[newtus]

i was actually told by my current therapist that they could not help me in the beginning. though..1. i chose to stay because i just want to let out stuff really. i just want my mind emptied. i dont care about so much advice so much because i just need to let my mind empty weekly. also..2. i hate change. do you think thats a bad choice? it helps me to me to just let it out and they really just help me on a as needed basis. theres nothing i really "work on" because ive been having numerous run-ins with hospitals because i have schizoaffective dx. anyway i dont see this as bad but i dont think this is typical? so is that bad? or bad choice? i really just "work on" talking about meds and complying and daily happenings. i probably wont stay but 2-3 more months.

[kaliope]

From what you have written, I would guess your T told you a therapist cannot help because you are not looking for treatment, you are not looking for change, you do not want advice on what to do differently in your life, so what are you really going to a therapist for? Going to a therapist isnt a bad thing, but they are trained to help, so find it frustrating not to be able to do that. What you are looking for is just somebody to talk to, get all your thoughts out, so why not find a friend or support group where you can do this?

[sunrise]

[quote=newtus;2317934i really just "work on" talking about meds and complying and daily happenings. i probably wont stay but 2-3 more months.[/quote]If you need meds to avoid psychosis and to function in life, then talking about meds and improving compliance is HUGE. I think this is a great use of therapy. So is getting feedback on dealing with daily happenings. I hope you will keep going.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by kaliope

From what you have written, I would guess your T told you a therapist cannot help because you are not looking for treatment, you are not looking for change, you do not want advice on what to do differently in your life, so what are you really going to a therapist for? Going to a therapist isnt a bad thing, but they are trained to help, so find it frustrating not to be able to do that. What you are looking for is just somebody to talk to, get all your thoughts out, so why not find a friend or support group where you can do this?

when i say "T" i mean therapist. i am looking for change. thats why im still going atm. im saying i dont want to see a different therapist because i hate fishing for therapists. id rather stay with the 1-2 i first check out. i dont have friends. dont make friends out of severe paranoia (which meds cant seem to help). im not really sociable by nature. im ok with that (how do i explain it.. im kind of like schizoid in way. not clinically though im sure). im more willing to pay to let my thoughts out than share time with someone i could care less about. what im saying is the therapy is helping in certain aspects by letting my thoughts out. she says she cant help me but i dont want to "go fishing" again.
not sure if i just explained it right.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by sunrise

If you need meds to avoid psychosis and to function in life, then talking about meds and improving compliance is HUGE. I think this is a great use of therapy. So is getting feedback on dealing with daily happenings. I hope you will keep going.

thank you. i was hoping it wasnt too bad because i didnt want to look again and again. thats what i had meant by change. its been helping little by little but didnt know if it was worth my time to attempt therapy even though tbh i am trying... its just hard. im very honest with my therapist about why i dont take them..like why i dont want them and she tells me pros and cons..stuff like that etc you know.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by newtus

when i say "T" i mean therapist. i am looking for change. thats why im still going atm. im saying i dont want to see a different therapist because i hate fishing for therapists. id rather stay with the 1-2 i first check out. i dont have friends. dont make friends out of severe paranoia (which meds cant seem to help). im not really sociable by nature. im ok with that (how do i explain it.. im kind of like schizoid in way. not clinically though im sure). im more willing to pay to let my thoughts out than share time with someone i could care less about. what im saying is the therapy is helping in certain aspects by letting my thoughts out. she says she cant help me but i dont want to "go fishing" again.
not sure if i just explained it right.

If T listens to you and no one else will, that's a good enough reason to keep going.

[Perna]

I would try the coach route, try to make friends I can just "talk" to, form a support system of a different sort and try to stay out of hospitals. If the medical model won't help, you have to form your own social model (like us, only in-person :-) to help get you what you want.