Being tested... not cool

I'm being tested by a psychologist to find out all about which issues I have. Not cool! I sat in front of a computer screen... had to push a button every time a square appeared at the top in an other bigger square... and not to push when it appeared in the bottom of the big square. Sounds simple... but to sit and stare at that blinking thing for 20 minutes without loosing concentration was not exactly fun to do.
Eyes almost got "blind" in the end... lol
Well... the test went well! So that's good!
Then I had to answer questions about this and that... history questions and other stuff.
Then I had to look in a folder with pictures. In every picture something was missing. That went well too... but boy to sit there and look for the missing piece with someone watching..... urgh.
Then I had to repeat digits after her. Several in a row. Then I had to do the same thing backwards.

I just hate when I don't do exactly everything right!!!!!! I put such pressure on myself!

So there I sat cracking jokes... laughing to hide my true self. Inside I felt so insecure!

Well, next week it's time again.

I know I have to do this to find out exactly what is wrong with me besides OCD and depression, but I don't like it. I get scared! What if she find out that I have some major problems???? Can't stop thinking forward... worrying about the final result.

Just needed to vent this....

Sounds irritating. Good thing you're doing it, though. I know you're afraid of her finding some major problem, but what if she didn't find them? They'd still be there, but you wouldn't be able to get any treatment for them.

Doesn't sound like a fun appointment, though. Hang in there.

wow. what is that supposed to test for?

Sounds no fun to me. I'm glad I've never did that. Hang in there. Whatever problems come up you and your T (or team) can deal with them.

Grrrr.... more tests today! I'm totaly drained now! Tomorrow I'll do the final tests.

Can't wait to get it over and done with! Hmmm... but then I will soon get the results.... BIG ANXIETY!

I can't take this! I will have to wait until the 15:th of June to get the results of the tests. I feel so small, like I was in front of a jury and facing the judge ready to hear the verdict.
The psychologist has given me a few hints of what she think is "wrong"... and I sure don't like it!
I don't wanna know the answer! It scares me soooo much! At the same time I want to know what's wrong with me. Not easy!

This is going to be one looooong wait!

I tried to write and comfort others here, this evening. Then suddenly I just started to cry, right out of the blue. I've been irritated against my family this afternoon and evening... doesn't feel good at all! I'm thinking, thinking, thinking... Feel so alone!
Isn't it enough to have OCD, social phobia and depression??? Do I have to have even more issues???!!!!!

I felt like a nutcase sitting there putting objects together, while she's clocking me... answering a lot of questions about words... different stories... looking at pictures... combine pictures in a certain order... and so on.....

Many of the standard tests show basic issues... anxiety, attachment, depression and stuff like that.

Poetrylover, please remember that the test results do not MAKE you those dx's. You are already suffering with "stuff" and they will only help the therapists know HOW and WHAT you are suffering! Nothing has changed within you, and you're needs. Plus, you are not your DX!

Testing will save the therapists time in sessions (and you of course too!) Some tests will help them to know if you need certain medications that can help you feel better sooner, too!

Some of the tests might show IQ. You already have this, too, btw! But knowing about having certain IQs (low, mid, high) can help you learn to compensate better.

You are still the wonderful "you!" testing doesn't change that!

sounds sucktacularly uncool ((((((((((((( Nina )))))))))))))))

I just had to come here... ! I'm so nervous and anxious about tomorrow. Tomorrow I will get the results of the tests I've been doing.
I just hate this... everything at the same time... my eye hurting, the results of the tests and after that a meeting with 4 people about our son and his Asperger.

Well... we'll see what kind of conclusions the psychologist has been able to come up with...

Thanks for reading! I just needed to get this off my chest... before I hit the sack.

(((((((((( Nina )))))))))))))

Hugs,

Jan

((((((((((((((Nina)))))))))))))))))) I hope tomorrow goes well for you.

I hope it goes well tomorrow! ((((((((((((( Nina )))))))))))))

(((((((((((Nina)))))))))))

Thinking of you!

Thank you for all the support you've given me!!!! It means a lot to me!
The results showed that I've got Asperger's disorder. Not lack of empathy and understanding others... though. But most of the other criterias were filled.

Hi Poetrylover. I'm glad to hear that you got through those tests, and that you got the answer you've waited for. It's scary when you know something is wrong, but you don't know what. And of course your imagination starts running, and you think of all the horrible things that it could be, when in reality its not as bad as you thought it would be. I've been there. I'm glad that you finally know what's going on, because now you can treat it, and get better! Take care, and big hugs!

--Dez

((((((((((((((( Dezdemona ))))))))))))))))

Thank you for your caring words!

Absolutely better to know and learn to compensate than to struggle back and forth and never figuring anything out. Everyone has something different about them...so you're normal in that sense! We all are!