to go or not to go

MKAC, I'll be in your pocket if you do go!

I hope you go, or that you went already. I'm in your pocket, of course, but it's so crowded in here that I don't know if we left already or if we're trying to get organized and find places for all the munchies.

I thought we needed a ladder, 4th floor? I brought windex and papertowels so we dont leave face prints on the glass!

actually I wanted to leave faceprints on the glass

Sorry Sitting, I was just gonna clean it after session as to leave no evidence.

I can picture it now. MKAC sitting in session, pockets overflowing with people. Another crowd of folks is wedged together outside on the window ledge, faces smooshed up against the glass.

... and stopdog and I are at the cafe down the street (separate tables ). Both of us nonchalantly sipping our beverages while hoping good things are happening for MKAC.

You HOPE it's just our FACEprints...! "Moon over Parma..."

Hence windex and papertowels!

Better a firehose and industrial carpeting!

four floors up? kidding right??

hey we could take some shaving cream and write stuff on the window. Then MKAC would have to get a new T.

"Waiter, bring me a chai. Of course - I don't WANT one exactly; if you bring it fine, if you don't, fine. ... Just - if you bring it - leave the check with my friend over there, hehe"

MKAC, how about asking T to come out to the downstreet cafe and take a table with you. We'll see what yr T is really made of....

And you all wonder why we are detached?

I hope the appointment went well MKAC.

[quote=stopdog;2255010]And you all wonder why we are detached?
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common let the inner child play....can we call her stoppuppy?

STOPPUPPY...made me LOL in my office!!!! Good thing the door is shut. Then again, I can imagine looking to my left where the three plate glass windows are and having a whole bunch of people with their faces smushed against the glass looking at me.

And one full moon...

No cafe for you, pbutton! You were the original face smoosher at the window, remember? Sorry you and SAW, Lola, hankster and rainbow got rained on today outside the window. I looked out the window several times, picturing you guys there and just started grinning. T kept going, "What? What are you thinking?" I didn't tell him.

The appointment went well, and I truly appreciate the pocket riders and the moral support. T was really nice, as always, and we talked about the whys of my meltdown last week, all the stuff with my friends, my family, my marriage and then the childhood issues that were getting brought up. At one point, he was talking about how normal those feelings are because therapy is "weird" and I said it probably wasn't the first time a client had said that stuff to him. He agreed it wasn't the first time, and he gets "that Jon Stewart thing" a lot. Yeah. Well. It's because you look like Jon Stewart, Idiot. Oh, and apparently, "Idiot" is not a term of endearment, according to my T. Just one more thing that I learned "wrong" during my weird childhood. hahaha. kinda funny, but not, right?

AND stoppuppy is too too funny! Stopdog, I"ll give you a dollar to change your screen name!

"It's because you look like Jon Stewart, Idiot. Oh, and apparently, "Idiot" is not a term of endearment, according to my T. "

I guess Dumb *** is out too?

We pronounce it "EARdeeit" per my mother's accent. I totally used to use it as a term of endearment, and also was surprised to find that people did not feel endeared upon!

Stop calling him idiot. Start calling him Mr. Delicious. That'll teach him to shun your affectionate terminology.

So glad it went well for you ((((( MKAC ))))) yr T looks like a nice guy.

I'm so glad you got this one behind you, Mkac! Here's to healing with eye-candy T's! I wish I had one of those.
Bluemountains

How do you feel about stoppitbull?

You know I was only pokin at you right?

Yes. I know everyone is playing. I am having fun.

It is amazing to me how much help and support I received from a group of people I don't really know, who don't really know me. How weird is that? Why do you guys even care if I go? Don't get me wrong, I am amazed and terribly grateful that you DO care, and that you took the time to help me all this last week. It just amazes me.

My T also said a lot of nice things last week and this week, that I need to think about more. He insists he is telling the truth and not just making up nice things. For instance, he says that although he knows therapy is weird and it is the weirdness of the relationship that causes feelings like those I talked about last week, he also feels really privileged when someone like me expresses loving feelings, and reveals really private information. He said I was neat, engaging, wonderful and loving. He said adoring me was a "no-brainer" and it was a sign of how pathological my family that they don't love me. All things that are really amazing to hear, but that I also feel are untrue or suspicious. I still struggle with this, "what is his point? what does he want?" response.

He also said that if he thought I was gross or was repelled by me, he wouldn't lie to me about it; he would evade the issue and redirect me. So, when he says that he is "the opposite of repelled" by me, I can believe him. I actually said, "the opposite of grossed out? The opposite of repelled? Are you just not ALLOWED to the say the word, or are you being self protective?" His reply, "I'm pretty sure there's a rule against it," and he laughed.

So, lots of nice things about the last couple days, both from this forum and from my T to process. I feel kinda like that Smiley guy on Saturday night live tonight: I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and by golly, people like me!" hahahahaha