myT called again

for some reason my T call me again tonight.my husband answered the phone.i knew it was her services because of caller ID.i totally panicked because i thought they were calling to cancel everything.but it was my T calling to see how i was doing and to confirm my appointment for monday and to tell me that she has another day and time available.she probibly thinks i am crazy because i was in a good mood and was like hi and awsome and all.but i never asked her what day and time she had.it didn't mater because i wasnt working anymore.she doesnt know that so must think i am completely insane because i was all good with anything.it was nice that she called and got me when i was in a good mood for a change

Awesome!!

YAY! New day for Granite!!

That's great Granite!!

she really does seem to be knowing just what i need this week.her calling me today set my mind at ease that she was going to change her mind or that i misunderstood her or that what she meant was to find me another T or that she was going to use this situation as some kind of hard life lesson.she truely wants to change my day and work with me more that this is truely going to happen .maybe she doesnt think i am a spoiled horrid little brat or anything like it. now i wish i didn't have to give her the news about my freak out over my job

WAHOO!!! NO MORE MONDAY HOLIDAYS !! I am so happy for you!

This is SO SO awesome, granite!

my T was a little worried when I told him YOU were worried, but I told him NOT to worry, she is a good T. I am going to email him this wonderful good news right now. He loved your smilies in your session write-up; he said you're very expressive.

That is WONDERFUL news, granite!Do you think you have learned not to predict what your T will say from this experience? Maybe she didn't always have another day available but now she does!!! You can see how much she cares because she called you again just to tell you that!!

Yay!!! What awesome news, granite

That's really great news both the call and the appointment

Yay!!

That will help you keep feeling good for a bit!

Maybe because you told her?

god i woke up thismorning with all these miserable thoughts and stomach turning and heart racing and all.i just want all this to stop.i was doing ok wednsday and yesterday.it isnt even about T it is just about every stupid thing that can run through my mind.yes i am scared about if she is going to be angry at my behavior.my husband is home with me again.i know that he is very worried about me but i need to figure this stuff out on my own. i think it is making me feel horrible that he is missing work because of me.and my friend took off yesterday to be with me i havnt hurt myself or anything so i kind of wish they would back off.i have T monday and i hope then they will let me alone.i know they love me but

oops, inappropriate. it was a HUGE step. you should expect to be in turmoil about it. it's like now the floodgates have opened or the dam has burst and you're being tossed around in all this rushing water. that would make you seasick! you were "safe" before, safe and sure but miserable and going down, on a sinking ship. now it's more unknown, but at least you have a chance of being rescued?

You had a great victory which helped you to feel good for a few days but there is still work to do and this undone stuff would make you feel not well.

Maybe you are also upset about telling T about your job? How did your husband react if you don't mind me asking?

i guess you may be right.i am terrified about everything going on.and will i be able to handle everything and will i be able to let my T help me and will she know how,will she want to,is she biting off more than she can chew etc...i want to come clean on monday about all that was going on in my head last monday because i am feeling guilty and i dont want her changing my day for the wrong reasons..i kind of want to write here about the thoughts but not sure

he is completely ok with itbut tuesday i was not in a good place after all this and wouldnt talk and come out of my room for a long time andmy behavior wasnt the best.i think this is why he is home and my friend stayed with me yesterday.but i am acting better now.i think he is worried about why and not that i did

He is priceless! I am so happy that you have such a wonderful husband!

I really think she gets it. That's why she kept calling back. There is no such thing as changing the day for the wrong reason - I RECOGNIZE that thought, granite! I have had that exact same thought! For the wrong reason. Because otherwise she'll get mad at you, if it's for the wrong reason, I know! Because with the mother, that's an excuse she would use to get out of a promise to us, the wrong reason. But she would have given it to us for the RIGHT reason - but we never could come up with the right reason, could we? I KNOW logically our mothers aren't the same person, but in many ways they are. Really eerie.

Edited: Or maybe that's the excuse our brilliant little minds came up with ourselves.

they do seem to have a simmilar belief system or someting dont they?hubby said he wants to take me out tonight.i think he is trying to fill my time untill i see T.maybe it isn't so bad to have him around

He is the best granite!! Can you tell him for me that I think that he is the best and thank him for taking good care of my friend here?

I'm glad they did. That's two people who love you.

Fantastic news about T Granite sounds like you have a great support network with hubby and friend too