Welcome to the Couch! People of PC Psychotherapy (Part 2)

Just wanted to say hi

I'm 18 and in treatment for depression and psychosis. I currently see 3 different kind of T's at the moment and thought it might be helpful just to join in the chat here!

Hope everyone is doing ok.

i wont even get to see him before he goes to that place.i think he will be ok because he will be guarding the inside not the outside

welcome have a seat

I had a really bad night last night. I had a sort of panic attack before I went to bed and realized that for the first time I'm angry at my T for leaving me in the middle of a suicide attempt. I'm angry at being abandoned. What the **** was he thinking?? Why would he do that to me??? I trusted him!! He looked into my eyes on that last session and asked me if I trusted him and I whispered back to him that I did. And then he ****ing left me to go through that on my own!

I finally fell asleep and had a nightmare that i was back at my childhood home which literally is this 100 year old haunted farmhouse and I was outside on a moonlit night and there was something coming after me and it was terrifying. I was all alone. All I could think was that I have to face this all by myself. No one will come to save me. It's all up to me.

I woke up just as the thing got to me.

Chopin, can I ask why you take all these meds? You can tell me it's none of my business.

And I ask because my mother takes all kinds of drugs, including these, and has for years. Mixing and matching them, and doubling doses, has resulted in several "accidental" overdoses.

Chopin, the list sent up a red flag for me too not because of overdose concerns, but it seemed at odds with your other thread about trying to feel stuff more freely.

I know that pain management can be a bi tch, but even cutting down on the number of meds might help the emotions flow more freely, since each pain medication has slightly different numbing psychoactive effects.

My partner suffers from debilitating migraines that severely hampered her functioning for years--not just headaches, but retching until she was completely dehydrated. There was even a period where she could only eat baby food and rice. So my point is her condition is severe.

So she finally got into a pain management program and the pendulum swung from total unmanageability to being overmedicated. When we entered couples' counseling about 5 years ago, I complained of her seeming emotionally deadened. When we told our counselor what meds she was on, he jokingly looked at her and yelled, "CAN YOU HEAR ME, SNUFFLE'S WIFE?!" We got the point.
She pared things down until she is on a low dose preventative, one med, percocet, for acute pain, and an as needed nausea med. She is so much more "her, " feelings and all, AND she can practically manage her symptoms and function.

I'm just thinking you might be much more able to cry if you reduced the number of meds you're on. Just an idea from my own life experience.

Thanks for your concern MKAC and Snuffle. I take 8 mg Zanaflex for two purposes: chronic neck pain/tension and sleep. I take .5 mg Klonopin at night for sleep and PRN anxiety. Haven't taken for anxiety in 2 years. The Vicodin 7.5/500 is PRN. 30 pills lasted me a year. I also take 150 mg Zoloft for depression.

Right now I'm at the beach and it is great therapy!!!!

Well my T is awesome and had me an appointment set up with a new doc on Monday. I received an appointment confirmation call from her office and I hadn't made an appointment. So when I saw T he said by the way you should get a call .... We laughed as I knew I wasn't that crazy to have made an appointment and forgotten. I T.

Lola-I want your T.

I'll share... I'll take him anything you got... I feel very lucky

*******Trigger Warning For Ed*****

Came home and binged on 4 pieces of pizza and 8 buffalo wings. Just want to crawl in a hole and drink until I puke.

If you wanna talk I'm here for you

Thanks for the offer Tonya. I am just...just...just....? Lost. Its near dark out..maybe I'll just go take a little walk and then come back here later.

That's a scary cocktail...
(I know: easy to say after a good night's sleep!)

((Granite))

((Lilly))

It is terrible to feel abandoned.

But you did face it (SU) alone and you won.
You are strong.

Sorry to be the one hiding in the corner of the couch tonight being sad....not a great day here. I play in a community band and one of the ladies who played with us up until two years ago passed away in a car accident this week. Sunday is also the 10 year anniversary of my dad passing away. Sorry to the healthy eaters here, but I am letting myself go tonight. Ice cream and wine...

I look like a tomato. The beach was great therapy and we had a great time, but we got burnt up!! Ugh.

Don't know why I never sat down in here, seems cozy. But im jealous of everyone getting to the beach all the time. The nearest beach to me is at least a few hours away.

(((sconnie,))))
That is a hard weekend, ice cream and wine allowed

No beach for me, but we have a community pool where I swim most mornings. I swam for an hour & 20 minutes this morning I totally lost track of how much time was going by so deep in thought was I. Um, and as a result I'm resembling a tomato a little bit myself!!

I love the smell of solarcaine.

And the stickyness of Aloe....

No beaches, no swimming - I don't want to expose anybody to the spectacle of swimsuit Apteryx, and there are no beaches nearby anyway. Swedes tend to be crazy about outdoor swimming, though. Weird people.

In any case, it's going to rain all day and is really cold (11° C last time I looked) so this is strictly an indoor Saturday.)

[ETA: Now it's 4°C. Honestly - it's June! It's supposed to be summer! We don't get that much summer here anyway, so what's the reasoning behind winter temperatures in June??)

no beach for me yesterday i got cold here and now it is going to rain for a week making my morning tea and pouting.

sounds like you had a good day chopin exsept for the burn.

going to work on a letter for my T today and hoping i will be able to give it to her.maybe some crafts also because it is a cold rainey day here

I'll be hanging on the couch a lot today.