Back to hell today (BIG vent) trigger.

I'm sorry.... need to delete, not feeling safe ((( Will delete the past too...

((((((((((((((hazeleyes))))))))))))))

So sorry you are having a down day! I hope these hugs can help you find some peace.

Hazeleyes, I´m so sorry that you had to go through all this as a child and now once again. I think you´re very brave! It took a lot of strength to do this- "travel in time".
It must have been really hard on you! But you´re doing things to get better in the future and this was a huge, but painful step forward. Hang in there! Continue your walk on the path to freedom! You´ll get there! Don´t give up! We´re all here to feed you with some good energy.

((((((((((Hazeleyes)))))))))

(((HAZLEEYES))))
Please,please be safe.
I am sorry you are so sad and frustrated.
Please, know I care.

((((((((((((((((((((hazeleyes)))))))))))))))))))))

Healing can be hell. It sounds like it is for you. We want to keep you here on Earth with us.

Thank you guys. I'm trembling inside. Full of fear and don't think I'll make it outside today. Don't want to see anyone, just stay inside and wait for the pain to not be so strong. .... I feel like I want to quit therapy, withdrawl... so much shame and strong feelings. I'm sinking into that black hole and thinking this can't be healthy. Maybe I'll survive better with the old masks. My T told me she would see my alcoholic mom with me, if I wanted .... I'm not sure I could go that far.... so much pain (((((((( Thanks for being here. I need your support and I am so sorry I can't be of any support myself right now.

Yes, sometimes during the Healing process we have to re-live the exact pain we went through once before.
I understand wanting to w/drawl and quitting T. It becomes too much @ times.
But, please, press on. Healing is happening even if you do not feel like it is.
Have faith in the process...
I care about you!

(((hugs))) drawing back into a safer feeling place is ok from time to time.... just be sure to come out again, and maybe you'll get a few steps farther next time.

Therapy IS work. Anyone who has been in it, trying, knows this.... sometimes we do forget it though, right? TC of yourself... be patient... trust the T.

((SusanJane)) (((Sky))) Thank you for caring, it means so much to me. I'm trying to be open and accept the help from other people, because I know when I can- I want to help and I care of others too. Right now I'm not much of a helper since I fear I'm going insane. Need to shut off these thoughts somehow. I wrote my T today, telling her how I feel. I force myself to do things altho I fear them. Altho so many dark thoughts right now.... I'm searching ....

Let us carry you with our love! You can beat this, hazel! You´re deep pain and missery seem to hold you in its iron hand, but you can get away. It may sound like it´s easy but I know, it´s really not.
You´ve already shown a huge fighting spirit and you can use that spirit again!

Let us love you!