at least know a little bit about how I look in RL.

[SilentLucidity]

Usually remains silent on here, but I am trying to share a bit more. I had a pretty good day to finish off what was an otherwise crappy week.

[rainbow8]

You're very pretty, Squiggle! I wish that my H and I could start over like you're doing with your H. You're an inspiration--you and your husband! Maybe, with hard work, we can....

[rainbow8]

I'm okay, but thought a little too much about my T today. The session with my H made me compare them, and realize I feel more for my T than for him. That's a pathetic insight, and makes me feel ashamed.

Am feeling better since medication was switched. Reading "Bitten" (very good book) !
Tomorrow is hubbys birthday so planning a cookout for him.

Originally Posted by rainbow8

You're very pretty, Squiggle! I wish that my H and I could start over like you're doing with your H. You're an inspiration--you and your husband! Maybe, with hard work, we can....

Thanks Rainbow. I sure NEVER thought this would happen in a million years. I told my therapist for the past year that I did NOT want to work on my marriage, I wanted OUT!! Thank God she never gave up on me and never gave up thinking that if I could somehow forgive him and forgive myself for the mistakes we have made, that we COULD make this work if we really wanted to.

[crazycanbegood]

I'm trying really hard to study for an exam but its hard to stay focus. I care but then I do not care. I am so terrified I am going to fail, which will in turn ruin my life. That's all.

[confused and dazed]

So far so good. I will see my T on Wed. I do miss my son... he is at my frineds house for the next 2-3 weeks. ( It will be a topic on my next T appt)

[nicoleb2]

I'm doing OK today (and tomorrow starts for me in 2 minutes). Having some self harm thoughts, but keeping them under control.

I am however going crazy because I sprained my ankle pretty badly so I am on crutches and can't do much.

[mixedup_emotions]

I'm in the throes of a serious depression at the moment....wondering if hospitalization may be necessary. When I think of T, I feel sick to my stomach....and I'm not sure why. Maybe because I'm just a miserable damper to be around - and I'm embarrassed by that. This too shall pass. Just wish it would pass quicker.

[sunrise]

I am feeling very down and very sad.