Couch 26

Lola...somethings just need to get done... I'm decluttering too today. Looking for things to either sell at Once Upon a Child (store buys used kids toys, clothes) or donate to goodwill.

Though I'm not looking forward to it.

i just got an email from my therapist, checking on how i am. (it's been 1.5 months since i saw her) didn''t expect that. nice, tho.

have no idea how to respond....

No, me! If I start driving now, I should make it in plenty of time.

I have that "want to run away feeling" really bad today.

Tell her how you're feeling!

I would but I'm weird that way. At least he might have good suggestions on who else to invite.

Sconnie - really the clapper??! Omg!

We haven't really gotten the chance to. She did tell me about the breathing from your nose thing but I forgot about it in the moment. i was trying multiple things but kept breaking down. I eventually picked up my journal and scribbled things down in it, and that helped get the thoughts out of my head long enough to stop the cycle.

My eyes feel like there's glass shards stuck in the corners now, thanks to the dried tears and everything. lol. But I finally got some sleep and my dog's still fine.

Hi!! MIL came and picked up my kids for the day at 8:30 this morning. I fell back asleep after that and woke up at 12:30 opps! Must get some lunch and start cleaning the living room up, we are putting our tree up!!!

hey healed! Sleeping in must've felt good huh? XD I might put our tree up today too.

Yup.. feel really good!! Trying to convince my H to go out and buy me some lunch, so far he hasn't put is guitar down, not a good sign!

Whats for lunch. I'm hungry. What else is new.

(sila) when i would start to get all nervous/freaked out with t in the past she would always remind me to "find your feet" which is short for "focus, go out of your head, down into your body, check in with your different parts as you go, until you get to your feet." i lived in my head for waaaaay too long and it took her a few tries to teach me exactly how to 'go down into my body' but i learned. And what's cool is i remembered it at a time when i started to panic in a rl situation, and was able to apply it: it was during training for my new job, our 'final exam' at the end of training had a bunch of pharmacist math in it and I frickin' HATE math and I started to panic and was thinking 'omg they're going to fire me if i fail this and i haven't even started the actual job yet omgomg' and then somehow I heard t's voice "artemis find your feet!" and i put my pen down, closed my eyes, took a deep breath and went down into my body all the way to my feet. Then I opened my eyes, picked up my pen, and finished the exam. (I passed, got 100% even on the math!) So it works once you learn it. It takes work to learn it but oh boy is it helpful once you learn it.

We're heading out in about 15 mins to get a tree, then will put it up and decorate this afternoon. I'll post pics once I find my camera that is. LOL

.......did somebody say lunch? I'm hungry and am craving taco bell.

Lunch... Just sent H out to get me half a tuna sub, with provolone cheese and pickles.. with motts sticks on the side!! Yummy!!!!

..What's with taco bell today? I swear XD My bf was craving taco bell last night and now you too artemis! lol.

Also, i totally know what you mean by being stuck in your head..I too have that problem way too much. I couldn't stop the spiraling thoughts. The panic. I was close to calling one of the crisis hotlines...but my fear of phones pulled me away. I think if I had called I probably would've been able to break out of it faster though. :/ I'll be asking my T for some advice during times like that, when I can't just call people since it's early in the morning and I can't do the deep breathing exercises etc.

I just had a lunch meat sandwich. (Low fat turkey breast and low fat pastrami sliced thin with low fat veggie cheese on toasted pumpernickel bread) After that very low fat lunch, I had chocolate pudding. Defeats the purpose.

Hope Wiki is not reading -well-with our food choices today between tuna subs, taco bell and lunch meat.

I had some spagetti for breakfast, and now I'm eating cranberry bread with pink lemonade.

Sila..spagetti for breakfast? lol. I no longer feel guilty about my pudding. lol

yep Jersey. It's leftovers for me, not sure if foodstamps has renewed yet, so no groceries in the house right now. So i had some leftover spagetti.

Leftovers are good. Why waste food? So many people without.

True. H and I have been eating leftovers for a week from Thanksgiving. Finally let the dogs have what was left this afternoon. I made myself some spaghetti for lunch (one of my faves ) and am going to bake some porkchops for dinner (one of H's faves). Need to get off my a s s and do something!!!

I hear ya Chop. I need to get up off my lazy butt to. After work, I ploped myself down and the only thing I got up for was to get some food and ice tea.

Course I'm not feeling physically well over the past 2 weeks. Between my screwed up hormones, constant body aches, low energy, tingling in my fingers and toes and no medical insurance to actually go and get all this stuff checked out-I'm just blah.

Just finished up all the turkey by making soup and adding a lot of vegetables and eating some of it now with homemade whole grain bread.
I spent the morning raking leaves while my younger dog spent his morning unraking them, grabbing the rake, circling around and throwing himself down in the leaves with a play crouch at me to induce me to play with him - which worked so I have to go finish the yard when he takes his nap. My dogs are like spoiled 3 year old kids. Actually the younger one is a spoiled 3 year old but dog.

I'm sorry you've been feeling poorly. The tingling worries me the most. I wouldn't be able to afford the doctor, therapist, dentist...anything...without insurance, crappy as it may be.

Yeah. I can't afford to go pay out of pocket for the doc. Then T gets frustrated and tells me to go to the doc and get checked. "Well, T. I don't have insurance, or are we forgetting that, duh"