need to vent and maybe trigger

This may should not be here and I dont know how to express this and vent. I know people lose love ones in many ways. I lost my grandpa due to suicide. He didn't want to live anymore. He lost his wife 3yrs ago and his daughter my aunt has some type of brain cancer. I know if this bother my life style need to bring up in meeting with psychatrist. Has anyone ever had a hard time losing a love one to suicide. It kinda like a part of you is missing and not the right way to go. If it was heart attack or just old age and die in his sleep guess I have a hard time letting go

I lost my grandpa to suicide when I was 12. even then I just could not believe he would do that to me. it hurt really bad and at times even now it still does. I think acceptance begins the healing. (((hugs)))

I love the best friend I ever had to suicide. I think I cried more about him then anyone else I have lost. I felt so bad that he was in so much pain he felt that was the only way out! I feel bad I could not bring him out of the dark cloud. It was very painful for me and still is. I am sorry you are hurting over the loss. I do not think it is the right thing to do because it hurts so many left behind. But I can not judge the person that takes their own life! We all do what we feel we need to do good or bad right or wrong. It is sad that your family is going through pain with other losses and now this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

maybe we suffer more from suicide because it is so senseless and selfish. just my opinion though. it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

I've only read about my great grandfather's suicide in the newspaper from 1921 (he was rich and famous) and it affects me; my baby book has his name in my chart in the front with just initials; seemed odd to me that my mother would only put in his initials but she was only 7 when he died and she and her mother (and aunts; my great grandfather had 3 daughters and they all adored their father) were all vacationing down in San Francisco from Tacoma, Washington, where he drowned himself at his own pier (he was a lumber baron). The newspaper says the widow, my great grandmother wasn't told until the next day because there wasn't anyone close in town to be with her. I never heard a whiff of it, had to find it out through research!