[rainbow8]

5:30 a.m., Squiggle! Do you work far from your home? August 1st is awfully early for a school year to start, isn't it? Around here, they start a month from now!

Originally Posted by rainbow8

5:30 a.m., Squiggle! Do you work far from your home? August 1st is awfully early for a school year to start, isn't it? Around here, they start a month from now!

I have to clock in by 7:45. By the time I get myself up and ready, and then get my husband up, dressed, and take care of his personal needs, it takes me about 2 hours. I only live about 3 miles from my work.

Teachers go back on Aug. 1st. Students begin on Aug. 4th. We get out around the 25th or so of May.

[pachyderm]

Yay, chocolate!

[Rose76]

WOW - I'm the first one posting since dawn in North America. Got out of the bed nice and early. For me: A major victory. Meds are helping.

I toted my son off to band this morning. He marches/practices from 7:30 in the morning until 9:00 in the evening everyday for the next three weeks. It is a brutal reminder that I have to go back to work in two weeks myself. Yuck. I'm not ready to go back into the real world yet. Summer is just too short.

[WePow]

Still doing ok. Working. Was reading the book T loaned me that I read at lunch - I was 1/2 way through it. I did speed reading on the rest of it today (not even reading it but just glancing)... I just want to hand it back to him on Thursday when I see him. I no longer care about reading all the stuff he highlighted.

[crazycanbegood]

i need to clean my room before the health department has it condemned

[Indie'sOK]

Same here CCBG...I found mugs and plates under my bed from over a week ago

[kaliope]

feel depressed. no melancholy is a better word. T called this morn and woke me up. i guess i wasnt being very responsive cause he told me to call him back and leave a voice mail as to whether i thought i needed to get in this week. i dont know that he can help. i feel beyond help.

I am amazed at how things can go from good to bad in such a short period of time. I don't know how I feel right now. Today has been full of ups and downs.

[rainbow8]

In spite of the heat, I had a good day today. My grandson was very good in the restaurant! I'm not obsessing about my T!

[nicoleb2]

Tough day today. Having a lot of si urges. Texted with my T earlier about the issue, but it's getting worse as the night wears on

[dismantle.repair]

Feeling ridiculously irritable and restless. SI urges Fatigued.... Hmph

Originally Posted by nicoleb2

Tough day today. Having a lot of si urges. Texted with my T earlier about the issue, but it's getting worse as the night wears on

How do you keep yourself from doing it?

[Rose76]

I've been having a complete absence of SI for a while now. Now I have a hard time relating to the person I was when I was very depressed. It's like - "Oh, that wasn't me; that was someone else. I don't even know her." My T says I need to learn co-conscience whereby the happy me and the depressed me stay in touch with each other. I haven't been able to figure out why, of how, I would do that. ???

I am off to my second day of work. Lots of meetings!

I'm having a hard time today

[rainbow8]

ghost:

T is on vacation and I miss him.

I've been doing SO SO well. Going through all of these huge changes in my life and dealing with them in a really healthy way. Feeling connected to and loved by T. Allowing myself to connect with others and be honest and ask for help.

And then today, I talked to my mom and she was drunk in the morning AGAIN and it was just one day in a row too many - I am so sick of repeating the same things over and over because she blacks out - and then I feel guilty because she helps pay for some of the boys' classes - and UGH. And I used a bad coping skill for the first time in a long time. It was the "least bad" of my bad coping skills, but still.

And then I e-mailed T on vacation, and I don't even know if he's checking e-mail or if he has internet or what. And blah.

I know it will feel better again. I do wish T was here. Oh well.

[WePow]

Made it through my medical junk. UGGG. But I made it! Also today had my stupid job review for the year!!!! First one since my return to work after my disability last year. I got good marks. Boss marked me higher than I marked myself :-)

Wish I felt like sharing this with my T... but I don't. :-(
I see him Thursday. All it feels like is I am just punishing myself for needing him last week. IDK.

My anxiety keeps going up and down. Extremes!! I don't know what is up with that.

Lunesta is working. Stress is soaring. I am still overweight and wish my clothes had not shrunk over the summer! What is up with that?

[delicatefade26]

I have a session this evening...and last one was filled with angry transference-so I'm anxious for this one-hoping all goes well...

[Rose76]

Got out of bed early with no problem. 14 days straight with no dysthymia. Best I've done in 8 months. This morning, I'm even cooking frijoles. Haven't done this in years. Oh please, may this be the start of real recovery. I'm pushing myself to do more.

[Butterflies Are Free]

Dear T,
Went to the art museum with a male friend today and had SUCH a wonderful time!
Can't wait to talk to you about it tomorrow!